Dan and Kayla - the resurection
FallinFrom0Feet (11:49:42 PM): i feel needy and stuff sometimes when we're not together
imknownasnad (11:50:08 PM): I feel needy all of the time.
FallinFrom0Feet (11:50:57 PM): i feel like your just playin with my head ever since i expressed the idea of gettng back together....
imknownasnad (11:51:42 PM): Why would i be playing with your head?
FallinFrom0Feet (11:51:47 PM): i dunno
FallinFrom0Feet (11:52:01 PM): why do you/have you done anything that u do/have done
imknownasnad (11:52:31 PM): I don't know.
imknownasnad (11:56:03 PM): But i'm trying to do better man.
FallinFrom0Feet (11:56:52 PM): i just dont know what to even think some times
FallinFrom0Feet (11:57:17 PM): my heart tells me one thing and my head tells me another
imknownasnad (11:58:14 PM): I know. And i know it isn't easy. But hopefully it will get easier in time.
FallinFrom0Feet (11:58:52 PM): im just panicking its ok
imknownasnad (11:59:52 PM): Is there anything i can do right now to make you feel better?
FallinFrom0Feet (12:00:07 AM): i dont know
FallinFrom0Feet (12:00:33 AM): i hate freaking out all the time
imknownasnad (12:01:20 AM): I know that i love you. And i want you to be happy.
imknownasnad (12:01:31 AM): I know that i love you. And i want you to be happy.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:01:43 AM): i dont know how to be happy anymore
imknownasnad (12:04:44 AM): I hope i can help in that department
FallinFrom0Feet (12:05:48 AM): im scared of being happy
imknownasnad (12:06:26 AM): You shouldn't be scared of happiness.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:07:15 AM): i get burned he hardest when im happy
FallinFrom0Feet (12:07:25 AM): i lioose the most then
imknownasnad (12:08:11 AM): I'm sorry.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:08:25 AM): i cant win either way
imknownasnad (12:08:54 AM): Maybe it's time you start winning.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:09:31 AM): i wish
imknownasnad (12:10:03 AM): I'm serious.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:10:39 AM): me too
FallinFrom0Feet (12:10:52 AM): the whole two times i thot i won the joke was on me
imknownasnad (12:11:09 AM):
FallinFrom0Feet (12:11:49 AM): im tired of feelin like shit all the time
FallinFrom0Feet (12:11:53 AM): when i try so fucking hard
FallinFrom0Feet (12:12:06 AM): and just getting used and played
FallinFrom0Feet (12:12:17 AM): itrs not fair
imknownasnad (12:12:46 AM): I don't know what to say right now.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:14:27 AM): life doesnt seem worth living when ur destine to be miserable forever
FallinFrom0Feet (12:14:38 AM): why waste ur time and energy if ur just gunna get fucked
imknownasnad (12:17:15 AM): Because when you aren't looking, you can miss the good stuff.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:17:40 AM): na
FallinFrom0Feet (12:17:43 AM): im always looking
FallinFrom0Feet (12:17:57 AM): the harder i look the more fucked up shit i find
imknownasnad (12:20:29 AM): What happened? You seemed like you were happy when you dropped me off.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:20:53 AM): i try
FallinFrom0Feet (12:21:15 AM): no one wants to be around mrs negative nancy all the time
FallinFrom0Feet (12:22:07 AM): especially you
imknownasnad (12:23:01 AM): I want to be around you.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:23:25 AM): the last time i showed you my real feelings all the time you and tera got together
imknownasnad (12:27:32 AM): I'm sorry. And i jonestly want to make you the happiest woman in the world.
imknownasnad (12:29:45 AM): I'm serious.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:29:51 AM): i want to belive you
FallinFrom0Feet (12:30:09 AM): i want to believe that if i put trust in you again that it will all work out in the end
imknownasnad (12:31:07 AM): You don't have to makre any decisions right now though. Just focus on being happy with your self.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:31:40 AM): i dont know how to
FallinFrom0Feet (12:31:47 AM): i hate me
imknownasnad (12:32:34 AM): And i love you.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:33:30 AM): i want that to be true more then anything
imknownasnad (12:35:04 AM): You are caring, and sincere, and beautiful, and honest, and intelligent, and i was a fucking dumb ass for not appriciating you. But I see that i fucked up, and
imknownasnad (12:35:05 AM): was wrong and i want to make it up to you. I want to make it better, and i want to make you happy.
