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Hmm... so how about I actually like/love being a senior? Yesterday was the first official day of school and I just got such a good feeling. Maybe it's because I remembered and was reminded that I actually have friends in school and that they actually like me and I like them too. haha.
I love being a senior. Because AP History last year was the epitome of DEATH. My AP Gov't teacher didn't even mention the AP test. He talked about his daughter, Ashling, and how she had an unusual ethnic (Irish) name (and then when he called my name I was like "See, don't even think that your daughter is going to hate you for giving her an ethnic name, look at mine"), and we had this piece of paper to fill out what we thought we knew about the Supreme Court system and it included a Mad Libs section where there were no right answers and Eileen was like "...is STUPID, .... should LOVE ME" etc etc and it was pretty funny actually! Except actually, I have quite the zoo for my Gov't class. It's pretty much filled with "typical teenagers" and no one who is like.. overwhelmingly smart (like Karen Baker or Netta from last year.) I mean I know eventually there will be so much anxiety and feelings of competition just because that's how we are, but I didn't really feel any on that first day.
There was a hot boy in my Spanish class. He was a new junior, but in our all-senior class. I don't know his name. But he spoke Spanish with a beautiful accent (I think he was a native, but then I found out he moved from France? Haha, which reminded me of JUAN!!! My crush from freshman year. I wonder how he's doing in the fine city of Barcelona..) and I melted and went ga-ga. And so did every other of the 1489548 girls in my Spanish class. There are only 4 boys in our AP Spanish class. It's so funny/sad.
The only class I remotely dislike is my Chinese class. I decided to switch my Photography II to Chinese II honor. Boo. I just feel so.. old, but at the same time that people think I'm young... I don't know, I think I might prefer Photography, but I don't know if I'll have enough time.
But I love my SWS classes. I'm taking 3 this year. I'm up there for the whole 2nd part of the day. And I actually like it like that. I'm so glad I didn't quit the first year. I feel like I belong there even though I'm still different from the "normal SWSer." I'm so excited for Creative Non-Fiction with Abby and Education seminar with Keira. I realized that Creative Non-Fiction is the perfect English class for 1st semester this year because it's basically like practicing writing your college essay over and over again.
Our first assignment was to write about writing. And I realize that sometimes the writing I like the most shows up on LJ. Which is why sometimes I want to just print my whole LJ out so I can actually have a hard copy of it. Because I'm just scared that LJ will suddenly bomb and everything will disappear. But for my english class, we're reading "Bird By Bird" by Anne Lamott and it's so interesting. She's writing about writing and life, and it's so readable and enjoyable.
A couple quotes I liked:
"One of the gifts of being a writer is that it gives you an excuse to do things, to go places and explore. Another is that writing motivates you to look closely at life, at life as it lurches by and tramps around." And I realized that I really am obsessed with life, with its crooks and creases and the way it always surrounds us.
"You might as well fall flat on your face as lean over too backwards."
Okay, so basically it was just weird that yesterday, I was actually excited about school. I am actually excited about AP Government & Politics because I think it's so interesting to learn about our democratic political system (even though I didn't particularly enjoy writing those two papers which I'm sure I did so terribly on) and I am so excited about Ed Seminar (our first assignment, just as a "get to know you" activity) is to choose a song you love and bring in a CD for our Ed Seminar Mix (I'm contemplating Backstreet Boys' "As Long As You Love Me" or Switchfoot's "On Fire" -- therefore deciding whether to be actually be serious or not haha, even though I really do like both songs, As Long As You Love Me was my first favorite pop song haha) and I am very excited about Creative Non-Fiction just because.. I love when I get to write about myself and my past, just like last year's Childhood & Memory...
I just felt really blessed to go to Brookline High and I was realizing that people don't realize how lucky they are. I cannot believe that during our assembly people booed when our principal, Dr. Bob, was mentioned. That was so disrespectful. We get to eat in the halls, we have great teachers, we don't have class ranking because it would create so much more competition than there already is, we have so many languages to choose from to take, we have so many electives... it's so much like college, I feel. Except I know it's not at all like college, too.
At the same time though, I was faced with the thought about why I can just go to Camp or a Conference like in Kentucky or Seattle or anywhere else and be able to say hi and become friends with someone I don't know, but I can't do that in my own school. I wanted to just go up to people and say hi, but I limited myself because... I just wasn't supposed to do that. I guess that's the worst thing about my school. I think there are so many cliques. While I'm sure it's not a huge distinctive feature, b/c I know other schools are like that too... it was just weird.
Haha, but last night with Ava was so fun. We were so typical and I was just reminded all over again about how much I love her and love being with her. We are so opposite, and yet we are so the same. She is so many things I'm not, and I am so many things she's not (yet sometimes I can't think of them as I'm sure she can't always think of the things she has and I don't). We stayed in her house, looked at the yearbook and scoped people (boys) out, watched Degrassi and Girls v Boys in Puerto Rico (we both think Demien is so hot), ordered Chinese take out... it was so nice. I hadn't hung out with her for 3 months. It was crazy.
One more thing: another thing I realized at the assembly was that it was going to be the last time we were going to be all together for our first day of school. There are so many people that represent Brookline High to me, even if I don't necessarily talk to them. But after June 2006, I am not going to see or communicate with 95% of my grade. Which is really sad, but true. So I was just looking around the whole auditorium yesterday and looking at everyone's faces and realizing that I wasn't going to see those people anymore. It was sort of bittersweet... but sort of absolutely not. haha. I can't wait till college, but at least now it's not like I hate my school and want to get out. I'm appreciating both the beauty and ugliness or it haha.
