i love my baby
Well today was better then yesterday. Yesterday me and Bruce we're talking and i thought he was gonna break up with me but it turned out that he wasn't and i was wrong. I'm never wrong so i don't know maybe this is a good thing cause i've found someone that wont be like others. I enjoy being around him every day. He's diffrent and he loves me. He makes sure to tell me all the time so i wont forget or maybe it's because he's thinking about how much he loves me like all the time.
I know we haven't been together for long but i think this one is gonna be diffrent and is gonna make everything wonderful agaon. I've been friends with him for like four years now and this is the first time we've done anything like this so I'm thinking he's gonna be the last one. I don't know if he's thinkin it to, but i know I'm sick of being used and being let down by people and there lies. but i really like him and well i don't want him to read this and get scared but it's how i feel and i want everyone to know.
I guess thats enough about bruce. maybe not....i love you bruce....Anywho yea Sydney is still mad at me. I wish she wasn't i really want to still be friends with her. I know she thinks i'm talking shit about her all the time but i'm really not. She was like my sister and i don't think i could liv not being friends with her. I wish i could do everything over and like make her know that i love her and don't want to hurt her. As for Ryan I'm not to broken up about. I mean he's a good person but at the same time he's not. He would be a much better person if he stopped taking drugs and well there isn't much i can say about that but i did stop and well i don't ever want to do them again. there were times in my life that i would change if i could but at the same time i wouldn't cause if it wern't for the shit i did then i wouldn't be the person i am now. I love everyone that has touched my life and especially the people that i loved back.
I just wish things wer're diffrent. I mean if i could change anything then i would still be with bruce and Sydney would still be with Ryan but we would all be friends i love her more then anything. and well i jsut want us to be able to talk and hang out again. i guess thats all for now. i will write more later. goodbi
I know we haven't been together for long but i think this one is gonna be diffrent and is gonna make everything wonderful agaon. I've been friends with him for like four years now and this is the first time we've done anything like this so I'm thinking he's gonna be the last one. I don't know if he's thinkin it to, but i know I'm sick of being used and being let down by people and there lies. but i really like him and well i don't want him to read this and get scared but it's how i feel and i want everyone to know.
I guess thats enough about bruce. maybe not....i love you bruce....Anywho yea Sydney is still mad at me. I wish she wasn't i really want to still be friends with her. I know she thinks i'm talking shit about her all the time but i'm really not. She was like my sister and i don't think i could liv not being friends with her. I wish i could do everything over and like make her know that i love her and don't want to hurt her. As for Ryan I'm not to broken up about. I mean he's a good person but at the same time he's not. He would be a much better person if he stopped taking drugs and well there isn't much i can say about that but i did stop and well i don't ever want to do them again. there were times in my life that i would change if i could but at the same time i wouldn't cause if it wern't for the shit i did then i wouldn't be the person i am now. I love everyone that has touched my life and especially the people that i loved back.
I just wish things wer're diffrent. I mean if i could change anything then i would still be with bruce and Sydney would still be with Ryan but we would all be friends i love her more then anything. and well i jsut want us to be able to talk and hang out again. i guess thats all for now. i will write more later. goodbi