show me what i'm looking for...
almost 2 weeks until graduation. yea, great. if i didn't have about 100,000 things to complete by then i'd be a little less bitter over the time crunch...but i guess that's what makes it so thrilling to move the tassle over on the day of may 2nd. meanwhile, i need to finish:
- music seminar paper
- theatre seminar paper
- music theory homeworks 5-9
- music theory analysis
- music theory final composition
- women in music presentation
- women in music paper
- women in music final take home essay/exam
- women in music article summaries 3-7
i wouldn't be this far behind if it weren't for 2 things- a) theatre seminar. that class is PURE HELL, and b) having an emotional meltdown in the earlier half of the semester. that probably did me in. wonderful. i have enough energy to write this but not the right concentration to finish any of that crap. i at least know the summaries, homeworks, and take home essay can wait until finals week. everything else though, is within the next 7 days. ouch. if i had balls and that work load was a swift kick, i'd be on the ground crying for my mommy.
i'm still looking for love, and i'm not sure whether or not that love will ever come from a rekindled relationship with jared. the ending of our relationship was a wakeup call for his life, and in the end, a release for me. after a solid 2 1/2 months of crying (remember the aforementioned mental breakdown?) and feeling lower than low, i snapped out of it. i still talk to jared, and while he has poured his heart out to me several times about how much he still loves me, he has told me this: "if it ends up that i am not meant for you, i will accept that. but all i can say is, the man you end up with will be so incredibly lucky to have an amazing woman by his side. you deserve only the absolute best."
everybody - even my own ex- says i deserve some ridiculously incredible man because i'm this "awesome" person. i'm not trying to shoot down what people think of me, but sometimes i have a hard time gripping that. it's like, aw thanks guys, but i don't think i'm that incredible.
i'm young still, but i'm always the curious one. i wish i knew who this guy is...because i should tell him right off the bat how lucky he is. :p
- music seminar paper
- theatre seminar paper
- music theory homeworks 5-9
- music theory analysis
- music theory final composition
- women in music presentation
- women in music paper
- women in music final take home essay/exam
- women in music article summaries 3-7
i wouldn't be this far behind if it weren't for 2 things- a) theatre seminar. that class is PURE HELL, and b) having an emotional meltdown in the earlier half of the semester. that probably did me in. wonderful. i have enough energy to write this but not the right concentration to finish any of that crap. i at least know the summaries, homeworks, and take home essay can wait until finals week. everything else though, is within the next 7 days. ouch. if i had balls and that work load was a swift kick, i'd be on the ground crying for my mommy.
i'm still looking for love, and i'm not sure whether or not that love will ever come from a rekindled relationship with jared. the ending of our relationship was a wakeup call for his life, and in the end, a release for me. after a solid 2 1/2 months of crying (remember the aforementioned mental breakdown?) and feeling lower than low, i snapped out of it. i still talk to jared, and while he has poured his heart out to me several times about how much he still loves me, he has told me this: "if it ends up that i am not meant for you, i will accept that. but all i can say is, the man you end up with will be so incredibly lucky to have an amazing woman by his side. you deserve only the absolute best."
everybody - even my own ex- says i deserve some ridiculously incredible man because i'm this "awesome" person. i'm not trying to shoot down what people think of me, but sometimes i have a hard time gripping that. it's like, aw thanks guys, but i don't think i'm that incredible.
i'm young still, but i'm always the curious one. i wish i knew who this guy is...because i should tell him right off the bat how lucky he is. :p