Tell me how having this could ever be a positive
On Friday night we went to Deans parents for a visit. We stayed there for a while and then on the way home we had to stop off at the supermarket so Dean could get some smokes. On the way there I started to feel funny and new imediately that I was starting to have one of 'those' feelings. Dean went into get his smokes and I waited in the car with the kids. The feeling was coming over me so strong that it actaully felt like I was in imediate danger. It was that bad that I locked all the doors and kept an eye out for all the people in the carpark. By the time Dean got back it was so bad that I was holding back tears. All I could think of was that something very bad was going to happen and Deans dad kept flashing in my head. I told Dean what was happening and he asked me who I was thinking of. For some reason when I have feeling like this I can never pin point who the right person is but something bad always happens. When I said his dad he said he would ring him when we got home to make sure he was ok. By the time we got home things started to die down a little bit and I felt alittle better. Dean rang his parents and his dad was ok. That night and the following day everytime the phone I felt alittle stressed about answering it but luckily everything what ok. Yesterday arvo though we got a phone call from Jason Deans cousin and our best friend. We missed it at first and so I listened to the message. On it he said that he had some bad news and could we call him back asap. I knew straight away that something horrible had happened and so I called him. He said to me all stressed out that one of Deans 2nd cousins who he had grown up with was found dead in his bed that morning, he was only 21. I didn't know what to say, I've been with Dean for ten years now and so I know everyone in his family. We haven't seen Evan for years but Dean and him grew up together when he was younger as his parents and Deans used to hang out alot. The saddest part is that his mum lost her husband a few years back and now she has lost her youngest son. It just doesn't seem right when someone so young dies. No one is sure yet how he died but he was over weight and so we think it might have to do with his heart because that is how his dad died. When Dean got off the phone he rang his mum to see whether they knew and she had just found out. She was told however that he went to bed Friday night and was found dead the next morning when he didn't show up for something. When Dean told me that it freaked me out alittle because as I said I'd had that feeling the friday night.
He said to me later 'I guess your feeling came true' and I went
'Yeah but it's nothing to be proud of.'
I think for him it freaks him out more because it puts it back in his face about his Nan dying a few months back. That really knocked him about as it would and having someone else pass kind of puts it back into the light again. I said to Dean that I was really worried for him Mum because she still cries alot about her Mum passing. He said to me he was more concerned about his Dad because Evan was Roberts son. Robert and Ron were close and were also extremely close when growing up. When he died of blocked arteries (which is what deans dad had) he was shattered. Now Roberts son has died possibly of the same thing and Deans dad is a mess. I think this is why I couldn't stop thinking of Deans dad when I had that feeling. Deans dad Ron is very overweight, he has heart problems amoung other things. We all hoped that when Robert died Ron would do something about his weight, he didn't.
Then Deans grandmother passed away earlier this year and told Ron before she passed to take of himself. We all thought that her saying that would make him wake up but he has since put more weight on. We are just hoping that maybe this time Evan dying will finally shine a light on what needs to be done. Ron is like my Dad and I would never want anything to happen to him. Not only that but to Deakyn this grandad is is world and if anything happened he would be devestated.
We are not sure when the funeral will be but there is supposed to be something in the paper today.
If I'm really having these feelings to warn me about something what really is the point of them. It's not like anything can be done about it. I dreamt about a funeral and woke up knowing that Deans nan would die. That morning we received a call saying that she had taken a turn for the worse and she died three days later. I have this feeling friday night and Evan never wakes up the following morning. What is the point of all of this. And tell me how can it be fair that someone that was such a sweet person die at the tender age of only 21.
He said to me later 'I guess your feeling came true' and I went
'Yeah but it's nothing to be proud of.'
I think for him it freaks him out more because it puts it back in his face about his Nan dying a few months back. That really knocked him about as it would and having someone else pass kind of puts it back into the light again. I said to Dean that I was really worried for him Mum because she still cries alot about her Mum passing. He said to me he was more concerned about his Dad because Evan was Roberts son. Robert and Ron were close and were also extremely close when growing up. When he died of blocked arteries (which is what deans dad had) he was shattered. Now Roberts son has died possibly of the same thing and Deans dad is a mess. I think this is why I couldn't stop thinking of Deans dad when I had that feeling. Deans dad Ron is very overweight, he has heart problems amoung other things. We all hoped that when Robert died Ron would do something about his weight, he didn't.
Then Deans grandmother passed away earlier this year and told Ron before she passed to take of himself. We all thought that her saying that would make him wake up but he has since put more weight on. We are just hoping that maybe this time Evan dying will finally shine a light on what needs to be done. Ron is like my Dad and I would never want anything to happen to him. Not only that but to Deakyn this grandad is is world and if anything happened he would be devestated.
We are not sure when the funeral will be but there is supposed to be something in the paper today.
If I'm really having these feelings to warn me about something what really is the point of them. It's not like anything can be done about it. I dreamt about a funeral and woke up knowing that Deans nan would die. That morning we received a call saying that she had taken a turn for the worse and she died three days later. I have this feeling friday night and Evan never wakes up the following morning. What is the point of all of this. And tell me how can it be fair that someone that was such a sweet person die at the tender age of only 21.