Guilt and longing suck my balls

[pantomime04]

Well I'm back at home now until the 8th. I have some plans for throughout the vacation but not too much. Tomorrow I might see Kevin so that will be interesting. I'm looking forward to it because I miss him, but I'm not really sure how things are going to go so I'm a bit nervous as well. Everytime I talk to him he confuses me, or I just end up

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[demonessphoenix]

Sarah, it's like I said, you'll be better eventually. I'm not promising an overnight cure or anything, but you'll get past it. Yeah, you screwed up. Yeah, it's not pretty. But you have to forgive yourself for it eventually, and one day you'll learn to live without Kevin as a boyfriend and you'll be able to move on. I wish I could give you an actual date on that, but I can't.

And of course you care. You're not a horrible person, and the fact that you do care so much proves that. The only thing that'll heal this one is time though, time and you forgiving yourself.