I am alone and lonely.
So, I just had a weekend to myself. No friends, no family, no one. Just an empty house.
Though I did go out and enjoy some riding on my motorcycle, I hardly had any human interaction. I keep justifying to myself that until I am back to some financial stability, meaning I am no longer behind on my bills, I would open up a bit, and go out and do more.
Yet, I still feel alone and lonely. Like what am I supposed to do?
I've stopped praying to God, cause I know beyond all doubts that he has abandoned me.
I am not important enough to those that call me friend, to want to invite me into their lives.
My only companion in life is my imagination and sexual desires in the form of a silicone sex doll, who lays in bed with me now, as I type this entry.
I am truly alone and lonely in this world.