I dont know what to do anymore.
Ok then, i have been stressed out all day, wonder if i am losing my sanity, if it is all in my mind. I messed up, i guess i am paying for it then, not sure, i dont feel like i deserve this though, and i am not ready for it in the long run. I just hope things change soon. I really do. Oh well, i am going to worry myself sick if i dont stop it. There is no possible way it could happen, unless i am just the unluckiest person in the world, oh what to do. I dont know what to do, i could always just disapear, that would be ok, then i wouldnt have to face my family or anything. Ugh, now i am sick again. i hope i dont feel sick forever now. Oh well once again sandra has screwed up, and this time it may be majorly. I guess i deserve it in reality, for being such a screw up. Later everyone. agh.