Identity Crisis
Maybe it's a Pisces thing...I'm just not certain. I have found as of late, I have become a walking contradiction. I am no longer certain who I am and where I want to be. It as though there are two very distinct personalities inside me. One is the sorority sister (I actually am a sorority sister) who places school as her top priority. Her goals are to become a consultant for elder living services while wearing cashmere sweaters and an elegant rope of pearls. My Coach bag would be filled with uncashed checks and airplane tickets. Life would be full, but not necessarily fulfilling. I would have no money issues and the security that gives me would be enormous.
The "other" me wants to retreat to the hills of Vermont, living a Tasha Tudor sort of lifestyle. Spending the day baking bread and tending the garden; the cat curled up by my feet at night. I would live simply and intentionally.
I have tried and tried to reconcile these two personalities, but they make for strange bedfellows. It is as though they cannot exist together in one body; each wrestling for control of my fate. I feel I must decide soon as life truly feels as though it is passing me by.
Tell me, are there two of you?
The "other" me wants to retreat to the hills of Vermont, living a Tasha Tudor sort of lifestyle. Spending the day baking bread and tending the garden; the cat curled up by my feet at night. I would live simply and intentionally.
I have tried and tried to reconcile these two personalities, but they make for strange bedfellows. It is as though they cannot exist together in one body; each wrestling for control of my fate. I feel I must decide soon as life truly feels as though it is passing me by.
Tell me, are there two of you?