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its funny how the things that have bothered me for weeks can be cleared up in one week end.
my dad and i drove down to toms river together so i could get a prom dress.
which i did.
and its classy and fabulous.
and we tlaked about so much,
like whats been bothering me,
and how ive just gnerelly been bothered,
but dotn know why.
and it was just really good.
i know it'll go back to the way things were in a few weeks,
but its good now so thats all that matters.
the fine wetaher lifted me up so much,
i swear spring is my season.
i feel like i cna do anything,
and i wnat to do everything
and i want to see everyone
...which is really good, but a little bad lol
i also realized that all the crappy things
that have been coming out of my mouth lately...
will stop.
i realized that i had to get rid of my
"i dotn take shit from anyoen attitude"
because unfortunalety, the attitudes of many
and the words of well...2 girls
hurt me so much, to the point where i hardened myself
i thought, i wotn let anyone get soemthing that nasty past me again
and i hope they read this and feel bad.
but i realized, soemthign so cliche
(and all thsoe cliche phrases are really true,
and really work. you just have to be in the right mindset)
i realized that life is too short to be pissed off all the time.
if soemone says something completely nasty, for no reason
then they will either feel bad later,
and thats thier own punishment
or karmas gonna come back and kick them in the ass
and its not my job to be...well, a bitch
i used to be so easy going, and just let things go
and im going back to it.
i got so caught up in drama this year,
im honestly a little embarassed that i let
such low class people drag me down
i took today from school.
i only slept a little this weekend because i got woekn up
or i was drunk lol...
and then last night i slept 11 hours ha.
soo nice.
lastly, i realized that im still mourning jessie
well really, my dad made me realize.
im just not over it. at all
and i hate crying in school, so much
and i dotn wnat to do it anymore,
schools almost over.
and i scream at people who do drugs,
and just get myself upset
and its not worth it.
i cnat even think about it without getting really emotional.
oh, and soemone was on her screen name this week end.
i dotn get it.
sigh...
its rainy outside today,
but im kind of glad im not missing a gorgeous day
ps- i also realized im not nearly as good freind asi think i am lol
....lastly....
if your really upset, i mean really havign trouble with soemthing
listen to tisbury lane, by mae
on their b sides album, destination b-sides
i cna listen to it on repeat for hours
my dad and i drove down to toms river together so i could get a prom dress.
which i did.
and its classy and fabulous.
and we tlaked about so much,
like whats been bothering me,
and how ive just gnerelly been bothered,
but dotn know why.
and it was just really good.
i know it'll go back to the way things were in a few weeks,
but its good now so thats all that matters.
the fine wetaher lifted me up so much,
i swear spring is my season.
i feel like i cna do anything,
and i wnat to do everything
and i want to see everyone
...which is really good, but a little bad lol
i also realized that all the crappy things
that have been coming out of my mouth lately...
will stop.
i realized that i had to get rid of my
"i dotn take shit from anyoen attitude"
because unfortunalety, the attitudes of many
and the words of well...2 girls
hurt me so much, to the point where i hardened myself
i thought, i wotn let anyone get soemthing that nasty past me again
and i hope they read this and feel bad.
but i realized, soemthign so cliche
(and all thsoe cliche phrases are really true,
and really work. you just have to be in the right mindset)
i realized that life is too short to be pissed off all the time.
if soemone says something completely nasty, for no reason
then they will either feel bad later,
and thats thier own punishment
or karmas gonna come back and kick them in the ass
and its not my job to be...well, a bitch
i used to be so easy going, and just let things go
and im going back to it.
i got so caught up in drama this year,
im honestly a little embarassed that i let
such low class people drag me down
i took today from school.
i only slept a little this weekend because i got woekn up
or i was drunk lol...
and then last night i slept 11 hours ha.
soo nice.
lastly, i realized that im still mourning jessie
well really, my dad made me realize.
im just not over it. at all
and i hate crying in school, so much
and i dotn wnat to do it anymore,
schools almost over.
and i scream at people who do drugs,
and just get myself upset
and its not worth it.
i cnat even think about it without getting really emotional.
oh, and soemone was on her screen name this week end.
i dotn get it.
sigh...
its rainy outside today,
but im kind of glad im not missing a gorgeous day
ps- i also realized im not nearly as good freind asi think i am lol
....lastly....
if your really upset, i mean really havign trouble with soemthing
listen to tisbury lane, by mae
on their b sides album, destination b-sides
i cna listen to it on repeat for hours