W

Dec 15, 2011 00:01

Title: W
Pairing: HoMin
Summary: Yunho and Changmin discover the message behind the W lyrics.
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Angst, Hurt / Comfort (I have no idea, lol)
A/N: Oh my God, lol. When I read the English trans, at first I was like “OMFG THIS IS TOTALLY A MESSAGE FOR HOMIN” *SOBBINGFOREVER* and then I was like “OH MUAHAHA I NEED TO WRITE A FIC ABOUT THIS” *TYPETYPETYPE* and then it became this ._.


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“Why can’t they just leave us alone already?” Changmin whines, voice miserable as he continues scrolling through hurtful comments their once beloved Cassies left behind in the forums.

Yunho leaves the kitchen and goes to the laptop, gently but firmly closing it. “Changmin, stop. You know that these comments don’t mean anything.” He caresses Changmin’s cheek with a hand. “We can get through this, okay?”

Changmin leans into the touch and nods. “Yeah, you’re right.”

Yunho smiles. “Good. Now turn that thing off and help me set up for dinner.”

Changmin grumbles and opens the laptop again, waiting for it to go to the home screen. “Then why did you close it in the first place?”

Yunho laughs and ignores Changmin, going back into the kitchen to check on his jiggae. “Just log off, Changmin-ah, and help me,” he repeats.

“Just hold on,” Changmin calls. He’s about to exit the browser, really, but a link categorized neatly under the “suggested articles” catches his attention. He scrolls down a bit.

JYJ W English + Romanization lyrics it reads.

“Yunho hyung, our JYJ hyungs have released a Japanese mini-album, right?” Changmin asks.

“What do you mean ‘our’?!” Yunho explodes jokingly before replying with a cute “yep~”.

Changmin rolls his eyes. “What’s the album’s title?”

“Um … I think it’s called The … or something like that, I don’t know. Just turn off your laptop and get ready to eat already!”

“Wait, hyung!” Changmin cries out, torn between clicking the link and not. He slams his finger down on the mouse and he’s directed to another page.

The page that greets him shows some male singers. He recognizes Key, Minho and Taemin in their Lucifer music video, and he can also see T.O.P, Se7en and Taeyang. The banner shows some men but he doesn’t give two hoots who they are (I’m Shim Changmin from TVXQ, bitches!) as he scrolls down.

He’s then greeted with a picture of his JYJ hyungs, dressed semi-casually and wearing uncomfortable expressions on their faces, with Junsu carrying presents, Jaejoong carrying a bunch of roses and Yoochun holding a two-tiered cake in one hand.

He can read and understand Japanese, so he doesn’t know why he clicked the link of the Japanese lyrics in Romanization and English, but he’s too lazy to search for the lyrics on Google. There’s a high chance the Japanese lyrics wouldn’t be found anyway.

“Why did they name the song W?” Changmin wonders aloud. He hears a sigh and a scraping of a chair beside him; Yunho had abandoned dinner momentarily to urge him to eat with him.

“How do you know it’s a they?” Yunho asks, smile kind but face showing an expression akin to misery and depression and Changmin knew that Yunho had given up on dinner.

“But …”

“Who do you think is the freaking romantic, when we were all still five?” Yunho asks quietly.

“… Yoochun hyung?”

Yunho nods once with a tight smile and urges Changmin to read. Changmin skims the lyrics but doesn’t quite understand. “Hyung …”

“Let me explain,” Yunho laughs. “You may be the smartest out of all of us, but you’re hopeless when it comes to things like these. Oh, and I won’t be repeating the chorus, since it’s repetitive.” Changmin pouts but lets Yunho read aloud anyway.

夜空に浮かんだ星が文字を描き出すのは
Yozora ni ukanda hoshi ga moji wo egaki dasu no wa
The letters that the stars created in the night sky

偶然じゃないと今もまだ信じてるよ
Guuzen ja nai to ima mo mada shinjiteruyo
I still believe that it is not just by chance
“Changmin, what is our fanclub?”

“… Cassiopeia?”

“Exactly,” Yunho smiles.

“So … this is for the Cassies?”

Yunho ponders for a while. “Um, you can say that.”

同じ闇の中で 同じ距離のままで
Onaji yami no naka de onaji kyori no mama de
In the same darkness, in the same distance

W <ダブル> を描き続けている
W wo egaki tsuzukete iru
We are painting the W in the same way
“Hyung, I don’t understand what this W means!” Changmin whines.

