12 more days~
slept in last night- didnt go to work, called in sick...sick of work. i need a change of job. the past few weeks- months, i've been thinking about what i really really really really really wanna do.
i thought about- i like helping others, learning new things and being creative. add in the fact that i can vocally express myself more confidently being in a callcenter setting. (i can make my callers believe every word i say...nyahaha~) and im a lotta other things. but then it boiled down to what i could do and what i saw myself doin- teaching.
this at least holds some meaning for me. i mean, what good am i doing for people half way across the globe calling on their medical claims not being paid or processed? all i can do assure them that its being processed and to allow 30 business days maximum. i dont do anything directly to help them- its not at is if im the one who's gonna take the claim directly and adjust it for them. there's no point in taking these calls. i assure my customers for now but for all i know their problems never get solved.
i wanna do something that has meaning and something i'd enjoy doing. i know i should've thought about what i wanted to do in the first place but then, i really couldnt think of anything and so just jumped at a job where it didnt matter what i wanted to do. saved me some time, i didnt want to just not do nothing and just wait until i figured out what i wanted.
that solved, there are a lotta things i want- this whole job and career i can work at and get it as long as i work hard at it....there are other things though in life that i fail miserably at and i hope to get better at and no matter how hard working you are or how much you think, you'd find yourself still lost and in square one.
im in square one, but i think its a matter of taking my chances and actually getting the courage to roll the die and just wait what no. i get....
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on a lighter note.
been playing guitar hero :D nyahaha~ christmas gift to myself...my parents were amused to say the least...my mom shakes her head and mutters to herself about the "noise" while my dad pokes his head in the room once in a while to laugh at me...but i know deep down inside he wants to play guitar hero too....
and windows media player 11 is lovely...its black...
black...
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playing in the rain at 1am in morning in front of your house while the entire neighbor is asleep is mind-numbing fun. try it. :J
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i need to gain some muscle back. need to exercise, been doing my regular push ups and crunches but i NEED to jog or run around in some soccer field (as if cuenca isnt 10 mins away from my house). im skinny now but i just want some muscle back- i hate feeling...weak...for the lack of a better term...
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12 more days till christmas~
things do get better...its a matter of perspective and the ability to get back up when you've been knocked around and down.
i thought about- i like helping others, learning new things and being creative. add in the fact that i can vocally express myself more confidently being in a callcenter setting. (i can make my callers believe every word i say...nyahaha~) and im a lotta other things. but then it boiled down to what i could do and what i saw myself doin- teaching.
this at least holds some meaning for me. i mean, what good am i doing for people half way across the globe calling on their medical claims not being paid or processed? all i can do assure them that its being processed and to allow 30 business days maximum. i dont do anything directly to help them- its not at is if im the one who's gonna take the claim directly and adjust it for them. there's no point in taking these calls. i assure my customers for now but for all i know their problems never get solved.
i wanna do something that has meaning and something i'd enjoy doing. i know i should've thought about what i wanted to do in the first place but then, i really couldnt think of anything and so just jumped at a job where it didnt matter what i wanted to do. saved me some time, i didnt want to just not do nothing and just wait until i figured out what i wanted.
that solved, there are a lotta things i want- this whole job and career i can work at and get it as long as i work hard at it....there are other things though in life that i fail miserably at and i hope to get better at and no matter how hard working you are or how much you think, you'd find yourself still lost and in square one.
im in square one, but i think its a matter of taking my chances and actually getting the courage to roll the die and just wait what no. i get....
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on a lighter note.
been playing guitar hero :D nyahaha~ christmas gift to myself...my parents were amused to say the least...my mom shakes her head and mutters to herself about the "noise" while my dad pokes his head in the room once in a while to laugh at me...but i know deep down inside he wants to play guitar hero too....
and windows media player 11 is lovely...its black...
black...
=========================================
playing in the rain at 1am in morning in front of your house while the entire neighbor is asleep is mind-numbing fun. try it. :J
=========================================
i need to gain some muscle back. need to exercise, been doing my regular push ups and crunches but i NEED to jog or run around in some soccer field (as if cuenca isnt 10 mins away from my house). im skinny now but i just want some muscle back- i hate feeling...weak...for the lack of a better term...
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12 more days till christmas~
things do get better...its a matter of perspective and the ability to get back up when you've been knocked around and down.