okaaaaaaay.
i miss my friends who understand. i feel like i've taken a lot of time to be there for people here, and i'm genuinely interested in them and want to care for them (not like protectively, but understand and empathize). which is why i feel kind of alone now. i've come to realize that throwing all my energy into appeasing others, or comprimising something about myself in a friendship just isn't working out. now, i still respect and want to spend time with my friends here, i do. they're great people. i'm just feeling closed off from them.
it's hard to articulate it...
i've been off. terribly. did some foolish things because i was so frustrated. eck.
things to do instead of dwell on this:
-Memorize two minutes from Haroun and the Sea of Stories
-Make my "me" project (which is going to be pretty cool, i'm decorating a simple skirt that i found at the garment district.
-Memorize my scene from Angels in America (my gay friend Scott is playing Joe, and I, the psycho, am playing Harper. it's gonna be genius.)
-Finish reading the Vagina Monologues so that when I audition, if I audition, I'm not completely clueless.
-Write my analysis for Haroun.
-Working my fat ass out.
it doesn't seem like a lot, but memorizing sucks right now, when there's thirty other things flying through my head.
this night will be lonely.
oh, oh oh, fucking get this: for the learning community that i'm in (which basically means i get to do more work) we're learning to step. like stomp the yard/you got served- Lexie is fucking white as rice and has no rhythm. I always knew that guild would come in handy someday........ it taught me when to give up on being a dancer.
it's hard to articulate it...
i've been off. terribly. did some foolish things because i was so frustrated. eck.
things to do instead of dwell on this:
-Memorize two minutes from Haroun and the Sea of Stories
-Make my "me" project (which is going to be pretty cool, i'm decorating a simple skirt that i found at the garment district.
-Memorize my scene from Angels in America (my gay friend Scott is playing Joe, and I, the psycho, am playing Harper. it's gonna be genius.)
-Finish reading the Vagina Monologues so that when I audition, if I audition, I'm not completely clueless.
-Write my analysis for Haroun.
-Working my fat ass out.
it doesn't seem like a lot, but memorizing sucks right now, when there's thirty other things flying through my head.
this night will be lonely.
oh, oh oh, fucking get this: for the learning community that i'm in (which basically means i get to do more work) we're learning to step. like stomp the yard/you got served- Lexie is fucking white as rice and has no rhythm. I always knew that guild would come in handy someday........ it taught me when to give up on being a dancer.