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So pretty much I forgot about this journal and tons of things have happened. Well school started. Its been pretty good, a tad boring but isint school always . . .
Yeah and im still in color guard. Its okay, im not as crazy for it as i used to be. So weve had performances and it is really fun and I still love it but the practices are just killin me sometimes. I have a performance tomorrow though so that should be pretty fun. Its the home comming game.
Okay so on the topic of guys.
So in my Algebra 1b class there is this guy that im pretty much, well obsessed with. First I thought he was cute and now its pretty much growing. His name is Jason. Well my guy friend Seth knows him, and well Seth told me that he is going to tell Jason on Saturday that I like him, then he is going to call or IM me and tell me what he said. Im so nervous. A whole bunch of stuff is just running through my mind. What if he thinks im ugly? What is he thinks im weird? What if he think "ewww"? What if he asks me out? What if he laughs? Okay im just gonna stop now because I could probably fill up three pages of "what ifs." Im just so friken nervoud about monday :/
RIP Abby 9/13/05
I loved you so friken much. You were so young do die from a fucking stroke. It was asthema that did it. Fuck you asthema. I still remember it like it was yesterday. My dad calls me in at about 6 in the morning and im thinks, dammit what did i do i must be in trouble. Well anyways i sit down on my parents bed and I hear "Abby died about 30 minutes ago." I dont listen to anything else and just bust out crying. How could this happen? Last night she had been fine and I had just seen her. I ask "where is she?" my parents didnt think I would want to see her but I insisted, so I wake up my brother and tell him, were both walking down the staires and there she is... in the hallways, we sit down and just pet her lifeless body for a few minutes. We had to get to school though. I could have pet her all day. Right as I get up I kiss her on the head and tell my brother to do the same.
It feels like I still have her, I mean I have dreams about her, I did last night atleast. Eeek. Atleast she is happier now and is looking down on me right now.
Man I seriously was pouring tears just writing that :/
My mom said around Thanksgiving or Christmas break we can get a kitten though so I wont be lonely forever.
Other than that things have been pretty good though. I will have to actually update this thing from now on though
Yeah and im still in color guard. Its okay, im not as crazy for it as i used to be. So weve had performances and it is really fun and I still love it but the practices are just killin me sometimes. I have a performance tomorrow though so that should be pretty fun. Its the home comming game.
Okay so on the topic of guys.
So in my Algebra 1b class there is this guy that im pretty much, well obsessed with. First I thought he was cute and now its pretty much growing. His name is Jason. Well my guy friend Seth knows him, and well Seth told me that he is going to tell Jason on Saturday that I like him, then he is going to call or IM me and tell me what he said. Im so nervous. A whole bunch of stuff is just running through my mind. What if he thinks im ugly? What is he thinks im weird? What if he think "ewww"? What if he asks me out? What if he laughs? Okay im just gonna stop now because I could probably fill up three pages of "what ifs." Im just so friken nervoud about monday :/
RIP Abby 9/13/05
I loved you so friken much. You were so young do die from a fucking stroke. It was asthema that did it. Fuck you asthema. I still remember it like it was yesterday. My dad calls me in at about 6 in the morning and im thinks, dammit what did i do i must be in trouble. Well anyways i sit down on my parents bed and I hear "Abby died about 30 minutes ago." I dont listen to anything else and just bust out crying. How could this happen? Last night she had been fine and I had just seen her. I ask "where is she?" my parents didnt think I would want to see her but I insisted, so I wake up my brother and tell him, were both walking down the staires and there she is... in the hallways, we sit down and just pet her lifeless body for a few minutes. We had to get to school though. I could have pet her all day. Right as I get up I kiss her on the head and tell my brother to do the same.
It feels like I still have her, I mean I have dreams about her, I did last night atleast. Eeek. Atleast she is happier now and is looking down on me right now.
Man I seriously was pouring tears just writing that :/
My mom said around Thanksgiving or Christmas break we can get a kitten though so I wont be lonely forever.
Other than that things have been pretty good though. I will have to actually update this thing from now on though