FEELS

[pann_cake]

So I went to youtube to put on some music while I cleaned the kitchen, and this random video was on my suggestions list, and based on the title I thought it was going to be something kinda cute and funny BUT NO. SO I JUST SAT HERE AND CRIED OVER A FANVID AND I THINK I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP.

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[mysticallight6]

The feels just come over you when you least expect them.

I sobbed over a Will Turner, POTC video one time in the middle of chatting with some friends online. And believe me, I never sob.

[pann_cake]

UGH. I hate when this happens at inopportune moments lol POTC joke, when I have to go out and function as a human being instead of locking myself in my room and crying out my feels into a bucket of ice cream. XDD

[pickedoffthird]

I was on Tumblr the other day and there was a GIFset of the hug at the end of "Mystery Spot" where Sam's face is all squished up against Dean's ear, and then another GIFset of the scene from "Death's Door" where Bobby's remembering Sam and Dean arguing on the couch and their knees are just sort of casually knocking together, and together they really got to me. Because just the really casual touching GOT to me for whatever reason - being so close to someone you can squish your face against theirs, or bump your knees together, and not have it be ~sexual~ touching or whatever (cuz I don't ship it either).

I think touch pretty frequently anchors them, very purposeful touch like in 7.02 with Sam's hand wounds. But it's the casual touch that really affects me, because it's such a normal thing in the middle of their messed-up lives.

Uh, sorry for my feelsbarf. THIS SHOW IS SO DUMB. ;_____;

[pann_cake]

THIS SHOW IS SO DUMB. ;_____; Truer words have never been spoken, my friend. *THROWS THINGS*

It really is those little moments that get me, too (and this particular vid highlighted so many good ones). Like Dean teaching Sam how to fix the car. And YES the fierce HUGGING always makes me tear up.

I love these two so much that the shipping kind of ruins it for me, you know? It takes away from their relationship as brothers, which is such a powerful, beautiful thing. ;____;

[pickedoffthird]

Yeah. Like, of course I know they have this incredible, universe-saving love... but show me the little moment in "Abandon All Hope" where Dean is teasing Sam about not trusting a demon and THAT'S what gets me, you know? Like, I loved that in "Swan Song" it was just a plastic toy soldier stuck in the dashboard that got Sam remembering, because that whole idea was just so lovely.

I love these two so much that the shipping kind of ruins it for me, you know? It takes away from their relationship as brothers, which is such a powerful, beautiful thing. ;____;
Yeah, I 100000% agree. It's almost kind of nice to see a relationship where the two characters would (and have) die(d) for each other, and it's not romantic. I totally get why people ship it, but it's just not my thing for a number of reasons, including that.

[ozmissage]

AWW, BOYS. <3333

That is such a lovely vid. The SPN fandom really brings it in terms of vidding. This one vidder, Loki, routinely kills me with her stuff. That vid I just linked you to is set to my favorite Siken poem. :D

[pann_cake]

BOYYYYYS. ;_____;

UGH, NO. Anything set to Siken makes me want to weep and throw things and set myself on fire. I WAS NEVER THIS DRAMATIC BEFORE SPN. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME, SHOW??? AGHHHHH.

[ozmissage]

Heh. *pets*

I think I've finally achieved enough emotional distance from the show that I can indulge in the angst. Unless it's Sammy angst then I join you in throwing things. ;)

[pann_cake]

I think if I had watched it over time like a normal person, I would be able to control the feels. But marathoning all 7 seasons over the span of however many months it took, THAT'S A LOT OF EMOTIONS ALL AT ONCE. *CLINGS*

And I still feel relatively new to the fandom, so the angst still gets me. ;___;

[dazedrose]

That video is beautiful. Thank you for sharing

[pann_cake]

I'm so glad I stumbled upon it! <33

[pann_cake]

I was thinking the same thing after I watched it! I get so caught up in Dean/Cas that I sometimes forget just how much LOVE I have for the Brothers Winchester. <3333

I may or may not be attempting a drabble along these lines. ;)

[pann_cake]

There was never a time with no pain, lol. It definitely GETS WORSE over time, but I'm pretty sure I got teary in the pilot episode. ;____;