midsemester blues. typical.
i hate doing homework.
i am soo over this whole college thing. can i just go home now? or move on with my life? i'm sick of homework and friends who all have different schedules so it's a struggle just to see them all and being so independent all the freaking time. i would trade in all of this for just one person to do everything with, even if he or she drove me crazy at times. one person who really felt like home. gah.
i'm just in a bad mood. the next few weeks are going to suck. and i kind of wish i werent doing hair and makeup for the play. i went tonight, and its really good, but i just dont know if everything's going to turn out how i want it to and i dont have the time to fix it, and i just dont care. i hate doing things but not being able to really do them. i miss singing, kind of. in reality i miss my voice. it's still not back to normal. it doesnt help that every time it starts to feel better i do something stupid. i just miss it.
i dont feel as depressed as i have in previous semesters, more just annoyed... with the world. i want to be able to relax and watch some tv sometimes. and not do homework or laundry or mask making or headdress making every moment of my waking life. and since i didnt do these things this weekend, i now have so goddamn much to do right now and all i want to do is go to sleep.
i know i'm being overdramatic, but i dont care right now. im really happy i wont be here next semester. even though i htink at times it's going to be really hard, i think the fact that my grades won't count toward my gpa is goign to help.
i just dont understand why teachers feel the need to give us SO much work all the time. or why i felt the need to take 5 engineering courses and dean's book. why am i an engineer again? anyone?
i am soo over this whole college thing. can i just go home now? or move on with my life? i'm sick of homework and friends who all have different schedules so it's a struggle just to see them all and being so independent all the freaking time. i would trade in all of this for just one person to do everything with, even if he or she drove me crazy at times. one person who really felt like home. gah.
i'm just in a bad mood. the next few weeks are going to suck. and i kind of wish i werent doing hair and makeup for the play. i went tonight, and its really good, but i just dont know if everything's going to turn out how i want it to and i dont have the time to fix it, and i just dont care. i hate doing things but not being able to really do them. i miss singing, kind of. in reality i miss my voice. it's still not back to normal. it doesnt help that every time it starts to feel better i do something stupid. i just miss it.
i dont feel as depressed as i have in previous semesters, more just annoyed... with the world. i want to be able to relax and watch some tv sometimes. and not do homework or laundry or mask making or headdress making every moment of my waking life. and since i didnt do these things this weekend, i now have so goddamn much to do right now and all i want to do is go to sleep.
i know i'm being overdramatic, but i dont care right now. im really happy i wont be here next semester. even though i htink at times it's going to be really hard, i think the fact that my grades won't count toward my gpa is goign to help.
i just dont understand why teachers feel the need to give us SO much work all the time. or why i felt the need to take 5 engineering courses and dean's book. why am i an engineer again? anyone?