Karma?
I don't really believe in Karma. However, if I did, I have apparently been extra good lately. Keep in mind the list below are things that I looked for/longed for, but not enough to spend tons of money on/have shipped. I did want them enough to spend a considerable time looking for them, however.
I wanted the Nu!Trek calender which was impossible to find. I ended up finding it for $4, at a store that was closing the next day.
I wanted the phaser - well, after friends got me the exclusive phaser/communicator set I wanted an non-exclusive one to play with - and found it on sale for $25, down from $29. Get to the register, only have to pay $10. (Yay for extra sales. Apparently, I was golden that day. If I were to believe in such things.)
I really wanted ST: The New Voyages because the mind sifter story (called Mind Sifter) is supposed to be amazing. Just found it at a used book store, extra cheap. Not to mention all the finds at NEMBF, and this little, almost run down used bookstore in Burlington. ST hardcovers up the wazoo, thank you very much.
On the other hand, I've been getting headaches again, possibly baby migraines/the start of them. I'm continuing to will them away.
I've also recently caught the really bad virus that went around - I think - but it was so quick/not bad I'm not even sure I did.
Oh, yeah, and the meds that I'm taking for the B-12? Don't have to poke myself with a needle anymore, ever, they're more effective at getting the B-12 into my body, and since it's once a week instead of once a month, I don't have that blah, depressed/extra exhausted feeling at the end of the week.
I dropped one weekly apt. since having three was just crushing me emotionally and timewise.
Um, I think that's it. I did really, really want Spock Enslaved, but was willing to pay for it to be shipped since it's pretty much impossible to find otherwise - and no, I would rather not go to a convention just for one book. Also, that one crushing, crushing weekend for me? It was a coincidence, one which Karma would be telling me I was bad because said coincidence existed. However, if I were to come to that conclusion - which I'm not - I was being a very sloppy with my emotions, and that was the one bad thing I've done lately. I have a tighter reign on them at the moment, so that's taken care of.
Um, oh, yeah, I finally got over my hoarding and am getting six+ boxes of books and magazines out of my room XD So, apparently the getting over my emotions and controlling them means I'm good again? (In Karma 'logic'. Which much like 'hillbilly logic' I don't believe exists. Partially because apparently, Karma 'logic' very often only applies to people you hate - when bad shit happens to them. If bad shit happens to you, you're being 'tested'. Um, consistency? Now, please?)
So, by other people's logic, either god or Karma love me. By my logic? I was persistent enough in my searches when I cared to make them that I eventually found what I was looking for. The reigning in my emotions and controlling pain? They're a matter of discipline. Spock Enslaved explains itself, the medication are a matter of the FDA, and medical science, discovering that hey, nasal sprays do work for B-12 and me once again being persistent and asking the doctor about them. The virus? I tend to insist on being up and on my feet and active even when I'm sick, so long as I'm not so sick I'm puking/unable to be on my feet. I think that might help, because I'm not lounging in one place, getting fresh air, and not just thinking about how sick I am. (For some reason, too, viruses don't tend to hit me as hard as they hit other people. So I'd say genetics has something to do with that. Plus, living with doctors? That helps because I get good advice on what to do.) The apt? Well, that was dropped because I spoke up for myself and because of persistence.
As for the hoarding? More persistence, hard work, and just this whole Vulcan philosophy is really helping me out, even in unexpected ways like this.
Oh, and that bad weekend? Just coincidence that pulled up a traumatic experience for me. But, I had also had years in which to deal with it, and, well, I think with all the growing up I've been doing lately, I handled it way better than I would have years ago.
Pretty much a general yay all around. Yay!
(PS, we had a zombie signing at work. John Connolly couldn't come, but the one female writer - Holly Newstein - was awesome, and was the first to note, unprompted, my ST science officer insignia bag. I think she wanted one, because she asked where I got it, and I got to tell her I made it myself. It was a really amazing feeling, especially since I broke down in tears beforehand - it was that one really bad weekend - and had almost not made it there despite spending the previous week trying to get off to go. And Stephen Bissette talking me into watching - ugh - Twilight was absolutely hilarious, but so glad I got to tell him I loved his LTROI article.)
