I hate Mondays
Mondays are seriously the worst day of the week. First, I wake up late, I mean REALLY late. I woke up like 5minutes before I had to leave my house, so I had to bring my toothbrush and my straightener to school! GEEZ! Then, I forgot to do some homework, so I had to do that really fast in first hour for second hour. I get to third hour and Joy just isnt herself today. Well, atleast, not towards me. Maybe it's because I was talking to Mary this morning and they don't get along. But, I highly doubt that. Then, everyone i playin around ans Tony stabs my in the eye with a flippin' music book! Gosh, I wanted to cry, but then again, I realized that it didn't hurt bad enough to make a big deal about it. Now, I'm in 4th hour. I really don't consider this a class because I'm voluneering for my drama teacher. Whatever, man, community service hours... Oh then I forgot, 3rd hour ends, and I go out in the band hallway. Chris tells me and Ashlie that he talked to Jordan! Just what I DIDN'T want to hear. Jordan told Chris that he has no idea what he is talking about. Why do guys do this to me? Am I really that flippin' ugly?! This is the kind of stuff that makes me want to kill myself. Why can't a guy ever like me for me? UGGG!
I think that I want to color my hair BLACK! I've been doing this same dark auburn color or a really log time now and I think that it's time for a change. I just asked Faisal if I could color it and she said that I wouldn't like it because it would be too dark. Um, hello, my natural hair color is DARK BROWN! I kow that black is black and black is as dark as it gets but, hey, ya never know. I just MIGHT like it.
Nick isn't here today! I am going to kill him. I hate it when he pulls this shyt.
So, I wopnder all the time if I die... will people miss me? Sometimes I really think that they will, but other times, I pull that razor out and CRY, CRY,CRY! All alone in my closet in my room, where it's sound proof. I get to the point where I want to cut myself but I just can't make myself do it. All the movies what I've watched, people committing suicide. I just don't think that I can do it! Maybe one day, I'll break down and call everyone that I lov and tell them that I love them. And all I will say is hey... I just wanted to call you and tell you that I love you. Then, I'll hang up! They will never hear from me again. Maybe in their dreams, or I'll come back as their guardian angel. You never know......
I think that I want to color my hair BLACK! I've been doing this same dark auburn color or a really log time now and I think that it's time for a change. I just asked Faisal if I could color it and she said that I wouldn't like it because it would be too dark. Um, hello, my natural hair color is DARK BROWN! I kow that black is black and black is as dark as it gets but, hey, ya never know. I just MIGHT like it.
Nick isn't here today! I am going to kill him. I hate it when he pulls this shyt.
So, I wopnder all the time if I die... will people miss me? Sometimes I really think that they will, but other times, I pull that razor out and CRY, CRY,CRY! All alone in my closet in my room, where it's sound proof. I get to the point where I want to cut myself but I just can't make myself do it. All the movies what I've watched, people committing suicide. I just don't think that I can do it! Maybe one day, I'll break down and call everyone that I lov and tell them that I love them. And all I will say is hey... I just wanted to call you and tell you that I love you. Then, I'll hang up! They will never hear from me again. Maybe in their dreams, or I'll come back as their guardian angel. You never know......