Yunho decides that he should tell. “Changmin-ah, W … it’s us.”

Changmin blinks once. “Huh? What do you mean by us?”

Yunho takes Changmin’s hand and gently traces it on the laptop’s keyboard. He softly instructs Changmin to put out his index finger, and traces out TVfXQ on the keyboard. “It’s us, remember?”

Changmin’s eyes are wide and stares at the invisible letter he had traced on his laptop’s keyboard. He understands. W … is for them. It’s a message from Yoochun to them.

“‘The letters that the stars created in the night sky, I still believe that it is not just by chance’,” Yunho says. “It means that we weren’t made together for nothing. The letter the stars created is W, and that’s us. “‘In the same darkness, in the same distance, We are painting the W in the same way’. No matter how far we are, we will always be TVXQ as a whole.”

君に見つかるようにもっと輝くから
Kimi ni mitsukaru youni motto kagayaku kara
We will shine more and more so that you can find us

Keep in mind that I love you
Keep in mind that I love you
Keep in mind that I love you
“Even though we’re separated, they’ve been ‘demoted to a lower rank’, they’ll try their best to be as good as they were, so that they can be recognized by us.”

“But …” Changmin sniffs, tears already forming in his eyes from the heartwarming message. “They’re already recognized by us.”

Yunho smiles and leans forward, pressing a lingering kiss to Changmin’s forehead. “As in, without SM in the way,” he whispers.
Changmin nods and keeps quiet, allowing the message and Yunho’s translation wash him from within.

きっと
Kitto
I wish

いつか逢えるから瞳を閉じる度君を想う you’re everything
Itsuka aeru kara me wo tojiru tabi kimi wo omou you’re everything
Our paths will cross again, I am thinking about you every time I close my eyes, you’re everything

君が居ることが今もまだあたりまえなんだよ
Kimi ga iru koto ga ima mo mada atarimae nanda yo
It is still natural that you are by our side
Yunho chuckles and wipes away the tears already sliding down Changmin’s thin cheeks. “I guess I don’t need to explain that.”
Changmin shakes his head. “No, you don’t.”

ただ今は君が幸せであると願い
Tada ima wa kimi ga shiawase de aru to negai
We can only wish that you are happy

僕らの階段をひとつひとつ登っていくよ
Bokura no kaidan wo hitotsu hitotsu nobotte iku yo
We will climb our stairs one by one
“What does that one mean?”

“It means … because they left SM, they have to start from the very beginning.”

僕らはまだ僕らの未来を想像しながら君を待ってるよ
Bokura wa mada bokura no mirai wo souzou shinagara kimi wo matteru yo
We are still waiting for you, imagining our future
Yunho pauses and allows Changmin to let out a tiny sob. He transports Changmin to his lap and hugs him, burying the younger man’s head onto his shoulder.

いつか逢えるまで 君の居場所は守ってるよ
Itsuka aeru kara me wo tojiru tabi kimi wo omou
We will keep your place here, until the day we can meet again

We love you both
We love you both
We love you both
“See? This is definitely a message for us. Which singers will sing that ‘they love us both’, huh?”

“Mi-Micky hyung,” Changmin hiccups. “Hero hyung. Xiah hyung.” He looks so pathetic that Yunho hushes him up by rubbing his back comfortingly.

君ともう一度笑えると信じてるから
Kimi to mou ichido waraeru to shinjite iru kara
We believe that we can laugh together with you once again
“If you make me explain this, I will hurt you,” Yunho laughs through his tears. He blinks in slight surprise. He hadn’t realize that he’s actually crying from the message he had read time and time again. He wipes his tears away without Changmin noticing and continues.

時が流れてもどんな痛みが待っていても
Toki ga nagarete mo donna itami ga matte itemo
Even when the days pass by, and that there may be pains

Day after day
Day after day
Day after day

君はいつまでも 僕たちの 「プライド」 なんだよ
Kimi wa itsumade mo bokutachi no “pride” nanda yo
You are always our “pride”
“‘Even when the days pass by, and that there may be pains’ means that they have to endure everyday not being with us,” Yunho sniffs and chuckles at himself. “And Jaejoong always did tell me that you were his favorite dongsaeng, despite me being his best friend.”

That one comment caused fresh tears to spill out of Changmin, the younger man whining and hitting Yunho’s chest pathetically. The sudden actions caused Yunho to jump and rub his back comfortingly, laughing through his tears when Changmin sobbed that Jaejoong was always my favorite hyung, despite you being my lover.

