My poor neglected babies
Couldn't go to the stable this week because my ribs hurt like hell. I don't how I managed to kill them this bad but here I am trying not to breath too much (not that I'm able to anyway). I guess it was from a pretty bad fall I took few days ago. I located the worst spot right under my boob so you can guess how fun it is to wear a bra -gah! I'm pretty much useless with everything so I decided not to go there to just whimper in my uselesness.
But at least I've had a good chance to read books. That makes me always happy (and I love goodreads. Too bad almost none of my friends use it). It has also kept me away from this blog and away from computer in general. Not a bad thing necessarily :P
Albert and Ottilia have been having a truce which has been quite awesome. It seems that Albert will have a scar over his eye which makes him quite badass looking in a cute cliched way ^^; I love his fur - it's thick, shiny and bouncy and overall he's very healthy looking thing. Otta's fur is like that, too though still in a stage of changing away from baby fur. I'm more hesitant about her for some reason, propably because the only other rabbit I took as a kitlet was Tahra and he became smallest of the kit and Otta is pretty tiny, too. I wonder if it's something I'm doing wrong or just a coincidence. I've mentioned about this to O's breeder and told her how I'm taking care of her and asked to correct me if I'm doing something wrong and haven't heard anything like that back so I guess all is fine.
It's funny really as technically speaking I'm doing like I'm told to do and how I've read but can't get rid of the feeling that I'm doing something wrong. That there must be something that I'm doing wrong. Because I'm not perfect and feel like in order for them to be healthy I should be perfect. Even though in some part of my mind I realize that it's not like that but it's a really tiny part. I don't always clean their cages on time and that bothers me no matter if I was sick at the time or had something else that prevented me from doing it like not being home or something. And sometimes I just can't do it. My depression has been getting worse and it builds up my guilt as well as feeling helpless because I'm on my own on this. V doesn't help me with the rabbits apart from feeding them when I ask him to and that involves me phoning him separately every time I'm not home, it's not something he does automatically. I just feel like I'm very lousy rabbit owner even though I love them dearly. Yea, I know, most parents feel like this though mostly of their human offspring I suppose. But they are my babies, I could say :/
But at least I've had a good chance to read books. That makes me always happy (and I love goodreads. Too bad almost none of my friends use it). It has also kept me away from this blog and away from computer in general. Not a bad thing necessarily :P
Albert and Ottilia have been having a truce which has been quite awesome. It seems that Albert will have a scar over his eye which makes him quite badass looking in a cute cliched way ^^; I love his fur - it's thick, shiny and bouncy and overall he's very healthy looking thing. Otta's fur is like that, too though still in a stage of changing away from baby fur. I'm more hesitant about her for some reason, propably because the only other rabbit I took as a kitlet was Tahra and he became smallest of the kit and Otta is pretty tiny, too. I wonder if it's something I'm doing wrong or just a coincidence. I've mentioned about this to O's breeder and told her how I'm taking care of her and asked to correct me if I'm doing something wrong and haven't heard anything like that back so I guess all is fine.
It's funny really as technically speaking I'm doing like I'm told to do and how I've read but can't get rid of the feeling that I'm doing something wrong. That there must be something that I'm doing wrong. Because I'm not perfect and feel like in order for them to be healthy I should be perfect. Even though in some part of my mind I realize that it's not like that but it's a really tiny part. I don't always clean their cages on time and that bothers me no matter if I was sick at the time or had something else that prevented me from doing it like not being home or something. And sometimes I just can't do it. My depression has been getting worse and it builds up my guilt as well as feeling helpless because I'm on my own on this. V doesn't help me with the rabbits apart from feeding them when I ask him to and that involves me phoning him separately every time I'm not home, it's not something he does automatically. I just feel like I'm very lousy rabbit owner even though I love them dearly. Yea, I know, most parents feel like this though mostly of their human offspring I suppose. But they are my babies, I could say :/