I DIDN'T HEAR YOU LEAVE (IDHYL) : CHAPTER SIX
Title : I dIdn’t Hear You Leave
Pairing: Sergio Ramos/ Fernando Torres
Fandom: RPF
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Real person fiction; Real person slash, angst,
Summary: a flashback into the events that lead to the present day situation. Plug Unravels, told through the eyes of Sergio
Notes:
i want to stress that this chapter and the previous one are both flashbacks and not present day events. i hope this chapter would make everyone understand his side of the story.
would like to tell everyone that this story is slowly coming to an end and yes i plan to finish it. i know my updating pace is all over the place but i will definitely complete this story.
also apologies to all for any mistakes...i am writing without a BETA reader. also on A03
PLUG 26/05/2013
PART 2
SERGIO AND NAVAS POV
"For you to be in a place you shouldn't be, in a country you said you couldn't be in and in that implicating situation"
***
"You know you are being a jerk to him right?"
Navas can't be quiet anymore and Sergio is acting like the world revolves around him and his plan. A plan that Navas doesnt think is clean enough to be properlly executed.
"Technically no...i would never be a jerk to Fernando. There is a plan, it’s all part of the plan... once he finds out what I am actually planning, he would be extremely happy".
Sergio replied to Navas and continued to apply hair product to his already perfectly styled hair.
"Have you ever tried to think of the possibility of this plan failing at all?” Navas tried to make Sergio realise that he has to think his plan through and reconsider. Because his plan might sound cool in his head but when he tries to put it to work it might crumble.
Sergio rolled his eyes in a manner that says “shut up or i’ll make you shut up” but that doesn’t stop Navas
“Sergio I don't know what it is about this plan that has got you so impulsive but you really need to take a step back and evalutate the situation. If this plan doesn't work, what do you think Fernando would think?” Navas paused giving Sergio the opportunity to speak but he’s quiet in front of the mirror
“From an outsider’s perspective it reads that he means nothing to you and you don't give a shit. You are sending him a message that you don’t love him enough to make sacrifices for him and treat him right. And do you know how he would feel? He would feel like a fool, very worthless to you because everyone knows Fernando would cancel his own birth to come and be with you if that is possible”
Navas stared down at Sergio who is now looking a bit solemn like the words are sipping through his subconscious. “Nando knows i love him more than i love myself and would do anything for him, this is temporary and it would be over after i see him.” Sergio speaks but it sounds more like he is trying to convince himself and not Navas
“does he?” Navas draws Sergio’s attention back to this own statement. “does he really know you will do anything for him? Because i don’t and i’m not even dating you”
“why would you say that?”
Sergio moved towards Navas but he looked really confused. Insint it obvious that he cares for Fernando?, do people not see that his life would have no meaning without Fernando and that he wants to spend the rest of his life with him?
Navas saw Sergio’s expression, he knew he had to support him but he also had to tell Sergio the truth. As a friend you want to be there for your best friend, supporting them in their decisions and that is exactly what Navas wants for Sergio but he also wants to stair him right so he doesn’t hurt him self forever.
Navas knows that if Fernando and Sergio split, Sergio wouldn't survive it. It might be harder on Fernando but with friends and family Fernando can be able to take care of him self and move on in the long run but that would be the end of Sergio. So many people don’t know that but he is one of the few people who do.
The only person that can bring Sergio to his senses is Fernando, the only person Sergio would give his life for is Fernando, the only person that would tolerate Sergio and all his attitudes is Fernando but Sergio is taking that for granted.
“Am just saying, sometimes you act like he doesn't matter to you. What he does for you i don't think anyone would do that for you. The only one thing he’s asked you to do for him since i knew you both, you’ve refused to do it. And for that same reason you end up hurting him every time”
*
It’s no news that Sergio’s drinking has been a topic that has been brought up every time but Sergio still refuses to heed Fernando’s plea for him to give up drinking but at the end of every conversation Fernando still stays with him.
“Okay I don’t want to talk about this anymore, everything would be fine. We just need to go and do what we have to do”
Navas does nothing but roll his eyes when Sergio brushed off the topic. it’s not alien to Navas, Sergio is the king of avoiding conversations that he is not comfortable with. Especially when it’s addressed to his supposed drinking issue.
"He would be at that club I was talking to you about tonight. I got an information that Juan is planning for them to go there sometime this evening, so we would go in and surprise him"
Navas is still not convinced, all this torture just for a surprise party?... he feels like the pain is more than the gain and biting his tongue has recently become a problem.
"What worries me is the fact that you think traumatizing him is romantic" Navas judges Sergio
"Am not traumatizing him, shut up, Fernando is a big boy"
Sergio continues to get himself ready by fixing his shirt, that he finally selected after going through a couple. He wanted to look perfect for Fernando.
"how do you describe your attitudes towards him this last couple of days? You are treating him like the other woman. If it were me i would be thinking there is someone else. All of this for a fucking surprise party? This is fucked up.”
Sergio gives Navas a proper stare down and Navas put his hand in the air but kept talking
“Am sorry but its true, everyone knows that your boyfriend is one of the strongest people in our sport and also as an individual but there are rumors about him and we know when it comes to you he is very fragile and I can't imagine what he's going through"
“What is your problem why are so against me doing this?” Sergio decided to drop everything and give Navas his attention, an attention which Navas took ceremoniously.
“First of all you are being a jerk and you are hurting him for almost no reason. Secondly, if this plan fails I'll be an accomplice to hurting Fernando again and I really don't want to do that again especially now that i’ve gotten to know him these past couple of years and he is a very chill guy”
Navas paused for a few minutes giving Sergio time to digest everything he’s been saying. When Sergio dint utter a word and kept staring at him like he was an alien, Navas continued.
