"All We Need"
"Rich or poor, God I want You more
Than anything that glitters in this world
Be my all, all consuming fire
You can have all my hands can hold
My heart, mind, strength, and soul
Be my all, all consuming fire
Cause we have all we need in You
All we need is You
All we need is You
(acoustic) We have all we need in You (baaam! drums! guitars! hooray!)"
I love the comment Suzy made last Thursday night that I might have a mini-soul of a drummer. I love all the parts of the songs when it's soft... and then all of a sudden BAM! it's loud! Like "Indescribable" when it's like "Who has told every lightning bolt (BAM!) where (BAM!) it (BAM!) should go?" And then also in "Here Is Our King" during the "the ocean... (dadada) is growing... (dadada)" I LOVE that part.
Today was Ben's birthday and I am so glad he had such a wonderful day. I had a wonderful day as well. I am waiting for this wonderfullness to be over and for me to be sad again... but until then, I will immerse myself and enjoy this incredibleness that is fueling my happiness.
Last night, we had the paper reading for English and Suzy came along with the rest of my family and I read the paper I wrote about her and everyone stared at her as I described her "light brown freckles that blend into her face and the faint lines of two defined dimples, each one equidistant from the corners of her mouth," which was interesting. I am so grateful to have her in my life. I am so grateful to have all these amazing people in my life.
I just remembered the conversation I had with Fanny on Friday night. She has just become such a normal part of my life that sometimes I think I forget. She is the closest thing I have to a sister. I've never been away for her for such a long period of time... I wonder what will happen when I go to college? Well, I know what will happen because I will make it happen: we are not going to lose this friendship. If anything, I think we will make it stronger. After all, distance makes the heart grow fonder!!
I had "You and I Were Made To Worship" and "Oh No, You Never Let Go" stuck in my head all day so during my free block, I listened to it and I let Riva listen to it to, but she said she couldn't hear anything and that I was just remembering the songs. Which is probably true because the songs are very maxed out. But wonderful nonetheless!
Riva also chuckled when she looked at the pictures of the song lyrics on the jumbotron on my iPod that Ben took in Nashville. She was like, "Well, you see why it's a little funny right? Because this phrase (how awesome is the Lord most high) is something that my friends and I would say jokingly." And I know she didn't mean it in an offensive way because she respects me and my beliefs, but I thought it was interesting. I've just taken on this craving for everyone to love God ever since Passion. But I forget that I'm the only one who really believes in God out of almost everyone that I know at school. I don't know what to really do sometimes. I'm writing my "Passionate Belief" paper for English about it.
When I told my dad about it tonight, his response was "You're writing about being Christian again?" which was an answer I was not really pleased with because of all people, you would think my dad would encourage me writing about being Christian but even he thinks I should censor! Well, maybe not that exactly, but I think he just sort of feels like I write about my faith too much... which is sort of true, I guess, except every thing that I have tried to write always gets pushed off because it is about me being Christian. But it's such a huge part of my life... I don't know how I can't write about it. I don't think I've written an entry without mentioning God for a long, long time now.
But while writing my paper, I realized the issue with which I am struggling the most: the suffering and death of innocent people, particularly children. This is what I decided to write, it's just a first draft and we have a drafting day tomorrow, but I don't even know if I'm convincing myself:
"Of course I question why innocent children die every day in our world and why God doesn’t do anything about it. This is the issue with which I struggle the most. I do not believe that God causes it. In my Student Study Bible, there is a blurb about suffering that says that “we live in a broken world of sinful people. It is a planet in rebellion against its Creator,” so we shouldn’t be surprised that believers and innocent people are caught in the crossfire. As an Episcopalian, my faith has not been raised with a focus on sin and saving myself from hell. Like most people, I have no clue what happens when we die. I am not 100% sure that there is an afterlife. Yet I feel assured that if I continue to strengthen my belief, remain humble under God, and recognize and repent when I do sin, death will not be the ultimate end and that it could simply be a gateway to a whole new indescribable life. However, my goal on earth is not to die in order to get closer to God. Instead, I realize and recognize that I have to make the most of this time as possible and to focus on a living a good Christian life."
I really want this paper to be good. I want people to, after hearing my paper, be interested in Christianity rather than feel like they have more reasons to condemn it.
I'm just going to love more and more this week. That's what I'm going to do.