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FallinFrom0Feet (12:38:32 AM): sometimes i just dont understand why you or anyone else didnt see it...
FallinFrom0Feet (12:38:51 AM): why things had to get this bad to make you realize...
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FallinFrom0Feet (12:39:37 AM): ive always been so pacient and willing to work threw things... im open minded and compromisable...
imknownasnad (12:39:38 AM): Sometimes you don't know what you have until it's gone.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:39:41 AM): and it just seems like im just not good enough... i never am
FallinFrom0Feet (12:39:48 AM): not for you... not for anyone else
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FallinFrom0Feet (12:40:42 AM): I dont know what else I can do to be better... All I ever wanted was to be treated the same as i treat others...
imknownasnad (12:41:06 AM): But it's worth me trying to make things right.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:41:08 AM): i just wanted to love be loved in return... have a future with someone that didnt involve another women
FallinFrom0Feet (12:45:54 AM): its always the same... its just not far... why can people like mysti and chris find people that are head over
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FallinFrom0Feet (12:45:57 AM): heals for them no matter how fucked up they are.... but i never can... im never good enough for anyone
imknownasnad (12:46:01 AM): And you are the future i want. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize exactly what i want.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:46:35 AM): i fell in love with you because you said you knew what you wanted... and you wanted the same thing i did....
imknownasnad (12:48:31 AM): You are good enoigh for me dude. I want you so much it fucking hurts. I want to make my mistakes up to you so bad that it keeps me up at night trying to figure
imknownasnad (12:48:32 AM): out exactly what i have to do.
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imknownasnad (12:49:37 AM): You aren't being fair to yourself being so hard on your self. You are a great person Kayla. I wish you could see that.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:49:47 AM): im sorry i dont mean to make you feel bad im sorry.... i just... i dont know what to do anymore...
FallinFrom0Feet (12:49:48 AM): i dont have anyone to talk to... im sorry for saying anything
imknownasnad (11:50:08 PM): I feel needy all of the time.
FallinFrom0Feet (11:50:57 PM): i feel like your just playin with my head ever since i expressed the idea of gettng back together....
imknownasnad (11:51:42 PM): Why would i be playing with your head?
FallinFrom0Feet (11:51:47 PM): i dunno
FallinFrom0Feet (11:52:01 PM): why do you/have you done anything that u do/have done
imknownasnad (11:52:31 PM): I don't know.
imknownasnad (11:56:03 PM): But i'm trying to do better man.
FallinFrom0Feet (11:56:52 PM): i just dont know what to even think some times
FallinFrom0Feet (11:57:17 PM): my heart tells me one thing and my head tells me another
imknownasnad (11:58:14 PM): I know. And i know it isn't easy. But hopefully it will get easier in time.
FallinFrom0Feet (11:58:52 PM): im just panicking its ok
imknownasnad (11:59:52 PM): Is there anything i can do right now to make you feel better?
FallinFrom0Feet (12:00:07 AM): i dont know
FallinFrom0Feet (12:00:33 AM): i hate freaking out all the time
imknownasnad (12:01:20 AM): I know that i love you. And i want you to be happy.