“i am just saying, its just a surprise party and treating him like shit doesn’t cut it... except there is something you are not telling me about this plan” Navas kept trying to get more information from Sergio because he feels like Sergio is hiding something.
“it’s none of your business, whatever plans i have are between me and Fernando.... just get ready lets leave
*
The plan was simple and everything had been arranged before hand.
Sergio planned that when Fernando is at plug with Juan, Sergio would go with Navas and surprise him, and then he would explain to Fernando that he left the meeting in Madrid last minute because he couldn't spend today away from him and he would win Fernando over in time for the real surprise.
While that is happening, the team would start setting up Fernando's house with all the decorations including everything romantic in Sergio's opinion and significant props that were present on their first date.
Like the waiter that served them on their first date, maybe not the same guy because Sergio has no idea where he is but a waiter dressed just like him. Black pants, white shirt, red waist coat and a single rose in his hand.
There was also a table for two dressed in the style of the one they used at "El nido de amore".
Also it was arranged that when Fernando steps into his house he would be greeted by glowing lights spelling out "happy anniversary baby... I love you" amongst other things he had planned. Then Sergio would come clean that there was no meeting, it was all part of the plan and he would do whatever he wanted to do for Fernando and then he and Fernando would be happy after that.
Sergio can already see his plan working and he can't wait to hold Fernando in his arms. But as much as he hates to admit it he thinks Navas might be right and Fernando might be hurting really bad. He knows that Fernando has been through a lot and He really doesn’t need the stress of what he is doing but Sergio feels like he has to show Fernando how much he loves him and want to be with him.
Sergio knows Fernando is upset with him if the tone on the phone call was anything to go by, but he is convinced it would be worth it in the end.
Except after evaluating what Navas said to him he got scared and is now developing doubts because Fernando hasn't even tried to call him or text him and that is unlike Fernando.
Even if they are fighting or having a little disagreement, Fernando would never ignore him. He would still tell Sergio Merry Christmas, Happy Easter, Happy Valentine or Happy Birthday because that is the kind of person he is. Sergio doesn't over analyze things but he thinks he might be pushing this hard or something else is wrong.
He has been pushing this thought off his mind since he heard Fernando's sad tone over the phone 3 days ago because he really doesn't want to believe that he might be hurting Fernando, he promised and he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if he hurt Fernando. And he is also scared of loosing Fernando, he doesn't know how much his patience is going to run for.
*
as they were ready to go to the club Sergio decided to ask Navas few question while they walk to the car.
"Do you think I went a bit too far with this thing? Like Fernando is done with my bullshit and is moving on" Sergio presses, because Fernando has ignored him all day.
"Oh the man with the master plan doubts" Navas mocks
"Just fucking tell me would you?" Sergio reprimands agitated
"I have been saying that since I heard about the plan and you might have toyed with his patience on this one. I tried talking but you wouldn't listen. It’s all about this great plan"
Sergio thinks silently for a few minutes then goes into panic mode. He feels like he's pushed too far and Fernando is finally over it and doesn't care anymore.
"I can't loose him. Fuck!!! What was I thinking... I have to call him" Sergio starts rampaging for his phone to make the call but not before Navas stopped him.
"You can't call him now... it would ruin everything... Your plan and everything else! How would you explain a plan that never worked? It will look like lies. No one would believe you... Just see it through by the way he's with Juan, Juan won't let him just run off with another guy"
Sergio scoffed
"Juan might be nice to you but when it comes to Fernando he doesn't care about you. He would let Fernando do anything if it would make him happy and vice versa so I can't always trust him to care about me too"
"Just calm down and get ready to go surprise your man" Navas says trying to get Sergio to get this over with as soon as possible because if he terminates the plan now, his explanation for his actions would never be plausible no one would believe him.
Sergio started to think about seeing Fernando instead to manage his panic and is suddenly all excited. But there is still that feeling about his plan that makes his heart drop and Navas’ words keep ringing in his subconscious
"How would you explain a plan that never worked it would look like lies, no one would believe you"
*
"Wow this place is amazing, reason Fernando is over you and hasn’t called"
Navas jokes after they’d been in the club for half an hour because Sergio had been checking his phone in case Fernando text or calls while they rampage the whole club to look for Fernando. But the club is larger than they expected so they had to search every room in order to find Juan and Fernando here.
"Just be on the look out for him okay, and stop trying to ruin my night" is all Sergio says in return trying to get his plan sorted as soon as possible before something goes horribly wrong.
"Am just saying you treat him like crap he finds another, there are so many hot guys here Fernando might just be locking lips with one of them" Navas says smiling but stops smiling when he sees Sergio shell shocked looking at a striking image.
Navas peered forward but can't believe what he is seeing. He has never hated that his predictions were right than he did at that moment, but he almost feels like Sergio forced Fernando into this.
He found Fernando but the plan was over before it even started getting executed.
Fernando is standing at a corner close to the bar, you can't really see him full because he is standing profile to their view and the other part of his body is covered by another individual who seem to be really into him and Fernando is not complaining, not acting like its his anniversary, he seemed to be clinging to this bloke like his life depended on it.
"Am sure it’s just a bro hug, or someone trying to pick him up"
Navas voice comes across a little patronizing to give Sergio a glimmer of hope because what he just saw was not casual, it was intimate. But Navas couldn't speak anymore when Fernando shifted and revealed Juan Mata as his source of life.
Sergio froze and still didn't speak, just watching with his eyes burning. Navas kept thinking of what to say but he can't say anything now but think and try to piece things and help his friend.
Sergio usually said that there has always been a question mark on Juan and Fernando's friendship and Navas thinks this might be one of those question marks.
Suddenly, Fernando leaned in and kissed Juan on the lips passionately, hugging him tight, with the hug lasting a little longer than Sergio would like anyone to hug his lover even Juan is not allowed to hold his Fernando that close, with their heads pressed together as they spoke affectionately to each other.
