It's cold and snowing right now. It feels like the snow will never stop coming down. It's so lonely and tragic here in my heart. I'm restless and I need you right now. Please bring the warmth back. All I do is whine and complain, who wants to be around that?! But you don't understand. I'm with myself all day, everyday. I'm all alone with my ( Read more... )

Well then...it's been quite some time since I visited you. I need some encouragement, some motivation. I always find my way back to you, and I'm sorry for being such a neglectful friend. I know you won't leave me. When all is falling apart like it always does, that is a very comforting thought. It's 2014 now.... there are many things that I'm going ( Read more... )

I'm at a crossroads in my life. Unfortunately for me, I can never make good decisions. I have trouble just making decisions, period. What does one do when they're cornered and the only choice is to do something that will make you cry, make you bleed, make you sick? Something that will guarantee you a good, independent life but the thought of doing ( Read more... )

Smiling doesn't always mean you're happy.

Sometimes, it simply means you're a strong person. I sit here now, in a bedroom that I've had for the past few years witing a state that I've lived in for the majority of thirteen years. Everything in my life feels so surreal in this one moment.
"You're going back home," they say.

"You'll be happy."

Will ( Read more... )

It hurts so much...

I barely made it out of bed this morning. I can't face another day like this.

I'm single.
Time to just do me, and keep doing me until the day I die.

No more deluding yourself Bonnie.

Looking back on the things I've done....

Sadness is beautiful.

Loneliness is tragical.

I thinking about trying to learn how to knit! I found all these patterns for cute hats and scarves! I've always wanted to learn!! I'll have to add that to my bucket list! :D ( Read more... )

I'm cutting it close again, but I'm determined! I will check off that bucket list goal as an accomplishment come July 17th, 2013! Wow, what a goal huh? Practically a whole year until I can mark it off as accomplished! That's ok, hopefully I'll get a few more dreams fulfilled by then as well, eh? (wowza, I only just made it by a minute, or I would' ( Read more... )

You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love." -Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
I need to decide what is most important to me.

Education?

Or living on my own, completely independent?

If I work hard, save my money, and pay my way through college out of pocket and get my associates as a medical lab tech, or get my nursing ( Read more... )

Ok, so I keep cutting these entries pretty close to midnight for some reason! I'm working on bucket list number 76: write about my life/events at least once a week for a year. Hopefully I'll actually keep up with this.

I absolutely adore journals. I have a small collection of them sitting on my bookshelf. Unfortunately, only a couple pages of each ( Read more... )