I wanted the Nu!Trek calender which was impossible to find. I ended up finding it for $4, at a store that was closing the next day.
I wanted the phaser - well, after friends got me the exclusive phaser/communicator set I wanted an non-exclusive one to play with - and found it on sale for $25, down from $29. Get to the register, only have to pay $10. (Yay for extra sales. Apparently, I was golden that day. If I were to believe in such things.)
I really wanted ST: The New Voyages because the mind sifter story (called Mind Sifter) is supposed to be amazing. Just found it at a used book store, extra cheap. Not to mention all the finds at NEMBF, and this little, almost run down used bookstore in Burlington. ST hardcovers up the wazoo, thank you very much.
On the other hand, I've been getting headaches again, possibly baby migraines/the start of them. I'm continuing to will them away.
I've also recently caught the really bad virus that went around - I think - but it was so quick/not bad I'm not even sure I did.
Oh, yeah, and the meds that I'm taking for the B-12? Don't have to poke myself with a needle anymore, ever, they're more effective at getting the B-12 into my body, and since it's once a week instead of once a month, I don't have that blah, depressed/extra exhausted feeling at the end of the week.
I dropped one weekly apt. since having three was just crushing me emotionally and timewise.
Um, I think that's it. I did really, really want Spock Enslaved, but was willing to pay for it to be shipped since it's pretty much impossible to find otherwise - and no, I would rather not go to a convention just for one book. Also, that one crushing, crushing weekend for me? It was a coincidence, one which Karma would be telling me I was bad because said coincidence existed. However, if I were to come to that conclusion - which I'm not - I was being a very sloppy with my emotions, and that was the one bad thing I've done lately. I have a tighter reign on them at the moment, so that's taken care of.
Um, oh, yeah, I finally got over my hoarding and am getting six+ boxes of books and magazines out of my room XD So, apparently the getting over my emotions and controlling them means I'm good again? (In Karma 'logic'. Which much like 'hillbilly logic' I don't believe exists. Partially because apparently, Karma 'logic' very often only applies to people you hate - when bad shit happens to them. If bad shit happens to you, you're being 'tested'. Um, consistency? Now, please?)
So, by other people's logic, either god or Karma love me. By my logic? I was persistent enough in my searches when I cared to make them that I eventually found what I was looking for. The reigning in my emotions and controlling pain? They're a matter of discipline. Spock Enslaved explains itself, the medication are a matter of the FDA, and medical science, discovering that hey, nasal sprays do work for B-12 and me once again being persistent and asking the doctor about them. The virus? I tend to insist on being up and on my feet and active even when I'm sick, so long as I'm not so sick I'm puking/unable to be on my feet. I think that might help, because I'm not lounging in one place, getting fresh air, and not just thinking about how sick I am. (For some reason, too, viruses don't tend to hit me as hard as they hit other people. So I'd say genetics has something to do with that. Plus, living with doctors? That helps because I get good advice on what to do.) The apt? Well, that was dropped because I spoke up for myself and because of persistence.
As for the hoarding? More persistence, hard work, and just this whole Vulcan philosophy is really helping me out, even in unexpected ways like this.
Oh, and that bad weekend? Just coincidence that pulled up a traumatic experience for me. But, I had also had years in which to deal with it, and, well, I think with all the growing up I've been doing lately, I handled it way better than I would have years ago.
Pretty much a general yay all around. Yay!
(PS, we had a zombie signing at work. John Connolly couldn't come, but the one female writer - Holly Newstein - was awesome, and was the first to note, unprompted, my ST science officer insignia bag. I think she wanted one, because she asked where I got it, and I got to tell her I made it myself. It was a really amazing feeling, especially since I broke down in tears beforehand - it was that one really bad weekend - and had almost not made it there despite spending the previous week trying to get off to go. And Stephen Bissette talking me into watching - ugh - Twilight was absolutely hilarious, but so glad I got to tell him I loved his LTROI article.)