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well im starting to get ahead on thsoe loose ends,
although there are things/people preventing em from really doign what i want to.
prom can still suck it. i need a dress. i found a pretty one, but thats just it-its pretty. i
wnat to look mature. i dont care how gay i sound. lol
ive been crying over everythingggg lately. my hormones? emotions? idk! are just completely going nuts.
ive had a kind of rough year. since august really. i know things could be worse, but they couldve been better too.
although thats not a good attitude and i know it.
good people like steve loori are the only thing that keep me sane.
i have literally NO control over what comes out of my mouth anymore, its slightly out of hand
theres soemone that i dotn particularly like, and my freinds dotn either.
and they were acting like their usual self, and said soemthign nasty for no reason,
and i just snapped back with something completely obnoxious.
and soemone really nice heard me say it. and im embarassed.
i mena the person totally deserved it, but i still feel liek an ass.
it reminds me of the movie you've got mail.
meg ryans character cna never think of anything nasty to say when people provoke her.
and tom hanks character always says the first thing that comes to his head, and then regrets it.
then one day, she says exactly what she wants to say, when she wanted to say it, and felt completely awful about it.
i can say i relate.
no matter how much i get provoked, i shouldnt (cliche phrase) "sink to their level".
"Do you ever feel you become the worst version of yourself?
That a Pandora's Box of all the secret hateful parts -- your arrogance, your spite, your condescension -- has sprung open.
Someone provokes you, and instead of just smiling and moving on, you zing them.
Hello, it's Mr. Nasty. "
im doing decent in school, although this quarter is gonna be realllyyy rough.
and this term paper in history will be the death of me.
oh and my dad went away for the week end leaving me with an empty fridge and a sink full of dishes
and he didnt call me once
and ive been amd at him for like a month and he hasnt noticed, and when i mentioned it he said he did
but basically didnt care
sweet. lol
college? are you there yet?
oh and speaking of....im going to accepted students day in april. im excited!!!!
much to be excited about. prom. seaside. graduation. south carolina. summer. COLLEGE! eff yeah!
and its nice to have someone to share it with<3
oh yeah and ive bene thinking lately.....EVERYhting about me has changed so much over each year.
i feel like ive been 4 different people.
and the me now, might hate the me from last year, although its still buried in there soemwhere
i swear i had no shame haha.
meh still dont.
k im done.
although there are things/people preventing em from really doign what i want to.
prom can still suck it. i need a dress. i found a pretty one, but thats just it-its pretty. i
wnat to look mature. i dont care how gay i sound. lol
ive been crying over everythingggg lately. my hormones? emotions? idk! are just completely going nuts.
ive had a kind of rough year. since august really. i know things could be worse, but they couldve been better too.
although thats not a good attitude and i know it.
good people like steve loori are the only thing that keep me sane.
i have literally NO control over what comes out of my mouth anymore, its slightly out of hand
theres soemone that i dotn particularly like, and my freinds dotn either.
and they were acting like their usual self, and said soemthign nasty for no reason,
and i just snapped back with something completely obnoxious.
and soemone really nice heard me say it. and im embarassed.
i mena the person totally deserved it, but i still feel liek an ass.
it reminds me of the movie you've got mail.
meg ryans character cna never think of anything nasty to say when people provoke her.
and tom hanks character always says the first thing that comes to his head, and then regrets it.
then one day, she says exactly what she wants to say, when she wanted to say it, and felt completely awful about it.
i can say i relate.
no matter how much i get provoked, i shouldnt (cliche phrase) "sink to their level".
"Do you ever feel you become the worst version of yourself?
That a Pandora's Box of all the secret hateful parts -- your arrogance, your spite, your condescension -- has sprung open.
Someone provokes you, and instead of just smiling and moving on, you zing them.
Hello, it's Mr. Nasty. "
im doing decent in school, although this quarter is gonna be realllyyy rough.
and this term paper in history will be the death of me.
oh and my dad went away for the week end leaving me with an empty fridge and a sink full of dishes
and he didnt call me once
and ive been amd at him for like a month and he hasnt noticed, and when i mentioned it he said he did
but basically didnt care
sweet. lol
college? are you there yet?
oh and speaking of....im going to accepted students day in april. im excited!!!!
much to be excited about. prom. seaside. graduation. south carolina. summer. COLLEGE! eff yeah!
and its nice to have someone to share it with<3
oh yeah and ive bene thinking lately.....EVERYhting about me has changed so much over each year.
i feel like ive been 4 different people.
and the me now, might hate the me from last year, although its still buried in there soemwhere
i swear i had no shame haha.
meh still dont.
k im done.