Okay, so. Restart.
So, I think it's time to come back to LJ. For multiple reasons, but hey, since this is my own journal and whatnot, I figure I'll be honest about it.
I've been kind of depressed since coming to Hawaii. Well. Kind of depressed bordering on legitimate "maybe you should go see a doctor" depressed. And while going and getting it all "officially" confirmed sounds well and good, I really don't want to. Mainly because a) they aren't going to tell me much I don't already know (thanks, years of RA training! and Navy GMTs!) and b) the most the doctor can do for me is put me on anti-depressants. I don't want to take anti-depressants. The concept of being put on pills for that unnerves me.
But I know I have to do something, because this constant pain is bothering me. I've been sinking deeper and deeper into this dark mindset over the past two months, and I don't feel like I have anyone in Hawaii to talk to about it. I've been keeping a physical journal (that no one reads) to get the worst out, but other than that, LJ seems to be my best option to just be open about it. The fact that I think I am depressed, that is.
So, as a means to try and actively pull myself from this Dark Pit of Despair (I'm allowed one melodramatic over-the-top statement per post, THIS I DECLARE), I'm going to start posting on LJ again. In conjunction with that, I'm going to try and get involved in fandom again, because as nerdy as it totally is, I absolutely love it.
In the real world, I'm going to start PTing more often again. I've stopped doing much of anything as of late, PT included (oddly, while still somehow meeting Navy standards -- guess I'm one of those sailors that "fell through the cracks"), and I know that it's having a negative effect on my health. I mean, I actively feel better after working out, so there's really no reason (other than it being really frickin hot in Hawaii) for me not to PT.
But yeah, that's the personal end of it.
In fandom news, my Avatar BigBang got posted! The Princess & the Badger-Cat, which is complete and total crack!fic where Sokka is a badger-cat and I make fun of fairytales. I'm actually really proud of this story -- it's not as serious as Falling in the Water, but I feel like the pacing is better. It's not porn, like I was considering omg back in April when I last posted, but whatev. Genfic is fun.
I'm totally still considering continuing with what I have of the porn!fic though. It's Sokka/Suki/Toph, set in a modern day college!AU. Like, really. Who doesn't want Sokka/Suki/Toph? (Heathens, that's who.)
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(Aang can come, too.)
I've been kind of depressed since coming to Hawaii. Well. Kind of depressed bordering on legitimate "maybe you should go see a doctor" depressed. And while going and getting it all "officially" confirmed sounds well and good, I really don't want to. Mainly because a) they aren't going to tell me much I don't already know (thanks, years of RA training! and Navy GMTs!) and b) the most the doctor can do for me is put me on anti-depressants. I don't want to take anti-depressants. The concept of being put on pills for that unnerves me.
But I know I have to do something, because this constant pain is bothering me. I've been sinking deeper and deeper into this dark mindset over the past two months, and I don't feel like I have anyone in Hawaii to talk to about it. I've been keeping a physical journal (that no one reads) to get the worst out, but other than that, LJ seems to be my best option to just be open about it. The fact that I think I am depressed, that is.
So, as a means to try and actively pull myself from this Dark Pit of Despair (I'm allowed one melodramatic over-the-top statement per post, THIS I DECLARE), I'm going to start posting on LJ again. In conjunction with that, I'm going to try and get involved in fandom again, because as nerdy as it totally is, I absolutely love it.
In the real world, I'm going to start PTing more often again. I've stopped doing much of anything as of late, PT included (oddly, while still somehow meeting Navy standards -- guess I'm one of those sailors that "fell through the cracks"), and I know that it's having a negative effect on my health. I mean, I actively feel better after working out, so there's really no reason (other than it being really frickin hot in Hawaii) for me not to PT.
But yeah, that's the personal end of it.
In fandom news, my Avatar BigBang got posted! The Princess & the Badger-Cat, which is complete and total crack!fic where Sokka is a badger-cat and I make fun of fairytales. I'm actually really proud of this story -- it's not as serious as Falling in the Water, but I feel like the pacing is better. It's not porn, like I was considering omg back in April when I last posted, but whatev. Genfic is fun.
I'm totally still considering continuing with what I have of the porn!fic though. It's Sokka/Suki/Toph, set in a modern day college!AU. Like, really. Who doesn't want Sokka/Suki/Toph? (Heathens, that's who.)
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(Aang can come, too.)