The Wr!ter: Cannot Relax, No Time To
!! Dear Whomever Gives A Damn !!
It's been two days since I've gotten out of the hospital, well, kind of. I don't know. My mind is such a blur that I cannot even count how many days it's been. The cramps are still here, and it seems the more that I move, the worse it gets. So, I'm obviously trying to stay as still as possible. I only get up when I absolutely have to. I probably shouldn't even be out of bed right now, but I'm so stressed over school.
After what happened this weekend, I know I shouldn't be stressing. That could probably put me into premature labor too. Not looking forward to this. There are things that I have to do. School work. Cleaning. Cooking. There is so much I have to do, and people just keep telling me to relax. I know, I need to relax - but I can't. It's so hard for me to relax. I've got only a couple weeks, if even that, to complete all my school work so that I can pass my classes and graduate.
Contractions haven't been back. Not the real ones anyway. Braxton Hicks ones are though, and it's really beginning to bother me. My rash still hasn't gone away, and it's so itchy. Thank god that I have my next doctor appointment on Thursday. Hopefully my doctor will be able to tell me more about this rash and maybe he'll have more to say on what's going on with me lately. Why my cervix is so soft, and how "easy" I should really be taking it.
Wish this would all just go away though. I wish I could relax. Wish I could just take a breather and not have to worry about anything - but Isabella is enough work. She's not here, so now I've got time to worry about everything else: keeping this house together, school work. Though, I've yet to try house work 'cause I know I'd just end up killing myself trying to do it. Ugh. Why me. Why now.
ox (! Tw!nkers !) xo
♥ ♥ ♥
It's been two days since I've gotten out of the hospital, well, kind of. I don't know. My mind is such a blur that I cannot even count how many days it's been. The cramps are still here, and it seems the more that I move, the worse it gets. So, I'm obviously trying to stay as still as possible. I only get up when I absolutely have to. I probably shouldn't even be out of bed right now, but I'm so stressed over school.
After what happened this weekend, I know I shouldn't be stressing. That could probably put me into premature labor too. Not looking forward to this. There are things that I have to do. School work. Cleaning. Cooking. There is so much I have to do, and people just keep telling me to relax. I know, I need to relax - but I can't. It's so hard for me to relax. I've got only a couple weeks, if even that, to complete all my school work so that I can pass my classes and graduate.
Contractions haven't been back. Not the real ones anyway. Braxton Hicks ones are though, and it's really beginning to bother me. My rash still hasn't gone away, and it's so itchy. Thank god that I have my next doctor appointment on Thursday. Hopefully my doctor will be able to tell me more about this rash and maybe he'll have more to say on what's going on with me lately. Why my cervix is so soft, and how "easy" I should really be taking it.
Wish this would all just go away though. I wish I could relax. Wish I could just take a breather and not have to worry about anything - but Isabella is enough work. She's not here, so now I've got time to worry about everything else: keeping this house together, school work. Though, I've yet to try house work 'cause I know I'd just end up killing myself trying to do it. Ugh. Why me. Why now.
ox (! Tw!nkers !) xo
♥ ♥ ♥