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Last night I slept through the night but today I woke up at 4, & I was all ready to go back to sleep but the sun rises at 5 & I couldn't resist going outside to take pictures, so then after that I was completely awake & if Sarah's apartment had Internet I'd upload the pictures but I only have my phone until Friday.
I honestly have no worries right now. I mean of course I'm worried about starting classes, making sure I have enough money, not getting lost etc, but I finally feel like I am on my path. I finally feel like I'm going with the flow, something I've never been able to do before.
I'm not overthinking things, or obsessing over things, which is surprising because when I was here in winter I was constantly wondering what people were thinking of me / if I'm saying things right / what I'm forgetting to do...
But this time is different. I'm not on a time limit, rushing to squeeze as much of Japan into my brain as I can, like I'm a bear that will go into hibernation & receive no sustenance when I go back to America.
& I don't know if my Japanese got a lot better within the past 6 months or what, but I can understand basically everything people say to me. & when I don't understand a word & ask ＿＿＿ってなんですか？ I understand the explanation. It's such a great feeling. & idk like there's this moment when salespeople first approach me & ask me something in Japanese kind of timidly & when they know I understand they get this like relieved / happy expression that's just so wonderful & makes me feel so happy. Also talking to people who are trying to sell you something is definitely the best way to practice because they're never going to be mean.
Things are just so so so awesome. There are so many people here who have been helping me, but for once I feel like I can rely on myself. Sometimes I still get awkward feeling when I lock eyes with people on the train or if I walk the wrong direction & have to turn around, but hell everyone feels awkward about things like that.
& for some reason I don't feel that weird about speaking English in public. Of course I'd much rather speak Japanese, but I think the fact that all the ICU information is in English / one of many International schools is making me realize that people really do think English is an important language to know.
God I'm totally babbling when I really should be sleeping, but whatever. I'm going to look for apartments today so I'm nervous & excited. & aside from apartment hunting I have no plans today so I can go to sleep early if I'm tired. I have to be at ICU at 9am tomorrow anyway.
I'm thinking about making a blog about life in Japan but idk yet. I probably will because I want somewhere to put the photos I take with my baby♡ can't believe I just walked into the store & an hour later walked out with this darling for the same price as it would be in the US
I have nothing else of importance to say right now. Everything is just going so well & I feel truly happy. The only thing that would make life better is if Yasu were here, but I think 4 months will go by fast & I'm looking forward to pleasantly surprising him when he comes back. & honestly, yea there are so many attractive men around, but they all have this Japanese air about them that I feel would be impenetrable for a foreigner. They're hot but like, that's it. I don't feel at all drawn to them like I was / am to Yasu. I guess that's what being in lurveeee is hurr hurr hurr
Okay I'm stopping before I turn my livejournal into a trashy teen romance novel.
Yay
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