Ah LJ how I've missed thee
This is random...but I feel like I need to just spout some stuff off. I'm really incredibly happy right now with things. I just made a lot of decisions and did a lot of thinking recently and I think I finally have things figured out. I still have a passion for film but right now it's just not a realistic goal seeing as I owe Columbia thousands of dollars and I'm tired of just working job after job making chump change. So I've decided I'm gonna go back to normal school at a community college and try my hand at being an auditor. I think it's a career kinda made for me since I pay sooo much attention to detail when it comes to things. It's a career that focuses on what could be considered my faults at other places.
I participated in Relay For Life this past weekend and it was the most phenomenal and eye-opening experience I've ever taken part in. I just get happy when I think about it, I can't really describe what it's like, but it's just such a good thing. It brings you closer with those that you are with there and it helps make you realize what life is really about, and that you need to enjoy it as much as possible. Plus I walked eight miles which was pretty awesome. I kinda want to participate in more activities like this. I've always been a fan of charities and donations and benefits such as this, but I often never had the money to give or didn't make the time to participate so I think I'd like to change the latter part at least since that one is under my control.
I'm intending on starting my diet/exercise program asap, but I keep getting hung up and distracted. It's something I've wanted to do for a while now and I know I will feel so much better once I get it underway. As always I'm constantly striving to be a better person but often feel that I fall short in my achievements, now by no means do I think I'm a bad person, but I always feel I could do better and I'm gonna be 26 in just a little bit over a month and it's time to stop being a kid. I need to instill a bit more responsibility and focus in my life without sacrificing all the fun and find a good balance. Overall though I'm very happy with things. If all goes well on the job front I will be solid with that, I'll be going back to school, and hopefully I can expand my wrestling bookings a bit with my changed up schedule that will allow more time for it. I'm also talking to/seeing a girl who is really just amazing thus far and I'm very glad I chanced upon meeting her.
I really can't think of anything I'm unhappy about at the moment, yes there are areas that I feel have room for improvement, but I think I'm making strides in the right direction and if I keep my focus things will just keep getting better. Yeah, I could use a bit more money, yeah I'd like to have a bit more time to do things that I put off, but even with the things you could say I'm "missing" I'm really happy where I'm at right now. I could probably type a million more words and sentences but at this point it feels like I'm just rambling and hitting the same point home over and over. All I know is I have a wonderful family, wonderful friends, and I'm just surrounded by positivity and I want to keep it flowing as much as possible.
Things are just gonna get better and I can't wait :-).