So much to process...

[paganmudslide]

I had an incredibly intense therapy session today. If I had to sum up how I am doing in one word, it would be 'minestrone'. My life is this giant soup and I just keep stirring, every spoonful brings up a new crisis. Or a new facet of an old problem. Or a new emotion

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[robes_of_earth]

I think now it's my turn to say get out of my head! :P

I have a terrible problem with my temper- I have learned to control it over the years by instantly feeling sorry for the person, what a sad, desperate, unloved creature they are/have been/will always be. Of course, this doesn't stop everything- and it seems your anger is tripped by similar things to me- I CANNOT STAND it when people disregard other people's feelings, or more than that- treat them unjustly. If someone is treated unfairly in front of me I go mental.

And yeah, rocket powered like you. It's over in a flash and I usually cry because of it! The thing with being such a nice person all the time is that when you do get angry, people loose their bodily functions, because it's such a change.

"obviously I still have not fully processed the death of my father or it would not still affect me as much as it does. "

I don't think anyone could ever fully process something like this- it effects your whole life, and it's best in my opinion just to settle it somewhere as best you can. I know for absolute certainty that I will not cope when it happens. In fact, sometimes I get little panic attacks that I'm not prepared- but I am so terrifed of it that I'm on the verge of tears just writing it here.