&& theres this boy
there's this one boy
that I haven't wanted to write about
because, well
when I see him
when I really look at him
I hear the music
the room starts to slow down
and my heart beats
hard enough to be visible
through whatever shirt
I'm wearing
and I haven't wanted to write about him
because then it makes it real
and it stops being some fun little thing
that makes my days a little brighter
and it becomes something I have to deal with
I'm dealing with enough right now
and I'd like to keep this
as it is
a dream
a song
a clip from a moviee
the kind that binds your stomach
and hurts your heart
because you know
that you're still alone.