I'm not a bad person, honest.
This guy I work with broke up with his girlfriend today.
She was at Dominos tonight as usual, just so she could spend some time with him between deliveries.
They were acting goofy and playing around, having a good time. Nothing strange there.
I went and did something for like 15 minutes, came back, and he was crying a little.
Turns out they had a disagreement about something and decided it was over.
I saw him crying. He was a little messed up by it, but not too bad. I offered my ear, as I usually do to people who look like they need to talk/rant, but he said he'd be fine. When I was a kid, if I saw someone crying, I'd get a little misty-eyed. Maybe even shed a tear for them out of sympathy. It was like I could feel a little of what they were feeling. Maybe it's the pisces in me, maybe I was just a softie. But tonight, I saw him crying and felt nothing. He says he doesn't like to bottle things up, he says it's best for him to get the feelings out of the way right there so then he can think rationally about whatever situation is affecting him. I don't think like that, I don't do that. I've been bottling things up since I was 12, and haven't cried in over a decade. Well, I cried once, a little, when my grandfather died back when I was 15 or 16... but I'm talking like all out crying, getting everything out. I haven't done that in about 10 years. I guess bottling things up and holding on to adverse feelings has numbed me a little. That and some experiences I've had growing up where and the way I did.
Some people think it isn't healthy to bottle things up. I say it doesn't matter. I just don't cry, it isn't in me. I live life with low expectations. I don't get my hopes up, so I don't get let down. It's just who I am.
Call me pessimistic, but I think it works.
She was at Dominos tonight as usual, just so she could spend some time with him between deliveries.
They were acting goofy and playing around, having a good time. Nothing strange there.
I went and did something for like 15 minutes, came back, and he was crying a little.
Turns out they had a disagreement about something and decided it was over.
I saw him crying. He was a little messed up by it, but not too bad. I offered my ear, as I usually do to people who look like they need to talk/rant, but he said he'd be fine. When I was a kid, if I saw someone crying, I'd get a little misty-eyed. Maybe even shed a tear for them out of sympathy. It was like I could feel a little of what they were feeling. Maybe it's the pisces in me, maybe I was just a softie. But tonight, I saw him crying and felt nothing. He says he doesn't like to bottle things up, he says it's best for him to get the feelings out of the way right there so then he can think rationally about whatever situation is affecting him. I don't think like that, I don't do that. I've been bottling things up since I was 12, and haven't cried in over a decade. Well, I cried once, a little, when my grandfather died back when I was 15 or 16... but I'm talking like all out crying, getting everything out. I haven't done that in about 10 years. I guess bottling things up and holding on to adverse feelings has numbed me a little. That and some experiences I've had growing up where and the way I did.
Some people think it isn't healthy to bottle things up. I say it doesn't matter. I just don't cry, it isn't in me. I live life with low expectations. I don't get my hopes up, so I don't get let down. It's just who I am.
Call me pessimistic, but I think it works.