So tired
Bah.
I couldn't get to sleep at all last night. Was tossing and turning, with just random (well ok, not so random!) thoughts running through my head. I hate when that happens - I tend to stress out at night when I'm by myself and there's no one I can bounce thoughts off, or 'calm' me down, make me see logic.
Problem: Why am I jealous of something that I turned down in the first place? Is it because I finally realised that I do want it? Or just because I'm suffering from 'dog in the manger' syndrome and just didn't want others to have it? To be honest, I'm not sure how much I did actually like him, or if I wanted to be dating someone, but I do know that I don't like having the option taken away. Man, how selfish am I?
Gak.
Wish I could go back to bed :(
I couldn't get to sleep at all last night. Was tossing and turning, with just random (well ok, not so random!) thoughts running through my head. I hate when that happens - I tend to stress out at night when I'm by myself and there's no one I can bounce thoughts off, or 'calm' me down, make me see logic.
Problem: Why am I jealous of something that I turned down in the first place? Is it because I finally realised that I do want it? Or just because I'm suffering from 'dog in the manger' syndrome and just didn't want others to have it? To be honest, I'm not sure how much I did actually like him, or if I wanted to be dating someone, but I do know that I don't like having the option taken away. Man, how selfish am I?
Gak.
Wish I could go back to bed :(