please don't leave me behind
so this is just me writing about nothing of actual relevance. but i feel like i have the time so I should at least pretend that I still write. it's been an odd night. i'm not used to not having any work to do, so tonight i figured i would get some people together and watch movies or hang out or do something. but go figure, the one night i don't have anything to do is the night that everyone is trying to cram out essays or has better things to do. and yes, calling every friend who i haven't spoken to in weeks to catch up was really nice...but it was just a distraction from the fact that i wasn't doing anything. and doing nothing just gave me too much time to think...about how much i miss Dan's hand touching my face...or the way he looks at me when he thinks I'm not looking. it left me time to think about the things that i said i would do but never did...the people who i said i would talk to...the way things have changed since last semester. i know everything is constantly changing and that's just the way it is.
it kind of makes me think of our discussion in sociology today. society, as a unit, is ever changing based on our actions. we create society and in turn, society creates us. but seriously, how is that even possible? which came first, the chicken or the egg? it makes complete sense that both influence each other, but one had to influence the other first, right?
so i guess this funk i'm feeling right now just stems from dan not being here anymore. i almost don't know if i can handle feeling like this every time i see him. i shouldn't feel empty. right now as he tries to fall asleep, i know he is thinking about me. i'm the luckiest girl that i know. so many girls have boys look at them with infatuation and lust. but not many get to see what i see. so i shouldn't feel empty...and alone...and like my world is moving forward too quickly and leaving me behind.
it kind of makes me think of our discussion in sociology today. society, as a unit, is ever changing based on our actions. we create society and in turn, society creates us. but seriously, how is that even possible? which came first, the chicken or the egg? it makes complete sense that both influence each other, but one had to influence the other first, right?
so i guess this funk i'm feeling right now just stems from dan not being here anymore. i almost don't know if i can handle feeling like this every time i see him. i shouldn't feel empty. right now as he tries to fall asleep, i know he is thinking about me. i'm the luckiest girl that i know. so many girls have boys look at them with infatuation and lust. but not many get to see what i see. so i shouldn't feel empty...and alone...and like my world is moving forward too quickly and leaving me behind.