夜空に浮かんだ星に君が呟いたのは
Yozora ni ukanda hoshi ni kimi ga tsubuyaita no wa
The words that you murmured to the stars shining in the night sky

さよならじゃないと今もまだ信じてるよ
Sayonara ja nai to ima mo mada shinjiteruyo
We still believe that it is not “goodbye”
“The ‘words that we murmured to the stars shining in the night sky’ …” Yunho says softly, stroking Changmin’s hair and watching his shoulders shake as sobs overtake his system, “are the songs that we sang to our beloved Cassies. We’ll be together again.”
Changmin’s shoulders shake harshly as another sob rips from his throat.

同じ空の下で同じ夢を描き
Onaji sora no shita de onaji yume wo egaki
Under the same sky, dreaming the same dream

W <ダブル> を探し続けている
W wo sagashi tsuduketeiru
We are still searching for the W

同じ形のままずっと輝くから
Onaji katachi no mama zutto kagayaku kara
We will always shine in the same shape

Keep in mind that I love you
Keep in mind that I love you
Keep in mind that I love you
“‘We will always shine in the same shape’ is one of my favorite parts,” Yunho says. Changmin nods miserably and Yunho laughs.

逢いたくて 逢いたくて逢いたくて
Aitakute aitakute aitakute
I want to see you, see you, see you

逢いたくて 逢いたくて逢いたくて
Aitakute aitakute aitakute
I want to see you, see you, see you

逢いたくて 逢いたくて逢いたくて
Aitakute aitakute aitakute
I want to see you, see you, see you
“We want to see you too …” Yunho whispers.

Changmin nods. “We do, we really do,” he sobs.

きっと
Kitto
I wish

いつか逢えるまで君の居場所は守ってるよ
Itsuka aeru made kimi no ibasho wa mamotteru yo
We will keep your place here, until the day we can meet again

君ともう一度 笑えると信じているから
Kimi to mou ichido waraeru to shinjite iru kara
We believe that we can laugh together with you once again

We all will smile again
We all will smile again
We all will smile again
“I agree,” Yunho comments, closing the browser and turning off Changmin’s laptop. He hugs the younger man closer, spilling his silent tears into Changmin’s shirt and praying to God that he wouldn’t noticed. We all will smile again.

“I fucking hate you, Park Yoochun,” Changmin sobs, pushing his head up and letting air refresh his face. “Why do you make such beautiful songs and touching lyrics?! I hate you so much, you American immigrant!”

Yunho laughs and watches Changmin continue to scream and curse Yoochun’s name. “You still love him.”

Changmin, exhausted from his crying, falls back to Yunho’s shoulder. “I do. I really do.”

“You still love Jaejoong. You still love Junsu.”

“Yes, yes I do. Just stop.”

“… You still love me?”

Changmin looks up and wipes away the tear tracks on Yunho’s face. “I really do. I won’t leave. I will never leave.” He peppers Yunho’s face with salty kisses, and Yunho feels his heat clenching.

“I love you, I love you, I love you,” Changmin murmurs with every kiss he presses onto Yunho’s face. Yunho stops him with a smile and laces their fingers together, squeezing to display the warmth and his reciprocated love.

“‘We will keep your place here, until the day we can meet again’ …” Yunho trails off. He suddenly sniffs and buries his head into Changmin’s shirt. “‘You are always our “pride”’.”

“‘It is still natural that you are by our side.”

“‘We can only wish that you are happy’.”

“‘We will climb our stairs one by one’.”

“‘We are still waiting for you, imagining our future’.”

Yunho and Changmin laugh and cry at the same time, kissing each other with desperation. “We’ll be together again, won’t we?”

Yunho nods and holds Changmin close. “We will, we will, we will, we will, we will. Just …” he takes Changmin’s hand and squeezes it tight, not daring to let go, “always keep the faith.”

We still believe that it is not “goodbye”.

We all will smile again.

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A/N: UGH, THE RUSHED-NESS OF THIS FIC IS KILLING ME! *headdesks*

Yes, that site does exists, yes, I’m not good with these kinds of fics and yes, I cleaned up the Romanization, lol. I’m a perfectionist OTL

Happy birthday Junsu oppa. Since you’re my sister’s bias, I’m going to hold off writing her fic for this one. Consider this a fic for your birthday, trolol.

media: fanfic, length: oneshot, fandom: tvxq, pairing: changmin × yunho, rating: pg-15

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