Oh bother.
I just went to the super market and saw a dozen midwestern dykes like my self. My look is not so signature here.
Any way, i miss california. Being home sucks, my family is acting like i never left. I hate how i can see them so differently now.
My father is not helpless anymore. He is a whining blaming coward.
My mother is... really quite the same.
I hope some day my relationship with my father will be good. He need to learn that just because he says/thinks somthihng does not mean its the truth. I'm tired of having to defend my self. From now on there is nothing to defend. I am fucking innocent until proven guilty. ANd when he is wrong, i'm gonna tell him. If get angry and throws a bitch fit too bad. If i have to be a grown up, so does he.
More bad news?
I left a whole bunch of sexy friends in California. On the flip side, amanda has been in an amazing mood all day!
we are getting alot of solor heat, but the wind and air are freezing around these parts, i'm going to have to suffer the cold for another 2 weeks, and when that is over i won't even need warmer clothes.
Jason is being hella sweet and making dinner. I'm not a fan of his cooking, but I am a fan of how had he works, and how well he treat me and manda. He has alot of stuff to work through with his life, he fucks up some times (but we all do) , he is nice, i think he is taking us to a movie tonight, then i sleep in a BIG BED with amanda!
Other than missing haut friends in cali, summer shaping up well.
Any way, i miss california. Being home sucks, my family is acting like i never left. I hate how i can see them so differently now.
My father is not helpless anymore. He is a whining blaming coward.
My mother is... really quite the same.
I hope some day my relationship with my father will be good. He need to learn that just because he says/thinks somthihng does not mean its the truth. I'm tired of having to defend my self. From now on there is nothing to defend. I am fucking innocent until proven guilty. ANd when he is wrong, i'm gonna tell him. If get angry and throws a bitch fit too bad. If i have to be a grown up, so does he.
More bad news?
I left a whole bunch of sexy friends in California. On the flip side, amanda has been in an amazing mood all day!
we are getting alot of solor heat, but the wind and air are freezing around these parts, i'm going to have to suffer the cold for another 2 weeks, and when that is over i won't even need warmer clothes.
Jason is being hella sweet and making dinner. I'm not a fan of his cooking, but I am a fan of how had he works, and how well he treat me and manda. He has alot of stuff to work through with his life, he fucks up some times (but we all do) , he is nice, i think he is taking us to a movie tonight, then i sleep in a BIG BED with amanda!
Other than missing haut friends in cali, summer shaping up well.