Fr!ends: Megan
!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
Finally got to catch up with one of my girlfriends who I've not spoken to in a really long time. It's been, oh, a few years? I'm going to say at least two years because the last time I actually saw her face to face was when she was pregnant with Abby. She was pregnant with Abby, Robert had just turned a year in November of the previous year - and I was staying with them because I had left Kris.
Lots has happened, turns out, since the last time that her and I have spoken. Not only is her daughter quite grown, and her son as well, but she is no longer married and actually living two provinces away from me. It shocked the hell out of me, when she told me the story. She said that she didn't like his girlfriend (why he has a girlfriend while being married is beyond me) and that he got out of the army and into drugs. She doesn't know why or how he got out of the army, but he did, got some new friends and got into drugs. She said she wasn't putting up with it, so she left.
Now, do I believe that this all happened and he's truly this monster now? I don't know, it's hard to say. I'm not saying that I don't believe my girlfriend. I'm just saying I don't know if I believe it because I don't really know the guy. He seemed so level headed, mature and ready to take on the world. To turn around and become the total opposite, it just, confuses me I guess.
If I ever got married though, and had those things happen - yeah - you're damn straight I'd leave the guy too. I think. I always told my Mom that I'd leave if I was with someone who didn't love me. But, look at me now. I'm still in a relationship with a man who doesn't love me. Though, I suppose the question was "if you were in a relationship with a man, who said he'd never love you - would you stay" - and he never said he wouldn't ever love me.
It scares me though, knowing that her hubby turned into that - and he is only a couple years older than Kris. Will the army get the best of Kris as well? I don't know. I know he's been into drugs before, but he's been off for many years - and I'm proud of him. He barely drinks anymore as well. So...I don't know.
She seems happy though, and that is all that matters. Single and happy. Just goes to show, you don't need a man to be happy. Many think I'm with Kris because I need him to be happy and that I need him to survive, but I wish people would just understand that I'm here because I damn well love the guy. I love him with my entire heart, and entire self being. Why can't people understand that?
It was good to talk to her, I just cannot believe how much of a monster her hubby has become. No wonder he's so strange whenever I try and talk to him.
ox (! Tw!nkers !) xo
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