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damn its been soooo long. I figured Id at least post about the very first concert I finally went to! It was awesome, thanks to camille. We went to twisted x-mas over a week ago. It was alot of fun, my chemical romance and papa roach were really good, next time I want to go to a single show, like one thats only for one band, cause it felt like the energy was really displaced and I want to rock with people who are all in it for the same band, I can imagine itd be alot more fun. Still tho, it was a blast. I havent been up to much since I got fired. Trying to spend some time expanding (or actually creating lol) a romantic life. Its so sad how everywhere I look its all about sex and one night stands. I mean I thought straight guys were players. No wonder the gay community has such a promiscuous rep. All they want is a fast f***. I'm so far from being into that its not even funny. Its just discouraging because it seems like all the avaliable safe places to look for potential guys are only concerned with sex. Its pretty pathetic. I look at what these guys say and wonder how they could possibly enjoy themselves. I dont know, but i know, intimacy is the best part of an encounter, and a relationship is the foundation for intimacy. Well it doesnt matter to much, I'll just continue to bide my time. I was on craigslist today and looking for jobs/ places to live. Damn I need a job so bad, because I could totally afford to move into a house in Natomas with somebody/ies. There were some really good listings, like a single mom who wants a room out. It was funny because its the same model as my house, but i liked it better ha. And a couple who wants a gay guy lmao. I dont know why they assume were so trustworthy, its not like we dont have the homicidal murderer gene. But for only like 500 a month, I would totally be in for that. I really think I just need to get out of here and get used to freedom and responsibilities. I know I could do it, but im in a situaution right now where I dont have to account for myself. I think the fact that I have to answer to somebody is why I feel like I dont care. And by answer I mean constantly listen to! Me and veronica and eric spent some time at tracys on fri. It was so much fun. It was just me and traci at first, so we played with her WII. AHHH it was too much fun, its been forever since ive played video games and I wasnt like totally bomb, but im pretty good at the tennis game. We just drank and played taboo, we tried putting a rule on it where we had to get each other to guess the word using dirty hints, but you just cant get that raunchy with "mother theresa" Its been a lazy weekend and i like it, i wish it wasnt christmas, this is the first one where i can honestly say im farther from the spirit than ive ever been. Hey maybe Ill have one of those tvish christmas miracle experiences. Psyc