A Song of Youth, Growth, & Love
"Fairyland
Even now I don't understand
The meaning of growing up
But I wonder
Where that girl or that boy in my memory
Is now walking and aiming for
Daybreak comes quickly these days
The scent of wind has changed
It seems familiar and unfamiliar
It makes my heartbeat quicker
Sweet and sad
* We ran through the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far away summer days
The childhood memories are still in my heart
We never knew
What would be waiting for in our futures
What is left is what we chose
It's not casual at all
If the universe has a will
I think it surely worked on us
Tender and precious
**How many times have I sought for something
Found and lost it
Since that time?
***But your smile has taught me
That we are now
In the closest place to forever" - Ayumi Hamasaki
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Late 2005
Tomorrow will be James and my first anniversary since the first day we went out and fell in love with one another <3<3. I'll always remember it, because it's also the day before my birthday. I'm still not sure what to do or what I want for either of them, though I am wide open to any and all suggestions. He suggested tomorrow I pick him up from work and we head over to Lava Java, where we were on the very same day last year. I dig it. ^_^ Beyond that, I don't quite yet know what to do or give to fully express the obscenely huge magnitude of my affections. I'm really stumped. I thought about painting or drawing something cute or glamourously romantic with glitters and other pretties... still, I'm not sure specifically what to create. Dangit. *pouts and huffs, arms crossed*
Maybe I'll go work on that awhile and see what I come up with...
Arrgh. Can't stay up too long, I have to be to work at 10:00AM tomorrow. Work, by the way, is going very well. I am most pleased, and it looks like I now have a steady job. :D I just got my first paycheck today from Marble Slab Ice Creamery. 196.00 further out of debt, baby! Yeaahh!! It's a very slow process, but I am feelin' mighty fine and productive. Those I work with and the customers I've served thus far are largely nice and reasonably agreeable, particularly Shireen, my manager. :] I'm working every day this week except Saturday, which I requested off, but she said was still available if I should change my mind. I like the sound of that. ;) Cha-chiiing! $__$ She's expressed great interest in training me well enough that I can help manage and watch the store while she's away, and seems to place great emphasis in age [old'uns] = maturity and responsibility. *sinister smirk* I'm not about to tell her that I don't see myself as being much different than the others, still bearing a childlike mentality. I guess there's nothing wrong with that, so long as I uphold all that needs doing in a manner befitting the business. Yeah!! I still find that wildly amusing, knowing myself. All the same, I'm very honoured and humbled that I have found favor in her eyes, because I respect her greatly in that she treats us all as equals, is always concerned for our well-being, and we communicate on the same level, versus "I'm a higher-up, and you are my loyal minion, I am standing over you watching to make sure you do what you have to, telling you what to do". And we get to play our own music! Fun stuff. I got very lucky this time.
...
I want prettyshinygiftynewthings and partystuffs this year~!! o_0 Festivities! Flashythings! There's gotta be something to be said for being a quarter of a century, ne? I miss actual _parties_ like when I was younger. I don't understand this whole mentality a majority of people hold. "Oh, I'm too old for that". Say whaa..? You're only ever as old as you feel. That's my story and I'm stickin' to it. People are silly. Cast off preconcieved ideas and shine anew with the meaning behind yet another year you have been granted of life! Why should things grow duller with age? This concept frustrates me.
On a fairly unrelated note, in the search for inspiration, I return to the vast universe known as Deviantart and the Intarweb. It is here I find an Unseelie Allure.
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http://kayleigh.deviantart.com/
Lillyxandra
http://lillyxandra.deviantart.com/, http://www.firefly-path.net
& the illustrious Francesca Dani
http://francescadani.com/
Even now I don't understand
The meaning of growing up
But I wonder
Where that girl or that boy in my memory
Is now walking and aiming for
Daybreak comes quickly these days
The scent of wind has changed
It seems familiar and unfamiliar
It makes my heartbeat quicker
Sweet and sad
* We ran through the road to the sea
Screaming with laughter innocently
In the far away summer days
The childhood memories are still in my heart
We never knew
What would be waiting for in our futures
What is left is what we chose
It's not casual at all
If the universe has a will
I think it surely worked on us
Tender and precious
**How many times have I sought for something
Found and lost it
Since that time?
***But your smile has taught me
That we are now
In the closest place to forever" - Ayumi Hamasaki
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Late 2005
Tomorrow will be James and my first anniversary since the first day we went out and fell in love with one another <3<3. I'll always remember it, because it's also the day before my birthday. I'm still not sure what to do or what I want for either of them, though I am wide open to any and all suggestions. He suggested tomorrow I pick him up from work and we head over to Lava Java, where we were on the very same day last year. I dig it. ^_^ Beyond that, I don't quite yet know what to do or give to fully express the obscenely huge magnitude of my affections. I'm really stumped. I thought about painting or drawing something cute or glamourously romantic with glitters and other pretties... still, I'm not sure specifically what to create. Dangit. *pouts and huffs, arms crossed*
Maybe I'll go work on that awhile and see what I come up with...
Arrgh. Can't stay up too long, I have to be to work at 10:00AM tomorrow. Work, by the way, is going very well. I am most pleased, and it looks like I now have a steady job. :D I just got my first paycheck today from Marble Slab Ice Creamery. 196.00 further out of debt, baby! Yeaahh!! It's a very slow process, but I am feelin' mighty fine and productive. Those I work with and the customers I've served thus far are largely nice and reasonably agreeable, particularly Shireen, my manager. :] I'm working every day this week except Saturday, which I requested off, but she said was still available if I should change my mind. I like the sound of that. ;) Cha-chiiing! $__$ She's expressed great interest in training me well enough that I can help manage and watch the store while she's away, and seems to place great emphasis in age [old'uns] = maturity and responsibility. *sinister smirk* I'm not about to tell her that I don't see myself as being much different than the others, still bearing a childlike mentality. I guess there's nothing wrong with that, so long as I uphold all that needs doing in a manner befitting the business. Yeah!! I still find that wildly amusing, knowing myself. All the same, I'm very honoured and humbled that I have found favor in her eyes, because I respect her greatly in that she treats us all as equals, is always concerned for our well-being, and we communicate on the same level, versus "I'm a higher-up, and you are my loyal minion, I am standing over you watching to make sure you do what you have to, telling you what to do". And we get to play our own music! Fun stuff. I got very lucky this time.
...
I want prettyshinygiftynewthings and partystuffs this year~!! o_0 Festivities! Flashythings! There's gotta be something to be said for being a quarter of a century, ne? I miss actual _parties_ like when I was younger. I don't understand this whole mentality a majority of people hold. "Oh, I'm too old for that". Say whaa..? You're only ever as old as you feel. That's my story and I'm stickin' to it. People are silly. Cast off preconcieved ideas and shine anew with the meaning behind yet another year you have been granted of life! Why should things grow duller with age? This concept frustrates me.
On a fairly unrelated note, in the search for inspiration, I return to the vast universe known as Deviantart and the Intarweb. It is here I find an Unseelie Allure.
http://kayleigh.deviantart.com/
Lillyxandra
http://lillyxandra.deviantart.com/, http://www.firefly-path.net
& the illustrious Francesca Dani
http://francescadani.com/