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[paganskachick]

I'm so close to just giving up and walking away from everything. I'm not even sure why. I'm sitting in the computer lab at the school I go to. I'm chatting with a friend from Ft Wayne, and I'm fighting back so many tears

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[superhero_girrl]

'They flat out yell at me for being "dramatic" when all I am doing is expressing what is going on in my heart.'

I honestly don't want to start any trouble by writing this...but I relate, I really do.

I feel like the last thing that you want is to hear anything from me, but I'm sorry to see that things aren't going that well for you. It's tough, but you really gotta look to the future and be determined that things are going to get better for you. Looking towards the past and reminiscing about the bad stuff isn't going to help you conquer all that you want to.

I really hope that things get better for you.

+Gwen+

[paganskachick]

Thank you for the support, Gwen...

Things aren't really going *bad*, I just hit a bump yesterday. I think things are going to work out ok though, I did get that lane bryant job... so things can't be that bad. :)

How is your life?

[superhero_girrl]

It's alright, I'm getting better. I'm not sure if Jessika has shared anything from my journal with you, but not too soon after the stuff with you and I went down, I experienced quite a bad anxiety attack, (actually, I don't think I wrote about it in my journal in detail). Two days after that, I went to the doctors where I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression and they put me on Prozac. The medicine really hasn't kicked in yet, it takes something like 2 weeks to really take effect, but I'm in better spirits none-the-less. Other than that little bit of...excitement...all I've been doing is working and trying to figure out my life from here. I've been questioning a lot of things pertaining to me, my future and things that I can change, basically, putting things into perspective.

Well enough about me, what about you? How are you?

PS~ I wasn't sure if you really wanted to be back on my journal or not because I wasn't sure if it really was a waste of your time, but if you want to just have it there to read if you're curious,

[paganskachick]

please feel free to stick paganskachick on your friends list. :) That's where I keep my general public, lmao.

Sorry that I was being a bitch, but I was just saying how I felt.

Prozac? Where did you get prescribed that? THought they used Zoloft now... hmmm... You might check into that if Prozac doesn't work for you. :)

I've just been... alive, lol. Up and down, up and down, attempting to get myself onto my feet (not doing too bad right now, going back to school this semester and got the new job and such).

[superhero_girrl]

I got proscribed Prozac from the doctor's office that I usually go to. However, the doctor who prescribed it isn't my usual doctor, as my usual doctor was on vacation at the time. Congrats on the new Lane Bryant gig, that's gotta be some extra cash in your pocket, (assuming that you shop there), after all, you do get a discount, right? It's also good that you're going back to school, I envy you for that. Thinking about going back to school was one of the triggers in that last anxiety attack I had. I just feel like there's so much I want to accomplish but I haven't got enough time to accomplish most of it. If it wasn't for being put on Prozac and being instructed to go to a therapist, I'd probably be applying for financial aid and such now. However, I'm going to have to put off the idea of school behind me, at least until Spring semester because I have a lot to figure out

[paganskachick]

lol, well, why don't you take a few evenin classes? Surely there's a comm. college somewhere right there near you, hehe.

I'll read em. Won't even get mad, I promise. :)