"I think I've seen enough, what would they do next? Say their vows?"
Sergio pushed passed a lot of people in anger grabbing a bottle from the opposite bar and storms off pulling Navas behind him like his baggage.
*
Instead of leaving, Sergio decided to stay and drink his sorrows away and maybe keep tabs on Fernando and Juan because what he saw was not okay.
After a while, Sergio drinks too much and starts misbehaving.
Maybe not too much but for Sergio it was too much. Sergio has a drinking problem which he has refused to accept because he doesn’t understand and it makes him feel less than what he wants to be. People like Sergio are advised to stay away from alcohol.
It is hard for any individual to wake up one day and realise that what your friends and family do easily for fun and relaxation and be okay, you can’t do. It’s like telling you that you can’t be normal because you were built a certain way. Nothing caused it, it’s not your fault but you just cant be like everybody else.
It little glass of the wrong wine can make him comatose, he would do and say things without control and regret after the effect wore off.
The pressure of always being out of control got to Sergio hurt Sergio. He saw what it did to his family at an early age. His father suffered the same problem and it was always a tug of war at home because he refused to get help, but Sergio tried to convince himself that he’s not his dad and is going to take care of the situation in his own way.
But it isint working, most times he just gets into the alcohol without knowing; he’s beginning to crave it and it never used to happen. Now Sergio has that desire to go straight for the bottle when ever he is frustrated, sad, or happy. He had lost total control and alcohol is becoming his answer to everything.
He watched as it almost destroyed his relationship in the past and every good thing that has come his way, but it’s like he is handicapped and can’t take charge. Almost like he needs a wake up call, something to tell him to stop, but right now Sergio hasn’t found that thing yet.
*
"Sergio am sorry you had to see that but we need to leave, you plus alcohol and upset is nasty"
Navas speaks calmly to Sergio watching as his temper continued to grow worse.
"See what? I din’t see anything let's party. Clearly it’s what our anniversary is about..."
Sergio speaks sarcastically but with something in his voice, something that makes Navas pity him a little.
"He was pretending all this time. Pretending to care, to want me here, pretending to be sad while am stupidly planning a surprise party because I really love him and would think outside the box for him because he is special and i wanted to do this for him for us"
Sergio speaks all of a sudden swinging the bottle he’s been nursing up and down
"Come on Sergio, Fernando loves you and you know it, it’s the alcohol preventing you from seeing the truth" Navas knows he’s had too much, it’s how it starts. He stops reasoning and doesn’t evaluate anything that comes out of his mouth nor does he try to understand a situation he just acts.
"Well not enough to not let Juan stick his short fat cock in his ass!... he doesn't love me enough" Sergio spits
"How can you say that about Fernando?... you will regret that in the morning. Why are you insulting Juan and how do you know the status of Juan’s dick?" Navas says to his best friend trying to hold him up because Sergio had started to flounder.
"Don't ask me stupid questions c'mere"
Sometimes Navas doesn't want to pity Sergio at all because he doesn't know if he is Sergio's friend, his little brother or his slave but he knows Sergio needs him right now.
He's spent his entire vacation finding a way to make Fernando feel special and happy. He knows how devastated Fernando was when they learnt that "El Nido de amor" shut down and Sergio just wanted to do something nice for Fernando by recreating their first date.
Only to find out that Fernando has been lying under his nose and cheating on him, well in his own words.
Before Navas could understand what was happening Sergio had backed him up against the wall and is determined to stick his tongue down his throat and suck out his oesophagus.
Sergio reeks of booze and the bottle he had in his hand was less than half empty and he's not acting himself.
"Do you have to be like him? Stick your tongue down my throat because he is doing it?"
Navas says pushing Sergio away from him but he can't get help because everyone around them is attached and lip locked like this is a sex room or something.
He struggled to extricate himself from Sergio's firm grip but his struggles are looking more like an aggressive show of affection between lovers who haven't seen each other in a while and just want to touch.
Their display was getting a lot of attention, people cat calling, others whistling and random stuff like get him tiger, tap that ass. But the biggest was the argument Sergio had with some drag queen who Sergio literally almost hit but didn't because Navas had to distract him before dragging him out of the club.
*
Navas barks at Sergio the moment he escapes Sergio’s grip and they leave to go to their hotel rooms since there is no way they are going for any anniversary surprise party now, not after Fernando's dramatic display.
"You have to stop doing that, drunk or not I’m not your boy toy, puppet or your whore. You can't want to fuck me whenever you are drunk and hurting."
"Don't flatter yourself, i don't want to have sex with you" Sergio tries to wave it off because he really dint mean anything by it, he was just pissed and don't know how to deal with this and he also had too much to drink.
"No Sergio, Don't!!!... sometimes I wonder if you have any emotions at all because of the way you act like other people don't matter" Navas stands firm
"Every single time, you do this. Ever since the first time because you know how i felt about you, you never let me forget and you don't allow me move on, you have to STOP Sergio. You have to stop doing that to me... It’s not fair. We are friends and i’m happy… but i had feeling for you once, real feelings…so stop trying to act on that, stop touching me the way you do because I don’t want you anymore Sergio... I really don’t”
Navas speaks at the top of his voice, devastated a stream of tears rolled down his eyes. Like he is trying to tell himself he doesn’t want Sergio and also wants Sergio to stop trying to bring back old feelings.
*
Sergio and Navas have known each other a long time since their days playing together in sevilla and they’ve remained friends since then. It’s remained a platonic love between friends but Nevas had been secretly in love with Sergio since he could remember.
On that day, the days of Xavi’s birthday, he had gotten terribly drunk that the guys had to ask some one to be his designated driver and take him home early and Navas volunteered. Navas had dropped Sergio off but never left.
