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Yeah... so I'm quiting all of my vices. I'm trying to get my head on straight, so I'm not gonna drink anymore- not even the occassional drink. I'm not gonna smoke anymore either. I feel completely lost- I don't know where I'm going anymore, or what I'm doing. I just want to dissappear. I want to walk off into the woods, and leave everyone and everything I know behind without looking back. But I don't have the strength. That's all it ever boils down to. I don't have the strength to keep control of my heart. I don't have the strength to keep going like this, wandering blindly through life hoping for things to go right. Yet I don't know what to do, either. I just don't know anymore.