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cokesnsmokes in p_t_s_d

hi. anyone out there?

Oct 01, 2011 19:34

New member here. I noticed the last activity was in August so I'm posting hopefully to stir up some conversation here.

The last post by slow_mo_panda was about a particular type of PTSD stemming from a near-death experience: What is your PTSD from? What issues do you deal with that are specific to your "type" of post-traumatic stress ( Read more... )

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razrbladplygrnd October 2 2011, 15:48:29 UTC

Wow... you and I are very similar. For years and years I could never shower at somebody else's house (esp my moms) because I was uncomfortable. I'd change under the covers to avoid being nude. My stepdad was huge into electronics - even when he wasn't there I was paranoid he'd set up cameras and whatnot to watch me.

I'm 32 now - it took me probably 7 years of my own "exposure" therapy (ha ha) to get comfortable in my own skin. I decided, one hot summer, that I wanted to be able to sleep naked. It was really hard, but I just wore less and less and less clothes and eventually I was able to sleep through the night. Took me a very very long time. But now I can and it gives me this feeling of satisfaction and triumph that I don't have to be afraid or affected by that piece of shit in my own home, in my own bed, in my own life. I still gotta have a cover on, but I have to have that even in pajamas. :)

cokesnsmokes October 27 2011, 03:32:21 UTC

It's super creepy sleeping without a blanket or cover of some sort. I don't even mean in my PTSD, someone's-watching-me way. I mean in a monster-is-going-to-come-out-of-my-closet-and-eat-me way. IDK. Holdover from small childhood, maybe. XD

shmuelisms October 5 2011, 00:25:18 UTC

Yello.
My PTSD is mostly from being an actual witness to years of sexual abuse of my younger sister, by our father, starting when *I* was 6! That and growing up in a completely dysfunctional family with a wallflower mom, and a father who got a kick out of emotional and psychological abuse as well, and various other mind games. Did I mention he was a psychologist?

I "deal" with it, by having twice weekly classic therapy (with a wee bit CBT thrown in). My current run is two years long, the longest ever, and my therapist is awesome. I've been in many forms of therapy for most of my life. Now being 40 that is quite a lot! Funny how I've come full circle back to "classic". I also take Lamictal for the mood-swings, the occasional Lorivan for anxiety attacks, and sleeping pills. As much as I hate to say it - Long Live Mind Drugs.

cokesnsmokes October 27 2011, 03:40:32 UTC

I feel bad I didn't respond for so long to my own begging for conversation. I thought it would send me an email reminder when I got responses but apparently not? I'll have to look in my settings and see if that exists or not. I haven't used LJ regularly since college. :P ( ... )