i had to let this out
wow. so i am trying to apply for financial aid and as you all know a HUGE part of that is like parent's income tax and parent's earnings and parent's social, etc. basically ALOT of stuff involving parents information.
i am trying to not only do this for myself but to help out my parents so they don't have to pay so much for my college. so i went on the website and it tells me to print out the worksheet that had all the stuff that we need to have. and since i dont have a printer i took the intiative to write everything down for my mom so she can gather up all the info. i really wanted to get it done tonight since the rest of this month-busy busy busy what with finals and a community service and work and trying to get another job and also being a teacher aid for 5th graders later on.
so i gave the list to her and all she can say is "i dont know" swear go God she must've said it about... 20 times AT LEAST. i was like what do you mean you don't know? you have to know like how much you make in a year and tax and stuff like WHO ELSE WOULD?!?! and she goes "well all the papers are in the storage right now idk" and so i said " well that is totally fine you can just get it tmr then and we can just do it tomorrow" she goes " i can't" and i said why not? she said " oh i'm busy tomorrow, i cant do it" so i said "when can you do it then? i'd really like to get this done as soon as possible since i will be extremely busy the rest of the month" and guess what her response to that was.. I DONT KNOW. omg how can u fucking communicate with someone who fucking says that shit to everything i ask?! i fucking hate those 3 words now i swear. she tells me i should go to las po. and you know what thats fucking unfair. i've worked my ass off ok for like the last 3 years ok. and i got into the college i want!! why do i have to fucking go to community college?!?! I AM TRYING TO MAKE THINGS EASIER FOR THEM DO THEY NOT UNDERSTAND?!?!
all she can say is i dont know and i dont care and u know what it makes me not want to fucking know either or care.
how can i take care of my future when my fucking parents wont fucking help me?? I DONT want to end up like my brother who is 28 and still living at home working at H&M ok?! that is bullshit. i am so terrified. by 28 i wanna be married, teaching, living my own life.
i jus wanna either punch someone a hundred million times right now or just give up on everything because really... i feel like i am just about 48 years old right now trying to take care of everything on my own and havin it go down the drain like this is just really hurting me...
i am trying to not only do this for myself but to help out my parents so they don't have to pay so much for my college. so i went on the website and it tells me to print out the worksheet that had all the stuff that we need to have. and since i dont have a printer i took the intiative to write everything down for my mom so she can gather up all the info. i really wanted to get it done tonight since the rest of this month-busy busy busy what with finals and a community service and work and trying to get another job and also being a teacher aid for 5th graders later on.
so i gave the list to her and all she can say is "i dont know" swear go God she must've said it about... 20 times AT LEAST. i was like what do you mean you don't know? you have to know like how much you make in a year and tax and stuff like WHO ELSE WOULD?!?! and she goes "well all the papers are in the storage right now idk" and so i said " well that is totally fine you can just get it tmr then and we can just do it tomorrow" she goes " i can't" and i said why not? she said " oh i'm busy tomorrow, i cant do it" so i said "when can you do it then? i'd really like to get this done as soon as possible since i will be extremely busy the rest of the month" and guess what her response to that was.. I DONT KNOW. omg how can u fucking communicate with someone who fucking says that shit to everything i ask?! i fucking hate those 3 words now i swear. she tells me i should go to las po. and you know what thats fucking unfair. i've worked my ass off ok for like the last 3 years ok. and i got into the college i want!! why do i have to fucking go to community college?!?! I AM TRYING TO MAKE THINGS EASIER FOR THEM DO THEY NOT UNDERSTAND?!?!
all she can say is i dont know and i dont care and u know what it makes me not want to fucking know either or care.
how can i take care of my future when my fucking parents wont fucking help me?? I DONT want to end up like my brother who is 28 and still living at home working at H&M ok?! that is bullshit. i am so terrified. by 28 i wanna be married, teaching, living my own life.
i jus wanna either punch someone a hundred million times right now or just give up on everything because really... i feel like i am just about 48 years old right now trying to take care of everything on my own and havin it go down the drain like this is just really hurting me...