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its been awhile, but i feel like writing. i met this girl megan at barnes and noble back in april and we became friends pretty fast. all she did was talk about how shitty her bf was and when i finally met him, i thought he was a nice guy, for the first few hours, then he started to act like a dick. turns out he doesnt think im gay and that im messing around with his gf. which of course is my master plan, tell people im gay, bone their gf, then meet them, get a job with them, and say ill move in with them. im an genius. so megan had said she wanted to move out, preferrably with me after we had seen we were pretty similiar and we would be good roomates. then after megans bf had a freak out, they decided that they would move out from where they are, take some time to be apart, and see how their relationship did. i thought this was a great idea, megan said that we should move in together and so it was a plan. time has passed and megan added a few stipulations :oh, now my bf is moving with us, oh, now you have to move out in about a year, and oh, now we want to stay in this house in ghetto ass oak park. i actually went with all this because i had made a deal to move in with her, and she never had insinuated that she didnt want me to move in with her. this past week megans bf found out that we had stayed the night at a friends house and shared a futon. OMG! you know, i can barely move when ive been drinking and i fall on a futon, its pretty much game over, so how would i manage to make out with some fucking girl? so he believes that we did something and that im not really gay. this bullshit is getting tiring. when i was in the closet i used to have to prove i was straight, now i have to prove im gay? if this asshole could get a little perspective, he could see that i have my own situation and life i have to deal with without him and his damn suspicions.all i ever did was try to be sensitive to that fact that even tho megan was my friend, she was also his gf, and i always respected that and tried to give them their personal time and anything else they thought they deserved. and what, i get called a pussy with no backbone? trust me, it takes alot of backbone not to say the things i want to say, although true, would be pretty devestating to them, and im just too nice. i know i shouldnt care what he thinks, but the truth is i wouldnt have a good time if he got upset. not because hes upset, but because my friend would be upset b/c her bf is upset and it would affect ME in a negative way. so now megan says that were not moving in together. yea its just that simple. they put so much focus on them and their shit that they dont even think about the fact that I NEED A PLACE. it would have been nice if megan had at least apologized, but she wouldnt even say it, she just danced around it until i brought it up. i guess id rather be a pussy than an inconsiderate self centered asshole