imknownasnad (12:01:31 AM): I know that i love you. And i want you to be happy.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:01:43 AM): i dont know how to be happy anymore
imknownasnad (12:04:44 AM): I hope i can help in that department
FallinFrom0Feet (12:05:48 AM): im scared of being happy
imknownasnad (12:06:26 AM): You shouldn't be scared of happiness.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:07:15 AM): i get burned he hardest when im happy
FallinFrom0Feet (12:07:25 AM): i lioose the most then
imknownasnad (12:08:11 AM): I'm sorry.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:08:25 AM): i cant win either way
imknownasnad (12:08:54 AM): Maybe it's time you start winning.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:09:31 AM): i wish
imknownasnad (12:10:03 AM): I'm serious.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:10:39 AM): me too
FallinFrom0Feet (12:10:52 AM): the whole two times i thot i won the joke was on me
imknownasnad (12:11:09 AM):
FallinFrom0Feet (12:11:49 AM): im tired of feelin like shit all the time
FallinFrom0Feet (12:11:53 AM): when i try so fucking hard
FallinFrom0Feet (12:12:06 AM): and just getting used and played
FallinFrom0Feet (12:12:17 AM): itrs not fair
imknownasnad (12:12:46 AM): I don't know what to say right now.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:14:27 AM): life doesnt seem worth living when ur destine to be miserable forever
FallinFrom0Feet (12:14:38 AM): why waste ur time and energy if ur just gunna get fucked
imknownasnad (12:17:15 AM): Because when you aren't looking, you can miss the good stuff.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:17:40 AM): na
FallinFrom0Feet (12:17:43 AM): im always looking
FallinFrom0Feet (12:17:57 AM): the harder i look the more fucked up shit i find
imknownasnad (12:20:29 AM): What happened? You seemed like you were happy when you dropped me off.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:20:53 AM): i try
FallinFrom0Feet (12:21:15 AM): no one wants to be around mrs negative nancy all the time
FallinFrom0Feet (12:22:07 AM): especially you
imknownasnad (12:23:01 AM): I want to be around you.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:23:25 AM): the last time i showed you my real feelings all the time you and tera got together
imknownasnad (12:27:32 AM): I'm sorry. And i jonestly want to make you the happiest woman in the world.
imknownasnad (12:29:45 AM): I'm serious.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:29:51 AM): i want to belive you
FallinFrom0Feet (12:30:09 AM): i want to believe that if i put trust in you again that it will all work out in the end
imknownasnad (12:31:07 AM): You don't have to makre any decisions right now though. Just focus on being happy with your self.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:31:40 AM): i dont know how to
FallinFrom0Feet (12:31:47 AM): i hate me
imknownasnad (12:32:34 AM): And i love you.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:33:30 AM): i want that to be true more then anything
imknownasnad (12:35:04 AM): You are caring, and sincere, and beautiful, and honest, and intelligent, and i was a fucking dumb ass for not appriciating you. But I see that i fucked up, and
imknownasnad (12:35:05 AM): was wrong and i want to make it up to you. I want to make it better, and i want to make you happy.
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FallinFrom0Feet (12:38:32 AM): sometimes i just dont understand why you or anyone else didnt see it...
FallinFrom0Feet (12:38:51 AM): why things had to get this bad to make you realize...
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FallinFrom0Feet (12:39:37 AM): ive always been so pacient and willing to work threw things... im open minded and compromisable...
imknownasnad (12:39:38 AM): Sometimes you don't know what you have until it's gone.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:39:41 AM): and it just seems like im just not good enough... i never am
FallinFrom0Feet (12:39:48 AM): not for you... not for anyone else
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FallinFrom0Feet (12:40:42 AM): I dont know what else I can do to be better... All I ever wanted was to be treated the same as i treat others...
imknownasnad (12:41:06 AM): But it's worth me trying to make things right.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:41:08 AM): i just wanted to love be loved in return... have a future with someone that didnt involve another women
FallinFrom0Feet (12:45:54 AM): its always the same... its just not far... why can people like mysti and chris find people that are head over
Auto Response from imknownasnad (12:45:54 AM): Your IM has been sent to my mobile device. When I receive it, I will be able to reply. Thanks for your IM!
FallinFrom0Feet (12:45:57 AM): heals for them no matter how fucked up they are.... but i never can... im never good enough for anyone
imknownasnad (12:46:01 AM): And you are the future i want. I'm sorry it took me so long to realize exactly what i want.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:46:35 AM): i fell in love with you because you said you knew what you wanted... and you wanted the same thing i did....
imknownasnad (12:48:31 AM): You are good enoigh for me dude. I want you so much it fucking hurts. I want to make my mistakes up to you so bad that it keeps me up at night trying to figure
imknownasnad (12:48:32 AM): out exactly what i have to do.
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imknownasnad (12:49:37 AM): You aren't being fair to yourself being so hard on your self. You are a great person Kayla. I wish you could see that.
FallinFrom0Feet (12:49:47 AM): im sorry i dont mean to make you feel bad im sorry.... i just... i dont know what to do anymore...
FallinFrom0Feet (12:49:48 AM): i dont have anyone to talk to... im sorry for saying anything