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So I guess my whole not hooking up with boys thing didn't work. At all. Not to mention the fact that every time I drink basically...I hook up with someone. It's kind of bad really when you think about it, i've some how turned into one of those drunk whores. Last night was bad especially, its just I felt so guilty, I've never felt that guilty. Hooking up with James, was such a betrayal to Erin, I mean sure she didn't really care, but just the fact that I did that to her makes me feel like such a horrible best friend. Really though, I feel horrible. So what I'm going to try to do, is not drink, as much, or get better judgement, or well I'm not so sure how this will work out, but this summer i'm not going to hook up with all the guys from home. its all been there done that kinda thing, and really im not interested in any of them. the hook ups when drunk are getting so old its ridiculous. and theres certain ones from home i'd rather not involve myself in again cause I know they're trouble. Some of them are like dead weight, just pulling you under with them, and I don't need that shit. I just want to meet someone new, someone fun and, I dont know. someone that'll make me happy. sounds corny right? its just a simple wish. one wish.
i havent kissed a boy sober since last summer. pathetic isn't it. i want that again, I want a boy, one who actually likes me. Too much to ask for.
wishful thinking.
i havent kissed a boy sober since last summer. pathetic isn't it. i want that again, I want a boy, one who actually likes me. Too much to ask for.
wishful thinking.