Dreams
Yeah, I had a couple dreams. Strong dreams. Powerfull dreams. The kind of dreams where you wake up in your a pool of your own tears. The first one was about nikki and I. back in the day type. We were so happy. Just being with eachother. Just like we used to be. We'd laugh, we'd joke around, we'd hug and cuddle and kiss. It just felt so real to me. Probably because it WAS real at one point, then I had a dream of it, so it's just a false reality.
The other one was equally as real. but I don't remember most of it. I remember her being really sick, and she had to throw up. So I guided her to the bathroom, and rubbed her back as she was doing it. Now, for those of you who know me, that's very significant. After she was done, I just held her to make her feel better. That's all I remember.
These dreams just made me realize how much I miss her. I don't know why I still love her. I shouldn't. I can't afford to love her, because it's not like there's anything going to happen with that. I've learned you can't love someone without them loving you back. They were all just very emotional for me. I wanted to keep on sleeping, just so I'd be back there. I was so happy. Both with the dream...and with her.
The other one was equally as real. but I don't remember most of it. I remember her being really sick, and she had to throw up. So I guided her to the bathroom, and rubbed her back as she was doing it. Now, for those of you who know me, that's very significant. After she was done, I just held her to make her feel better. That's all I remember.
These dreams just made me realize how much I miss her. I don't know why I still love her. I shouldn't. I can't afford to love her, because it's not like there's anything going to happen with that. I've learned you can't love someone without them loving you back. They were all just very emotional for me. I wanted to keep on sleeping, just so I'd be back there. I was so happy. Both with the dream...and with her.