He hung around and caught Sergio when he just got out of the shower. Sergio has a habit to wander about naked when he’s alone, so he walked out without his towel with droplets of water dripping from his hair and running down his pecs, he grabbed his dick to pleasure himself because he thought he was alone, but cupped his dick in shock when he saw Navas relaxed on his bed.
.
“Don’t stop on my account” Navas had joked staring at Sergio’s hands cupping his privates. Sergio asked Navas what he was doing at his place at that time and Navas had told him how he couldn't leave because he had a lot to say to him.
It was a bit of an awkward situation for Sergio because Navas dint give him the opportunity to dress up into something else so he just stood there trying to cover his slightly aroused penis from when he was playing with himself.
“So what did yo want to talk about, Sergio had asked him hurriedly
Navas had looked very uncertain as he stood up and made his way to where Sergio was standing by his dressing table.
“I...i... have these feelings, like i’ve had them for a long time and i just thought i should talk about it”
As any friend would be, Sergio was eager to hear about his friends feeling for a potential significant other, he was really eager to find out who Navas was crushing on. So Sergio grabbed a robe covered himself and went with Navas to sit on the bed.
Navas sat for a few minutes not knowing what to do or say but finally started talking.
“there is this person i have feelings for, i have been in love with them for a long time now but they are with someone else, i know they care about me but i don't know if they feel the same way, i just cant stop think about this person”
“wow that's deep, i’ve never seen you so invested in another person before... i think you should tell them, tell the person how you feel and see if they feel the same so you can know for sure, you are amazing am sure they feel the same way”
Sergio had replied Navas, giving him encouragement because it’s what friends do. But when Sergio goes in for a hug Navas kissed him on the lips instead. Sergio scooted away and asked him why he did that.
“am in love with you, i’ve always been in love with you. i’ve always wanted you Sergio, there hasn’t been a day that has passed that i didn't want you. And deep down i know you know what am talking about but you choose to ignore my feelings”
Sergio was shocked at Navas reply, when he gave Navas the advice he dint know this was going to happen. It’s not something you hear everyday from your best friend, he had his speculations once or twice but he dint really let him self think that far. Navas kept looking at him expecting him to say something.
“Navas i’m sorry, i don't know what to say or how to feel but i’m with Fernando and am Very happy, he would flip out... we can’t...I LOVE HIM”
Sergio had replied as sincerely as he could but there was nothing he was going to say that was going to make Navas back down. Navas was more of a conniving bastard then, he was a corny as he was desperate. He knew Sergio’s drinking situation and knew exactly when to ambush him.
“He doesnt need to know, i can be your dirty little secret and we can keep it between us. I don't mind” touching Sergio’s thigh
Navas sounded so desperate, he was willing to get hurt just to try, but he dint think of the long term consequences if things dint work out. His plan was if they do it Sergio would realise he’s in love with him to, he was that shallow.
*
After a while Navas had Sergio’s dick in his mouth, due to the struggle and pleading and also because Sergio might was messed up from Xavi’s birthday things got heated.
Navas was lay on the bed with his feet in the air while Sergio fucked him. Navas was exited watching Sergio’s face as his eyes rolled back into his skull, knowing Sergio was close he starts touching himself. They cum at the same time and Navas whispered “I Love you” looking into Sergio’s eyes.
Sergio looked back into his eyes and whispered back “I Love Fernando”
It was the worst best experience of Navas’s life, having the guy you’ve always wanted inside you but for him to tell you he loves another still inside you while he is drunk and fucked up is more hurting, because you know it’s a dead end.
*
“i was young and stupid, i made bad choices, i knew i couldn't have you but i was stupid and threw myself at you anyway and i learnt my lesson just after you were done, am trying to make good ones now. But you won’t let me forget what i did” Navas tells Sergio how he really feels
“i don't mean to hurt you but i do and am really sorry about that” Sergio never means to say or do the things he does to Navas but he just does. Sometimes its out of his control
“you say that again and in the next month we will be back here again with you doing the same thing” Navas says it as it is because Sergio repeats his mistakes all the time.
“I’m so sorry i dint see it that way, am so sorry... i really dint know how...”
Sergio tried to apologize for everything Navas said to him but where do you really start? what does he want to apologize for? Because if he starts it would take the end of the world for it to be over
“yeah because its always about you, you don't care about anyone, you don't even care about the one person who you claim to love. Am not surprised he left you” Navas doesn't really mean it but he feels like Sergio needs to hurt a little bit because all he does is cause the people around him pain.
“That’s not true, I care about Fernando, I care with the whole of my heart, i would do anything for him and you know that. I love him but...he... he hurt me”
Sergio meant what he said, he meant his apology to Navas but he couldn't fully understand how wrong his actions are because all he can see is the man he loves in the arms of another.
“I really am sorry Navas, i never meant to hurt you its just,” he breaks down and starts sobbing. “Cant believe he would do that to me, i would need to talk to him.”
“Maybe tomorrow not now, you are drunk and you would definitely make things worse” Navas says to him
“Yeah, i’ll call him tomorrow and give him a piece of my mind. It’s OVER!!!”
Navas rolls his eyes because he knows its bullshit, he knows it’s the alcohol talking and it will fade away in the morning.
“And don't worry about the surprise party i called the crew to clean up the place. It’s like you never came around... and am not sure if that a good thing or not”
Navas says looking at Sergio who had passed out on the passenger sit. He took a good glance at him and shook his head. He knows the only reason he cut Sergio so much slack after what Sergio does to him is because he’s known him all his life and Sergio is a nice guy and he also knows that Sergio’s drinking is not his fault but he knows sooner or later he would receive his wake up call to give it up.
“I hope for your sake, Fernando is not really over you because i really can’t handle all of this... i don't know how he does it” Navas says under his breath in reference to Fernando as he starts driving them to the hotel.
