Crying, muahaha
So, I came back home after my third leg operation, and this is the worst aftermath ever. I can't stop crying because it hurts that bad, and I'm not allowed to bend my leg because of my cast. I'm stuck in bed for a month, I need help going to the bathroom, and even when trying to stand up on my crutches.
And my tongue is swollen and numb. Maybe from the anesthesia or something ._.
I feel so helpless and I have to wonder, why me?
Okay, so you guys probably don't know this, but my mom was sick when she had me. When I was born, my left foot was, uh, deformed. I have four toes on my left foot, three of them stuck together and the tiny one free. My spine is curved twenty-five degrees to the right and it resulted in my left leg being shorter than my right one. That's why I can't grow anymore.
So to help with my shorter leg, I had to undergo three operations. The first one was on May 18th last year, where they implanted a nail and a brace outside my leg for me to manually "make it grow". The nail was attached inside my bone, and had three screws where I can insert the "key" outside and make my bone "grow" -- it's complicated. My second operation was on August 11th last year, when they took out the brace. My last operation was two days ago, where they removed the nail.
Apparently, one of the screws broke, so a bit of metal is stuck in my bone. When they screw broke, the surgeons had problems taking out the nail, so they had to remove it by tapping it from a new scar they created -_-
And then it resulted in a crack in my bone, so that's why it's gonna take a whole month to heal >:(
They can't take out the metal, or else it'll make the crack worsen.
Actually, I don't mind, I mean, I can still walk and run like a normal person. Heck, I'm the best dancer in my church. But I'm missing out on a lot of things. Next Sunday is my church's Christmas party, and the kids' Christmas party (for some reason I'm also included despite me being sixteen ._.) is on the 15th and I was supposed to be caroling but now I can't :'(
Okay, I should stop. I wasn't fishing for pity. I just needed to let it out of my chest -_-
Thanks for reading, lol :)