Totally overwhelmed
So after the whole student loan thing, I take K to the drs. School is not going well and it seems to be because of the meds. So I go in thinking that we would just lower the dosage. I'm almost in tears because I love how it is making him think and it's sad to know that will go because he is just wild and uncontrollable... So dr said we can put him on another med. So he's on 3 different kinds of meds which is 5 pills a day. If no improvement in 3 weeks, then we add another med.
This is what a never wanted. Living with a drug cocktail :(
But really what choice do I have. I can take him off it all, watch him struggle at school while he is oblivious to the world around him.
Or watch him struggle with one med that lets him thinks but makes him more impulsive than normal.
Or balance meds so he can have a somewhat "normal" life and fit in and get by at school.
It would be selfish of me to do anything but try and find the right med combo. My feelings should be irrelevant because they aren't necessarily what is best for Kieran.
It's just so overwhelming. I'm worried about money. Sad about the med situation and how it's not getting better. And worried about the play observation diagnosis to see what new dx he qualifies for... which could be good or bad, depending on the dx. Then my mum emailed me to let me know my grandfather has cancer... it could be just skin, but since it's on his head, it might be in his brain and how she was glad I got to see him last yr. They won't know how long he has till next mos
I just wish I could turn off my brain to stop all the thoughts.
This is what a never wanted. Living with a drug cocktail :(
But really what choice do I have. I can take him off it all, watch him struggle at school while he is oblivious to the world around him.
Or watch him struggle with one med that lets him thinks but makes him more impulsive than normal.
Or balance meds so he can have a somewhat "normal" life and fit in and get by at school.
It would be selfish of me to do anything but try and find the right med combo. My feelings should be irrelevant because they aren't necessarily what is best for Kieran.
It's just so overwhelming. I'm worried about money. Sad about the med situation and how it's not getting better. And worried about the play observation diagnosis to see what new dx he qualifies for... which could be good or bad, depending on the dx. Then my mum emailed me to let me know my grandfather has cancer... it could be just skin, but since it's on his head, it might be in his brain and how she was glad I got to see him last yr. They won't know how long he has till next mos
I just wish I could turn off my brain to stop all the thoughts.