Frustration and Panic!
I got info back from the state Dept. of Commerce yesterday. Apparently they DO NOT work in getting employer short and long term disability insurance companies to do what they are supposed to do. I am trying to think that the guy who I talked to on the phone, and told me to send my stuff in to them, just misunderstood what I was asking for. The defeatist in me is crying out for someone to finally listen to me!!!
Anyway, they were nice enough to send me back the packet of records that I had mailed them, in case I needed them in whatever avenue I decided to pursue. I immediately called the state disability law center, who had referred me to the dept. of commerce, who claimed they would never have referred anyone to that dept. They also stated they only work with SSDI, and could not help me at all. They referred me to the volunteer lawyers network. I called, and they were closed, as they are only open 1/2 days (understandable).
Called the network this morning, and they do not handle this sort of thing, immediately referring me back to the people who had referred me to them (are you confused yet?). When I told them they had told me to call them and they didn't do anything but SSDI, I was referred to the legal clinic that will be at the government center on Monday from noon to 2pm. The people in the clinic do not represent you in cort, but can give you info on how to represent yourself. All of this is occurring because I don't have any money for a lawyer, since I haven't been getting the disability payouts that I paid 9 years into!
It looks like I am at the ed of my rope and will not get what I rightly deserve. I have been flooded with panic about this. It really feels much like it did when I was young and we didn't have enough to live on. Then it was my father's fault for drinking the money and feeding his buddies steak while us kids and my mom ate beans from 3 days ago. Only this time, it is my fault for the low income, since I am the one not working. Granted, the food situation is better. I am able to eat mostly healthy, but the feelings are the same. So is the panic feeling.
I hate that tears come so easily. I have always been the stoic one. The fixer of trouble. I can't fix this one! I feel hopeless and lost.
Anyway, they were nice enough to send me back the packet of records that I had mailed them, in case I needed them in whatever avenue I decided to pursue. I immediately called the state disability law center, who had referred me to the dept. of commerce, who claimed they would never have referred anyone to that dept. They also stated they only work with SSDI, and could not help me at all. They referred me to the volunteer lawyers network. I called, and they were closed, as they are only open 1/2 days (understandable).
Called the network this morning, and they do not handle this sort of thing, immediately referring me back to the people who had referred me to them (are you confused yet?). When I told them they had told me to call them and they didn't do anything but SSDI, I was referred to the legal clinic that will be at the government center on Monday from noon to 2pm. The people in the clinic do not represent you in cort, but can give you info on how to represent yourself. All of this is occurring because I don't have any money for a lawyer, since I haven't been getting the disability payouts that I paid 9 years into!
It looks like I am at the ed of my rope and will not get what I rightly deserve. I have been flooded with panic about this. It really feels much like it did when I was young and we didn't have enough to live on. Then it was my father's fault for drinking the money and feeding his buddies steak while us kids and my mom ate beans from 3 days ago. Only this time, it is my fault for the low income, since I am the one not working. Granted, the food situation is better. I am able to eat mostly healthy, but the feelings are the same. So is the panic feeling.
I hate that tears come so easily. I have always been the stoic one. The fixer of trouble. I can't fix this one! I feel hopeless and lost.