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i have worked the past six days, and have nothing to show for it. i have another six days of work ahead of me before i get a day off. i am tired, and stressed, which translates into me being lethal towards any perfectly well-meaning person around me. i dream about work, waking up quite often and distressed during the night, which means that i wake up stressed in the morning. im still not sure what to do with tons of free time before work, and very little afterwards, especially since im still full of energy afterwards.
most of all, i hate that im doing everything by the book, that im an example to all the other trainees, who all ask me for help, and i have absolutely nothing to show for it.
and bills coming in like crazy.
and immigration wants me to send in more documents that i dont know how to get. the best part about the letter they sent me was the last paragraph saying that because this is a confidential matter, they wont answer any of my questions on the phone.
im not used to money problems. not that i really have problems... i still have enough to live on for sure. im just not used to having a safety net. thats weird.
why do i feel the need to write the most when im down?
and am i the only one excited about cold war part 2?
i have worked the past six days, and have nothing to show for it. i have another six days of work ahead of me before i get a day off. i am tired, and stressed, which translates into me being lethal towards any perfectly well-meaning person around me. i dream about work, waking up quite often and distressed during the night, which means that i wake up stressed in the morning. im still not sure what to do with tons of free time before work, and very little afterwards, especially since im still full of energy afterwards.
most of all, i hate that im doing everything by the book, that im an example to all the other trainees, who all ask me for help, and i have absolutely nothing to show for it.
and bills coming in like crazy.
and immigration wants me to send in more documents that i dont know how to get. the best part about the letter they sent me was the last paragraph saying that because this is a confidential matter, they wont answer any of my questions on the phone.
im not used to money problems. not that i really have problems... i still have enough to live on for sure. im just not used to having a safety net. thats weird.
why do i feel the need to write the most when im down?
and am i the only one excited about cold war part 2?