Pairing: Sergio Ramos/ Fernando Torres
Fandom: RPF
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Real person fiction; Real person slash, angst,
Summary: a flashback into the events that lead to the present day situation. Plug Unravels, told through the eyes of Sergio
Notes:
i want to stress that this chapter and the previous one are both flashbacks and not present day events. i hope this chapter would make everyone understand his side of the story.
would like to tell everyone that this story is slowly coming to an end and yes i plan to finish it. i know my updating pace is all over the place but i will definitely complete this story.
also apologies to all for any mistakes...i am writing without a BETA reader. also on A03
PLUG 26/05/2013
PART 2
SERGIO AND NAVAS POV
"For you to be in a place you shouldn't be, in a country you said you couldn't be in and in that implicating situation"
***
"You know you are being a jerk to him right?"
Navas can't be quiet anymore and Sergio is acting like the world revolves around him and his plan. A plan that Navas doesnt think is clean enough to be properlly executed.
"Technically no...i would never be a jerk to Fernando. There is a plan, it’s all part of the plan... once he finds out what I am actually planning, he would be extremely happy".
Sergio replied to Navas and continued to apply hair product to his already perfectly styled hair.
"Have you ever tried to think of the possibility of this plan failing at all?” Navas tried to make Sergio realise that he has to think his plan through and reconsider. Because his plan might sound cool in his head but when he tries to put it to work it might crumble.
Sergio rolled his eyes in a manner that says “shut up or i’ll make you shut up” but that doesn’t stop Navas
“Sergio I don't know what it is about this plan that has got you so impulsive but you really need to take a step back and evalutate the situation. If this plan doesn't work, what do you think Fernando would think?” Navas paused giving Sergio the opportunity to speak but he’s quiet in front of the mirror
“From an outsider’s perspective it reads that he means nothing to you and you don't give a shit. You are sending him a message that you don’t love him enough to make sacrifices for him and treat him right. And do you know how he would feel? He would feel like a fool, very worthless to you because everyone knows Fernando would cancel his own birth to come and be with you if that is possible”
Navas stared down at Sergio who is now looking a bit solemn like the words are sipping through his subconscious. “Nando knows i love him more than i love myself and would do anything for him, this is temporary and it would be over after i see him.” Sergio speaks but it sounds more like he is trying to convince himself and not Navas
“does he?” Navas draws Sergio’s attention back to this own statement. “does he really know you will do anything for him? Because i don’t and i’m not even dating you”
“why would you say that?”
Sergio moved towards Navas but he looked really confused. Insint it obvious that he cares for Fernando?, do people not see that his life would have no meaning without Fernando and that he wants to spend the rest of his life with him?
Navas saw Sergio’s expression, he knew he had to support him but he also had to tell Sergio the truth. As a friend you want to be there for your best friend, supporting them in their decisions and that is exactly what Navas wants for Sergio but he also wants to stair him right so he doesn’t hurt him self forever.
Navas knows that if Fernando and Sergio split, Sergio wouldn't survive it. It might be harder on Fernando but with friends and family Fernando can be able to take care of him self and move on in the long run but that would be the end of Sergio. So many people don’t know that but he is one of the few people who do.
The only person that can bring Sergio to his senses is Fernando, the only person Sergio would give his life for is Fernando, the only person that would tolerate Sergio and all his attitudes is Fernando but Sergio is taking that for granted.
“Am just saying, sometimes you act like he doesn't matter to you. What he does for you i don't think anyone would do that for you. The only one thing he’s asked you to do for him since i knew you both, you’ve refused to do it. And for that same reason you end up hurting him every time”
*
It’s no news that Sergio’s drinking has been a topic that has been brought up every time but Sergio still refuses to heed Fernando’s plea for him to give up drinking but at the end of every conversation Fernando still stays with him.
“Okay I don’t want to talk about this anymore, everything would be fine. We just need to go and do what we have to do”
Navas does nothing but roll his eyes when Sergio brushed off the topic. it’s not alien to Navas, Sergio is the king of avoiding conversations that he is not comfortable with. Especially when it’s addressed to his supposed drinking issue.
"He would be at that club I was talking to you about tonight. I got an information that Juan is planning for them to go there sometime this evening, so we would go in and surprise him"
Navas is still not convinced, all this torture just for a surprise party?... he feels like the pain is more than the gain and biting his tongue has recently become a problem.
"What worries me is the fact that you think traumatizing him is romantic" Navas judges Sergio
"Am not traumatizing him, shut up, Fernando is a big boy"
Sergio continues to get himself ready by fixing his shirt, that he finally selected after going through a couple. He wanted to look perfect for Fernando.
"how do you describe your attitudes towards him this last couple of days? You are treating him like the other woman. If it were me i would be thinking there is someone else. All of this for a fucking surprise party? This is fucked up.”
Sergio gives Navas a proper stare down and Navas put his hand in the air but kept talking
“Am sorry but its true, everyone knows that your boyfriend is one of the strongest people in our sport and also as an individual but there are rumors about him and we know when it comes to you he is very fragile and I can't imagine what he's going through"
“What is your problem why are so against me doing this?” Sergio decided to drop everything and give Navas his attention, an attention which Navas took ceremoniously.
“First of all you are being a jerk and you are hurting him for almost no reason. Secondly, if this plan fails I'll be an accomplice to hurting Fernando again and I really don't want to do that again especially now that i’ve gotten to know him these past couple of years and he is a very chill guy”
Navas paused for a few minutes giving Sergio time to digest everything he’s been saying. When Sergio dint utter a word and kept staring at him like he was an alien, Navas continued.
“i am just saying, its just a surprise party and treating him like shit doesn’t cut it... except there is something you are not telling me about this plan” Navas kept trying to get more information from Sergio because he feels like Sergio is hiding something.
