Comments | panicmydear: I feel scarily nostalgic right now.

panicmydear

I feel scarily nostalgic right now.

Apr 27, 2010 19:15

About everything. I feel scared and anxious, and I kind of don't know what to do with myself. I am also worried about my future, about what I'm actually doing anything with my life, what the fuck.

Let's take this a step at a time. I have divided it into different cuts so you can go to which ever part you desire.

( bandom and my insecurities/fears about it. rant. feel free to skip. )

ringo is sort of my favorite but shhh do, picspam, rant post, the beatles

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emmyatthedisco April 28 2010, 00:40:28 UTC

I totally know what you mean about bandom. i'm definately shifting my interests into the LA hipster scene aspect of it (the like, phanplan and it's offshoots, tyv and such). My main otp right now is Ryan/Jon, but it sort of was before the split anyway, i've always loved them.

but yeah, i know what you mean. it's sort of hard when if feels like everyone's dragging their heels and refusing to move on.

panicmydear April 28 2010, 00:57:19 UTC

I just feel kind of heart broken that all of this happened. Some days more than others. this happens to be one of those days. ;~; Another thing that happened to me is that I don't really ship Jon with anyone anymore. (What happened to me? Honestly?)

I just want more The Like fic. That cheers me up and it's AWESOME and far far far too scarce.

falseconfetti April 28 2010, 00:52:03 UTC

I'm almost entirely out of bandom (I still chatfic with my lovely fragilelips nightly and I am tying up a few loose ends by finishing up fic requests), so you're definitely not alone in pulling away and feeling less than happy about it. It helps to have fandoms to fall back on -- I see you've found Beatles fandom to nearly fully replace bandom -- but you should relish the free time the lack of a "full-time" fandom allows you!

Thanks for posting the interrupting!Ryan picture, by the way. I laughed so hard. /o\

panicmydear April 28 2010, 01:00:11 UTC

It just kind of sucks. But yes, I'm really glad I have The Beatles to lean on. Nothing is going to change with them. Everything is already done and set in stone, and that's okay. (It's scary to think that Panic is almost this way. Really fucking scary.) Their fandom gives me many much needed lols that I've been missing.

Any time. :D It makes me laugh every time I see it, seriously. Genius.