I love being a senior. Because AP History last year was the epitome of DEATH. My AP Gov't teacher didn't even mention the AP test. He talked about his daughter, Ashling, and how she had an unusual ethnic (Irish) name (and then when he called my name I was like "See, don't even think that your daughter is going to hate you for giving her an ethnic name, look at mine"), and we had this piece of paper to fill out what we thought we knew about the Supreme Court system and it included a Mad Libs section where there were no right answers and Eileen was like "...is STUPID, .... should LOVE ME" etc etc and it was pretty funny actually! Except actually, I have quite the zoo for my Gov't class. It's pretty much filled with "typical teenagers" and no one who is like.. overwhelmingly smart (like Karen Baker or Netta from last year.) I mean I know eventually there will be so much anxiety and feelings of competition just because that's how we are, but I didn't really feel any on that first day.
There was a hot boy in my Spanish class. He was a new junior, but in our all-senior class. I don't know his name. But he spoke Spanish with a beautiful accent (I think he was a native, but then I found out he moved from France? Haha, which reminded me of JUAN!!! My crush from freshman year. I wonder how he's doing in the fine city of Barcelona..) and I melted and went ga-ga. And so did every other of the 1489548 girls in my Spanish class. There are only 4 boys in our AP Spanish class. It's so funny/sad.
The only class I remotely dislike is my Chinese class. I decided to switch my Photography II to Chinese II honor. Boo. I just feel so.. old, but at the same time that people think I'm young... I don't know, I think I might prefer Photography, but I don't know if I'll have enough time.
But I love my SWS classes. I'm taking 3 this year. I'm up there for the whole 2nd part of the day. And I actually like it like that. I'm so glad I didn't quit the first year. I feel like I belong there even though I'm still different from the "normal SWSer." I'm so excited for Creative Non-Fiction with Abby and Education seminar with Keira. I realized that Creative Non-Fiction is the perfect English class for 1st semester this year because it's basically like practicing writing your college essay over and over again.
Our first assignment was to write about writing. And I realize that sometimes the writing I like the most shows up on LJ. Which is why sometimes I want to just print my whole LJ out so I can actually have a hard copy of it. Because I'm just scared that LJ will suddenly bomb and everything will disappear. But for my english class, we're reading "Bird By Bird" by Anne Lamott and it's so interesting. She's writing about writing and life, and it's so readable and enjoyable.
A couple quotes I liked:
"One of the gifts of being a writer is that it gives you an excuse to do things, to go places and explore. Another is that writing motivates you to look closely at life, at life as it lurches by and tramps around." And I realized that I really am obsessed with life, with its crooks and creases and the way it always surrounds us.
"You might as well fall flat on your face as lean over too backwards."
Okay, so basically it was just weird that yesterday, I was actually excited about school. I am actually excited about AP Government & Politics because I think it's so interesting to learn about our democratic political system (even though I didn't particularly enjoy writing those two papers which I'm sure I did so terribly on) and I am so excited about Ed Seminar (our first assignment, just as a "get to know you" activity) is to choose a song you love and bring in a CD for our Ed Seminar Mix (I'm contemplating Backstreet Boys' "As Long As You Love Me" or Switchfoot's "On Fire" -- therefore deciding whether to be actually be serious or not haha, even though I really do like both songs, As Long As You Love Me was my first favorite pop song haha) and I am very excited about Creative Non-Fiction just because.. I love when I get to write about myself and my past, just like last year's Childhood & Memory...
I just felt really blessed to go to Brookline High and I was realizing that people don't realize how lucky they are. I cannot believe that during our assembly people booed when our principal, Dr. Bob, was mentioned. That was so disrespectful. We get to eat in the halls, we have great teachers, we don't have class ranking because it would create so much more competition than there already is, we have so many languages to choose from to take, we have so many electives... it's so much like college, I feel. Except I know it's not at all like college, too.
At the same time though, I was faced with the thought about why I can just go to Camp or a Conference like in Kentucky or Seattle or anywhere else and be able to say hi and become friends with someone I don't know, but I can't do that in my own school. I wanted to just go up to people and say hi, but I limited myself because... I just wasn't supposed to do that. I guess that's the worst thing about my school. I think there are so many cliques. While I'm sure it's not a huge distinctive feature, b/c I know other schools are like that too... it was just weird.
Haha, but last night with Ava was so fun. We were so typical and I was just reminded all over again about how much I love her and love being with her. We are so opposite, and yet we are so the same. She is so many things I'm not, and I am so many things she's not (yet sometimes I can't think of them as I'm sure she can't always think of the things she has and I don't). We stayed in her house, looked at the yearbook and scoped people (boys) out, watched Degrassi and Girls v Boys in Puerto Rico (we both think Demien is so hot), ordered Chinese take out... it was so nice. I hadn't hung out with her for 3 months. It was crazy.
One more thing: another thing I realized at the assembly was that it was going to be the last time we were going to be all together for our first day of school. There are so many people that represent Brookline High to me, even if I don't necessarily talk to them. But after June 2006, I am not going to see or communicate with 95% of my grade. Which is really sad, but true. So I was just looking around the whole auditorium yesterday and looking at everyone's faces and realizing that I wasn't going to see those people anymore. It was sort of bittersweet... but sort of absolutely not. haha. I can't wait till college, but at least now it's not like I hate my school and want to get out. I'm appreciating both the beauty and ugliness or it haha.