“it’s none of your business, whatever plans i have are between me and Fernando.... just get ready lets leave
*
The plan was simple and everything had been arranged before hand.
Sergio planned that when Fernando is at plug with Juan, Sergio would go with Navas and surprise him, and then he would explain to Fernando that he left the meeting in Madrid last minute because he couldn't spend today away from him and he would win Fernando over in time for the real surprise.
While that is happening, the team would start setting up Fernando's house with all the decorations including everything romantic in Sergio's opinion and significant props that were present on their first date.
Like the waiter that served them on their first date, maybe not the same guy because Sergio has no idea where he is but a waiter dressed just like him. Black pants, white shirt, red waist coat and a single rose in his hand.
There was also a table for two dressed in the style of the one they used at "El nido de amore".
Also it was arranged that when Fernando steps into his house he would be greeted by glowing lights spelling out "happy anniversary baby... I love you" amongst other things he had planned. Then Sergio would come clean that there was no meeting, it was all part of the plan and he would do whatever he wanted to do for Fernando and then he and Fernando would be happy after that.
Sergio can already see his plan working and he can't wait to hold Fernando in his arms. But as much as he hates to admit it he thinks Navas might be right and Fernando might be hurting really bad. He knows that Fernando has been through a lot and He really doesn’t need the stress of what he is doing but Sergio feels like he has to show Fernando how much he loves him and want to be with him.
Sergio knows Fernando is upset with him if the tone on the phone call was anything to go by, but he is convinced it would be worth it in the end.
Except after evaluating what Navas said to him he got scared and is now developing doubts because Fernando hasn't even tried to call him or text him and that is unlike Fernando.
Even if they are fighting or having a little disagreement, Fernando would never ignore him. He would still tell Sergio Merry Christmas, Happy Easter, Happy Valentine or Happy Birthday because that is the kind of person he is. Sergio doesn't over analyze things but he thinks he might be pushing this hard or something else is wrong.
He has been pushing this thought off his mind since he heard Fernando's sad tone over the phone 3 days ago because he really doesn't want to believe that he might be hurting Fernando, he promised and he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if he hurt Fernando. And he is also scared of loosing Fernando, he doesn't know how much his patience is going to run for.
*
as they were ready to go to the club Sergio decided to ask Navas few question while they walk to the car.
"Do you think I went a bit too far with this thing? Like Fernando is done with my bullshit and is moving on" Sergio presses, because Fernando has ignored him all day.
"Oh the man with the master plan doubts" Navas mocks
"Just fucking tell me would you?" Sergio reprimands agitated
"I have been saying that since I heard about the plan and you might have toyed with his patience on this one. I tried talking but you wouldn't listen. It’s all about this great plan"
Sergio thinks silently for a few minutes then goes into panic mode. He feels like he's pushed too far and Fernando is finally over it and doesn't care anymore.
"I can't loose him. Fuck!!! What was I thinking... I have to call him" Sergio starts rampaging for his phone to make the call but not before Navas stopped him.
"You can't call him now... it would ruin everything... Your plan and everything else! How would you explain a plan that never worked? It will look like lies. No one would believe you... Just see it through by the way he's with Juan, Juan won't let him just run off with another guy"
Sergio scoffed
"Juan might be nice to you but when it comes to Fernando he doesn't care about you. He would let Fernando do anything if it would make him happy and vice versa so I can't always trust him to care about me too"
"Just calm down and get ready to go surprise your man" Navas says trying to get Sergio to get this over with as soon as possible because if he terminates the plan now, his explanation for his actions would never be plausible no one would believe him.
Sergio started to think about seeing Fernando instead to manage his panic and is suddenly all excited. But there is still that feeling about his plan that makes his heart drop and Navas’ words keep ringing in his subconscious
"How would you explain a plan that never worked it would look like lies, no one would believe you"
*
"Wow this place is amazing, reason Fernando is over you and hasn’t called"
Navas jokes after they’d been in the club for half an hour because Sergio had been checking his phone in case Fernando text or calls while they rampage the whole club to look for Fernando. But the club is larger than they expected so they had to search every room in order to find Juan and Fernando here.
"Just be on the look out for him okay, and stop trying to ruin my night" is all Sergio says in return trying to get his plan sorted as soon as possible before something goes horribly wrong.
"Am just saying you treat him like crap he finds another, there are so many hot guys here Fernando might just be locking lips with one of them" Navas says smiling but stops smiling when he sees Sergio shell shocked looking at a striking image.
Navas peered forward but can't believe what he is seeing. He has never hated that his predictions were right than he did at that moment, but he almost feels like Sergio forced Fernando into this.
He found Fernando but the plan was over before it even started getting executed.
Fernando is standing at a corner close to the bar, you can't really see him full because he is standing profile to their view and the other part of his body is covered by another individual who seem to be really into him and Fernando is not complaining, not acting like its his anniversary, he seemed to be clinging to this bloke like his life depended on it.
"Am sure it’s just a bro hug, or someone trying to pick him up"
Navas voice comes across a little patronizing to give Sergio a glimmer of hope because what he just saw was not casual, it was intimate. But Navas couldn't speak anymore when Fernando shifted and revealed Juan Mata as his source of life.
Sergio froze and still didn't speak, just watching with his eyes burning. Navas kept thinking of what to say but he can't say anything now but think and try to piece things and help his friend.
Sergio usually said that there has always been a question mark on Juan and Fernando's friendship and Navas thinks this might be one of those question marks.
Suddenly, Fernando leaned in and kissed Juan on the lips passionately, hugging him tight, with the hug lasting a little longer than Sergio would like anyone to hug his lover even Juan is not allowed to hold his Fernando that close, with their heads pressed together as they spoke affectionately to each other.
