Thanks for the update!white_rose114September 11 2004, 21:05:47 UTC
Hey girly, I've actually noticed you haven't been quite as happy-go-lucky lately (and don't worry about the entry, I read it all, and take it all). The thing is...you just gotta figure out what the hell it is you want out of life and who you are.
When I went through my weird "I don't know who I am" and cutting phase, I had to sit down and really THINK. I knew I was sick nad tired of being a door mat for everyone in my life, so I decided to not take it anymore, if you have a problem with me, deal with it. I was trying so hard to please everyone it got to be too much.
I can honestly say you are one of the best people I have ever met, Shannon. Live life on your own terms (as long as it doesn't involve murder). And remember you have incredible friends who will be there for you. Always.
Re: Thanks for the update!pair0doxSeptember 15 2004, 19:56:41 UTC
Thanks. It really means a lot to know people do care, and are willing to help. But...I never understood the phrase 'find yourself/discover who you are.' To me, people are always changing so they can never truely discover themselves because everyday they are changing...without even knowing it. Everything that happens in your life affects you in some way, helping you develop who you are. But that's just me...so I've never understood what 'finding yourself' really meant. Maybe you could explain it to me?
I feel sorta like an idiot. I've noticed how you've been feeling lately too, but I just never said anything about it unless you mentioned it. I'm sorry for all that's happened to you and I'm also sorry for not being there like I should be. One day I hope I can make up for this flaw in my own character. I'm going to try to be a better friend. You listen to my problems. You deserve that much.
Please don't feel bad Justin. I'm sure you meant well. Maybe you were just to afraid to bring anything up because you thought it would hurt me more. You're a great listener and help me in some of my most confusing situations. I know you'll be there for me...even if you don't acknowledge things yourself. ^-^
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When I went through my weird "I don't know who I am" and cutting phase, I had to sit down and really THINK. I knew I was sick nad tired of being a door mat for everyone in my life, so I decided to not take it anymore, if you have a problem with me, deal with it. I was trying so hard to please everyone it got to be too much.
I can honestly say you are one of the best people I have ever met, Shannon. Live life on your own terms (as long as it doesn't involve murder). And remember you have incredible friends who will be there for you. Always.
Including me. :)
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