Than anything that glitters in this world
Be my all, all consuming fire
You can have all my hands can hold
My heart, mind, strength, and soul
Be my all, all consuming fire
Cause we have all we need in You
All we need is You
All we need is You
(acoustic) We have all we need in You (baaam! drums! guitars! hooray!)"
I love the comment Suzy made last Thursday night that I might have a mini-soul of a drummer. I love all the parts of the songs when it's soft... and then all of a sudden BAM! it's loud! Like "Indescribable" when it's like "Who has told every lightning bolt (BAM!) where (BAM!) it (BAM!) should go?" And then also in "Here Is Our King" during the "the ocean... (dadada) is growing... (dadada)" I LOVE that part.
Today was Ben's birthday and I am so glad he had such a wonderful day. I had a wonderful day as well. I am waiting for this wonderfullness to be over and for me to be sad again... but until then, I will immerse myself and enjoy this incredibleness that is fueling my happiness.
Last night, we had the paper reading for English and Suzy came along with the rest of my family and I read the paper I wrote about her and everyone stared at her as I described her "light brown freckles that blend into her face and the faint lines of two defined dimples, each one equidistant from the corners of her mouth," which was interesting. I am so grateful to have her in my life. I am so grateful to have all these amazing people in my life.
I just remembered the conversation I had with Fanny on Friday night. She has just become such a normal part of my life that sometimes I think I forget. She is the closest thing I have to a sister. I've never been away for her for such a long period of time... I wonder what will happen when I go to college? Well, I know what will happen because I will make it happen: we are not going to lose this friendship. If anything, I think we will make it stronger. After all, distance makes the heart grow fonder!!
I had "You and I Were Made To Worship" and "Oh No, You Never Let Go" stuck in my head all day so during my free block, I listened to it and I let Riva listen to it to, but she said she couldn't hear anything and that I was just remembering the songs. Which is probably true because the songs are very maxed out. But wonderful nonetheless!
Riva also chuckled when she looked at the pictures of the song lyrics on the jumbotron on my iPod that Ben took in Nashville. She was like, "Well, you see why it's a little funny right? Because this phrase (how awesome is the Lord most high) is something that my friends and I would say jokingly." And I know she didn't mean it in an offensive way because she respects me and my beliefs, but I thought it was interesting. I've just taken on this craving for everyone to love God ever since Passion. But I forget that I'm the only one who really believes in God out of almost everyone that I know at school. I don't know what to really do sometimes. I'm writing my "Passionate Belief" paper for English about it.
When I told my dad about it tonight, his response was "You're writing about being Christian again?" which was an answer I was not really pleased with because of all people, you would think my dad would encourage me writing about being Christian but even he thinks I should censor! Well, maybe not that exactly, but I think he just sort of feels like I write about my faith too much... which is sort of true, I guess, except every thing that I have tried to write always gets pushed off because it is about me being Christian. But it's such a huge part of my life... I don't know how I can't write about it. I don't think I've written an entry without mentioning God for a long, long time now.
But while writing my paper, I realized the issue with which I am struggling the most: the suffering and death of innocent people, particularly children. This is what I decided to write, it's just a first draft and we have a drafting day tomorrow, but I don't even know if I'm convincing myself:
"Of course I question why innocent children die every day in our world and why God doesn’t do anything about it. This is the issue with which I struggle the most. I do not believe that God causes it. In my Student Study Bible, there is a blurb about suffering that says that “we live in a broken world of sinful people. It is a planet in rebellion against its Creator,” so we shouldn’t be surprised that believers and innocent people are caught in the crossfire. As an Episcopalian, my faith has not been raised with a focus on sin and saving myself from hell. Like most people, I have no clue what happens when we die. I am not 100% sure that there is an afterlife. Yet I feel assured that if I continue to strengthen my belief, remain humble under God, and recognize and repent when I do sin, death will not be the ultimate end and that it could simply be a gateway to a whole new indescribable life. However, my goal on earth is not to die in order to get closer to God. Instead, I realize and recognize that I have to make the most of this time as possible and to focus on a living a good Christian life."
I really want this paper to be good. I want people to, after hearing my paper, be interested in Christianity rather than feel like they have more reasons to condemn it.
I'm just going to love more and more this week. That's what I'm going to do.