no matter what anyone says, i'll always love him..

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all i wanted to do was talk to him. tell him how i was feeling. all this shit bottled up inside me was gunna come out one way or another. i needed to talk to him. well, i finally got my chance, and no matter what anyone says, JASON'S NOT AN ASSHOLE, HE NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG. IT WAS MY FAULT HE BROKE UP WITH ME. AND I UNDERSTAND THAT. JASON IS A SWEETHEART, NO MATTER WHAT, EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES...but anyways, i walked to his car and he drove me around the mall parking lot so we could talk. i found out that just because someone breaks up with you, doesn't mean they don't love you anymore. and then...we got into a car accident. we didn't get hurt at all. not even a scratch. THANK GOD. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD HAVE DONE IF JASON GOT HURT. I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO GLAD HE DIDN'T. but this lady was acting like she was hurt when nothing happened to her..and thank God that we had a witness saying it wasn't our fault, the lady didn't stop at the stop sign. but anyways, Jason's mom drove me home and on the way, i thought Jason was gunna sit upfront, but he sat in the back with me. which made me sooooooo happy. but i didn't wanna say anything because he just fucked up his favorite thing in the world. he messed up his car. and that sucks. so i didn't wanna say anything. and then he grabbed my hand. omg i thought i was gunna cry. that made me sooooooooo happy. and then he was cuddling with me...and then we got to my house him and his mom walked me to the door, and his mom wanted to see if i was alright and then she let Jason and me say goodbye, and then he gave me a big hug, i mean, i was satisfied with him holding my hand in the car, but i just had to ask for a kiss, it felt like the right thing to do. and i know that he's moved on, he has other girls, i mean we have our whole lives to see each other, i figuered, oh hell, you know. so that was my goodbye kiss. for now...but omg i was soooooo happy, i was crying when i got home. i love him soooo much, and even though that was a goodbye kiss, it was still a kiss from him, that made my life sooooo much easier. i'm soo glad me and him are still friends, i don't know what i'd do without him. he's such a sweetheart. but anyways, yeah that was my twisted night, i mean, i wanted to hug and kiss him again, one day, but i didn't know getting into a car accident would be the way to do it. God is awesome, he blessed me with that. and i'm forever thanking him for that one time i got to hug and kiss Jason again..

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