"I think I've seen enough, what would they do next? Say their vows?"
Sergio pushed passed a lot of people in anger grabbing a bottle from the opposite bar and storms off pulling Navas behind him like his baggage.
*
Instead of leaving, Sergio decided to stay and drink his sorrows away and maybe keep tabs on Fernando and Juan because what he saw was not okay.
After a while, Sergio drinks too much and starts misbehaving.
Maybe not too much but for Sergio it was too much. Sergio has a drinking problem which he has refused to accept because he doesn’t understand and it makes him feel less than what he wants to be. People like Sergio are advised to stay away from alcohol.
It is hard for any individual to wake up one day and realise that what your friends and family do easily for fun and relaxation and be okay, you can’t do. It’s like telling you that you can’t be normal because you were built a certain way. Nothing caused it, it’s not your fault but you just cant be like everybody else.
It little glass of the wrong wine can make him comatose, he would do and say things without control and regret after the effect wore off.
The pressure of always being out of control got to Sergio hurt Sergio. He saw what it did to his family at an early age. His father suffered the same problem and it was always a tug of war at home because he refused to get help, but Sergio tried to convince himself that he’s not his dad and is going to take care of the situation in his own way.
But it isint working, most times he just gets into the alcohol without knowing; he’s beginning to crave it and it never used to happen. Now Sergio has that desire to go straight for the bottle when ever he is frustrated, sad, or happy. He had lost total control and alcohol is becoming his answer to everything.
He watched as it almost destroyed his relationship in the past and every good thing that has come his way, but it’s like he is handicapped and can’t take charge. Almost like he needs a wake up call, something to tell him to stop, but right now Sergio hasn’t found that thing yet.
*
"Sergio am sorry you had to see that but we need to leave, you plus alcohol and upset is nasty"
Navas speaks calmly to Sergio watching as his temper continued to grow worse.
"See what? I din’t see anything let's party. Clearly it’s what our anniversary is about..."
Sergio speaks sarcastically but with something in his voice, something that makes Navas pity him a little.
"He was pretending all this time. Pretending to care, to want me here, pretending to be sad while am stupidly planning a surprise party because I really love him and would think outside the box for him because he is special and i wanted to do this for him for us"
Sergio speaks all of a sudden swinging the bottle he’s been nursing up and down
"Come on Sergio, Fernando loves you and you know it, it’s the alcohol preventing you from seeing the truth" Navas knows he’s had too much, it’s how it starts. He stops reasoning and doesn’t evaluate anything that comes out of his mouth nor does he try to understand a situation he just acts.
"Well not enough to not let Juan stick his short fat cock in his ass!... he doesn't love me enough" Sergio spits
"How can you say that about Fernando?... you will regret that in the morning. Why are you insulting Juan and how do you know the status of Juan’s dick?" Navas says to his best friend trying to hold him up because Sergio had started to flounder.
"Don't ask me stupid questions c'mere"
Sometimes Navas doesn't want to pity Sergio at all because he doesn't know if he is Sergio's friend, his little brother or his slave but he knows Sergio needs him right now.
He's spent his entire vacation finding a way to make Fernando feel special and happy. He knows how devastated Fernando was when they learnt that "El Nido de amor" shut down and Sergio just wanted to do something nice for Fernando by recreating their first date.
Only to find out that Fernando has been lying under his nose and cheating on him, well in his own words.
Before Navas could understand what was happening Sergio had backed him up against the wall and is determined to stick his tongue down his throat and suck out his oesophagus.
Sergio reeks of booze and the bottle he had in his hand was less than half empty and he's not acting himself.
"Do you have to be like him? Stick your tongue down my throat because he is doing it?"
Navas says pushing Sergio away from him but he can't get help because everyone around them is attached and lip locked like this is a sex room or something.
He struggled to extricate himself from Sergio's firm grip but his struggles are looking more like an aggressive show of affection between lovers who haven't seen each other in a while and just want to touch.
Their display was getting a lot of attention, people cat calling, others whistling and random stuff like get him tiger, tap that ass. But the biggest was the argument Sergio had with some drag queen who Sergio literally almost hit but didn't because Navas had to distract him before dragging him out of the club.
*
Navas barks at Sergio the moment he escapes Sergio’s grip and they leave to go to their hotel rooms since there is no way they are going for any anniversary surprise party now, not after Fernando's dramatic display.
"You have to stop doing that, drunk or not I’m not your boy toy, puppet or your whore. You can't want to fuck me whenever you are drunk and hurting."
"Don't flatter yourself, i don't want to have sex with you" Sergio tries to wave it off because he really dint mean anything by it, he was just pissed and don't know how to deal with this and he also had too much to drink.
"No Sergio, Don't!!!... sometimes I wonder if you have any emotions at all because of the way you act like other people don't matter" Navas stands firm
"Every single time, you do this. Ever since the first time because you know how i felt about you, you never let me forget and you don't allow me move on, you have to STOP Sergio. You have to stop doing that to me... It’s not fair. We are friends and i’m happy… but i had feeling for you once, real feelings…so stop trying to act on that, stop touching me the way you do because I don’t want you anymore Sergio... I really don’t”
Navas speaks at the top of his voice, devastated a stream of tears rolled down his eyes. Like he is trying to tell himself he doesn’t want Sergio and also wants Sergio to stop trying to bring back old feelings.
*
Sergio and Navas have known each other a long time since their days playing together in sevilla and they’ve remained friends since then. It’s remained a platonic love between friends but Nevas had been secretly in love with Sergio since he could remember.
On that day, the days of Xavi’s birthday, he had gotten terribly drunk that the guys had to ask some one to be his designated driver and take him home early and Navas volunteered. Navas had dropped Sergio off but never left.
He hung around and caught Sergio when he just got out of the shower. Sergio has a habit to wander about naked when he’s alone, so he walked out without his towel with droplets of water dripping from his hair and running down his pecs, he grabbed his dick to pleasure himself because he thought he was alone, but cupped his dick in shock when he saw Navas relaxed on his bed.
.
“Don’t stop on my account” Navas had joked staring at Sergio’s hands cupping his privates. Sergio asked Navas what he was doing at his place at that time and Navas had told him how he couldn't leave because he had a lot to say to him.
It was a bit of an awkward situation for Sergio because Navas dint give him the opportunity to dress up into something else so he just stood there trying to cover his slightly aroused penis from when he was playing with himself.
“So what did yo want to talk about, Sergio had asked him hurriedly
Navas had looked very uncertain as he stood up and made his way to where Sergio was standing by his dressing table.
“I...i... have these feelings, like i’ve had them for a long time and i just thought i should talk about it”
As any friend would be, Sergio was eager to hear about his friends feeling for a potential significant other, he was really eager to find out who Navas was crushing on. So Sergio grabbed a robe covered himself and went with Navas to sit on the bed.
Navas sat for a few minutes not knowing what to do or say but finally started talking.
“there is this person i have feelings for, i have been in love with them for a long time now but they are with someone else, i know they care about me but i don't know if they feel the same way, i just cant stop think about this person”
“wow that's deep, i’ve never seen you so invested in another person before... i think you should tell them, tell the person how you feel and see if they feel the same so you can know for sure, you are amazing am sure they feel the same way”
Sergio had replied Navas, giving him encouragement because it’s what friends do. But when Sergio goes in for a hug Navas kissed him on the lips instead. Sergio scooted away and asked him why he did that.
“am in love with you, i’ve always been in love with you. i’ve always wanted you Sergio, there hasn’t been a day that has passed that i didn't want you. And deep down i know you know what am talking about but you choose to ignore my feelings”
Sergio was shocked at Navas reply, when he gave Navas the advice he dint know this was going to happen. It’s not something you hear everyday from your best friend, he had his speculations once or twice but he dint really let him self think that far. Navas kept looking at him expecting him to say something.
“Navas i’m sorry, i don't know what to say or how to feel but i’m with Fernando and am Very happy, he would flip out... we can’t...I LOVE HIM”
Sergio had replied as sincerely as he could but there was nothing he was going to say that was going to make Navas back down. Navas was more of a conniving bastard then, he was a corny as he was desperate. He knew Sergio’s drinking situation and knew exactly when to ambush him.
“He doesnt need to know, i can be your dirty little secret and we can keep it between us. I don't mind” touching Sergio’s thigh
Navas sounded so desperate, he was willing to get hurt just to try, but he dint think of the long term consequences if things dint work out. His plan was if they do it Sergio would realise he’s in love with him to, he was that shallow.
*
After a while Navas had Sergio’s dick in his mouth, due to the struggle and pleading and also because Sergio might was messed up from Xavi’s birthday things got heated.
Navas was lay on the bed with his feet in the air while Sergio fucked him. Navas was exited watching Sergio’s face as his eyes rolled back into his skull, knowing Sergio was close he starts touching himself. They cum at the same time and Navas whispered “I Love you” looking into Sergio’s eyes.
Sergio looked back into his eyes and whispered back “I Love Fernando”
It was the worst best experience of Navas’s life, having the guy you’ve always wanted inside you but for him to tell you he loves another still inside you while he is drunk and fucked up is more hurting, because you know it’s a dead end.
*
“i was young and stupid, i made bad choices, i knew i couldn't have you but i was stupid and threw myself at you anyway and i learnt my lesson just after you were done, am trying to make good ones now. But you won’t let me forget what i did” Navas tells Sergio how he really feels
“i don't mean to hurt you but i do and am really sorry about that” Sergio never means to say or do the things he does to Navas but he just does. Sometimes its out of his control
“you say that again and in the next month we will be back here again with you doing the same thing” Navas says it as it is because Sergio repeats his mistakes all the time.
“I’m so sorry i dint see it that way, am so sorry... i really dint know how...”
Sergio tried to apologize for everything Navas said to him but where do you really start? what does he want to apologize for? Because if he starts it would take the end of the world for it to be over
“yeah because its always about you, you don't care about anyone, you don't even care about the one person who you claim to love. Am not surprised he left you” Navas doesn't really mean it but he feels like Sergio needs to hurt a little bit because all he does is cause the people around him pain.
“That’s not true, I care about Fernando, I care with the whole of my heart, i would do anything for him and you know that. I love him but...he... he hurt me”
Sergio meant what he said, he meant his apology to Navas but he couldn't fully understand how wrong his actions are because all he can see is the man he loves in the arms of another.
“I really am sorry Navas, i never meant to hurt you its just,” he breaks down and starts sobbing. “Cant believe he would do that to me, i would need to talk to him.”
“Maybe tomorrow not now, you are drunk and you would definitely make things worse” Navas says to him
“Yeah, i’ll call him tomorrow and give him a piece of my mind. It’s OVER!!!”
Navas rolls his eyes because he knows its bullshit, he knows it’s the alcohol talking and it will fade away in the morning.
“And don't worry about the surprise party i called the crew to clean up the place. It’s like you never came around... and am not sure if that a good thing or not”
Navas says looking at Sergio who had passed out on the passenger sit. He took a good glance at him and shook his head. He knows the only reason he cut Sergio so much slack after what Sergio does to him is because he’s known him all his life and Sergio is a nice guy and he also knows that Sergio’s drinking is not his fault but he knows sooner or later he would receive his wake up call to give it up.
“I hope for your sake, Fernando is not really over you because i really can’t handle all of this... i don't know how he does it” Navas says under his breath in reference to Fernando as he starts driving them to the hotel.